I'm once again visited by the darkness who comes during unexpected times, one minute I'm cheerful and happily drawing then it crashes down getting a hold of me but I know I can not fight it, it'll leave when I suffered enough, it loves to make me suffer, people said they have a dark side but they truly don't know darkness until it takes a hold of you and you suffer during those horrible moments but I know it, it knows me, it visits when I'm cheerful, it leaves me to suffer it leaves I'm better in a minute or two maby it's better if I just leave this, i just hurt like the darkness who loves making me hate myself, am I better alone, do I deserve friends, or will they leave or will I hurt them, will they make the darkness stronger or will they help me out of it it loves when I'm like this, it follows waiting until it's time, since I was little it was there, it vanished for a little bit but it's here now, I hate it but it loves when I hate it, it's strong but it fades when I get it out, then I'm better until it visits again