Guys, I need to get something off my chest that's been hurting me lately. I've been having awful nightmares recently. I mentioned these in the first chapter of this book, but... they've gotten worse. In them, this girl I like hurts herself, a new way each night, and I'm forced to sit there and watch. 

They've started coming up at random times throughout the day as well, and I have to stay calm whenever they do. I can't control myself sometimes however. According to my friend who goes to school with me, I stop talking, start shaking, and start muttering. 

She knows, because at lunch one day, I saw talking to her, when everything went black and all I saw was the girl I like, standing there with a gun. I guess I was muttering in real life because in my "dream" I was yelling at her not to do it. I saw her shoot herself in the head. I snapped out of it when I felt my friend shaking me.

From what I can tell, there's no trigger, it just HAPPENS! They just pop up and say "hey, watch the love of your life try and kill herself!"

The girl in my "dream", who I've had a crush on for SO LONG, is perfectly fine in real life, but my mind is so sick and twisted that I could see it as if she WAS.

Just earlier today I was writing a Prinxiety fanfic in bed, when everything went black and I saw her with a BOMB strapped to her chest. I watched as she was blown to bits. I snapped out of it a minute later, but it...

Anyway, she's coming to visit me on the 17th of February, next weekend, and I'm planning on telling her how I feel then. Maybe it will help me, maybe not, but I need to know what you guys think of my plan. Should I do this?