| Original Chap— Lookism ep. 29 |
Ep. 26 The music is great, please listen to it towards the end :)

WARNING: I SKIPPED SOME SCENES SO I SUGGEST READING THE WEBTOON CHAPTER BEFORE AS IT WILL IMPACT THE NEXT CHAPTER!

"It's because she was your first love isn't it?" Jace points out as the Burnt Knuckle crew sat around the desks, talking casually to each other. They all were trying to comfort one of they members, who had recently broken up with his girlfriend.

So the heart broken, bald dude had his head on his knees, bawling his eyes out.

"Guys fall hard for the first girls they like" Jace tries reassuring him, patting him on the back as the other members nod with agreement. "So chin up, Woong. First loves are like that. Every guy experiences it once- since it's your first experience you couldn't tell if she was bad or not"

"What's wrong with Woong?" One of the embers asked another.
"He got dumped"
"Ah.. that was his first relationship tsk tsk"
"I was really stuck on my first girl too"
"I presented her with milk everyday"

"Your first girl causes your judgement to disappear. For a guy with no experience if a girl smiles at him it's all over"
"Haha so true!"

Vasco sits be himself as he folds his fingers together, he stays silent throughout the whole thing as he stares off into space. Listening in on the conversation at the same time, he started to wonder away but his mind completely started to focus on one image.

An image of your angelic face looking at him in the eyes. Smiling and waving at him.

"You know it because we all experienced relationships before right?"
"Haha yeah"

Vasco began tearing up as the droplets drips down his face. He was crying again, and he didn't know why this time.

***

You saw them chattering away, it was just small talk and you got use to it. And usually around this time, you'd stand up and go get something from the vending machine if you had extra change or use the restroom.

But today, you were gonna have to do something about Yui. It was just a gut feeling, but separating them would be the best option.

As you were blankly staring at Yui, she noticed your gaze.

You gave her your usual blank look and snobbed her, shrugging her glare off as you turned around and yawned.

"..." Yui stays quiet for a second as she just returned her attention back to Daniel.

***

You were working on something on your laptop as you had just finished signing up for your own account on this live streaming account called Paprika TV. It was the same one Zoe had set her account on, and she was nice enough to give you some tips on starting out too.

As you connected it together, you saw an option to name your stream, so being the creative genius that you were. You named your stream, Y/N's stream. Wow, the creativity.

You turned on your webcam, and before you knew it— you were live.

Now wait... What are we supposed to do in these livestreams? What did Zoe tell you to do again?

As you say cross legged on your bed, your webcam directed on your top half of your body, you crossed your arms underneath your chest as you didn't even realize people were already flooding into your account.

'All she told me was wear a tank top I think, or was there more?'

As you just sat there oblivious, wondering what you should do or say— you didn't even notice the fifty, no seventy, no hundreds of viewers starting to spam your chat.

And even through you were just in your pajamas, like a tank top and some basketball shorts. A lot of the thirsty mofos still commented some vulgar things.

WOW F##KING HOT
ANYBODY KNOW HER @??
SHE LOOKS (FAVORITE IDOL WHO LOOKS SORTA LIKE YOU?) 😍😍

"Aha, maybe I should show them my work out routine!" You think before turning back to your screen, your eyes widens as you see a total of three hundred viewers and counting coming into your livestream. Some even gifting you more than a hundred ($10) balloons for literally no reason at all.

Before you could do anything you coughed in your fist and waving at the webcam.

"Yo, I'm Y/N. Today in my chatroom I'm going to show you some of my work out techniques." You nodded as you crossed your arms, ready to get serious. The chat went wild, surprised comments lingered as they questioned if you were an exercise streamer or something. But a few comments in the chat recognized who you were, or at least who you used to be.

ISN'T SHE Y/N L/N THE CHILD STAR FROM A FEW YEARS AGO?
IS SHE A GYM TRAINER? THAT'S KINDA HOT.
WAIT SHE'S THAT Y/N?
THAN ISN'T SHE STILL IN HIGH SCHOOL!

"Alright so my workout routine is simple. 100 push-ups, 100 sit ups, 100 squats, and a 10 km run everyday" You state in a very sudden and serious voice.

...

IS SHE FORREAL?
A BADASS AND AN OTAKU?
I THINK I FOUND MY FUTURE WIFE.
I'M IN LUV ♡ ♡ ♡

You saw an increase in balloons as you racked in hundreds. Your eyes caught many of the usernames Boxer, Gangnam Landlord, GRetriever, Heroman, MiniMina, Rocky, etc. And you were content with your number of viewers as you showed a smirk.

"Alright jackasses, let me show how it's done!" You point at your webcam before standing back a bit, you than proceed to get down on your toes in a push-up position. Your body started to tense as you began to lift yourself up with both of your hands, doing a handstand before lifting your right behind your back. You began to do a one hand, vertical pushup with little to no problem as your viewers seemed to like it.

"Now it's important to keep your spine straight, and make sure to keep your finger spread out and flat against the ground." You instructed.

However little did you know— every time you did a push-up, your shirt revealed a bit of your stomach. Giving enough fan service to all your viewers as they spammed your chat with money.

You glanced at your screen— it seems like the biggest spenders in your chat was Gangnam Lord and another guy named 'ASDF'. You noticed the both of them were somewhat competing with each other, tossing out thousands of balloons as you furrowed your brows.

"Nice, so Gangnam Lord and ASDF, you two must be workout junkies." You said before sitting back down again, looking at your screen.

"Hey, how about whoever donates the most money, I'll teach you whatever you want." You commended yourself on your brilliant idea, "I'm a Taekwondo and Boxing expert, but I also know other Martial Art techniques if you want to learn."

REALLY?!?!
WAIT I NEED TO TRANSFER MONEY
DO SOME MORE PUSHUPS HONEY~~

As everybody paused in the chat for a second as your eyes brightened when you saw the chat being spammed with balloons. But in the end you saw only one person breaking the back and pushing up to 5000 balloons.

"ASDF, damn! You must be loaded" You hit your forehead, astonished before crossing your legs "So what would it be? Maybe some lessons on Taekwondo? What bout I teach you how to uppercut somebody?"

You waited for his response as the chat fills up with meaningless comments that you couldn't even keep up with.

LUCKY GUY
WHAT A BIG SPENDER
I WISH I WAS HIM
... IT COULD BE A GIRL TOO ASSHOLES

But what ASDF finally asked of you had completely caught you off guard.

(ASDF) CAN YOU JUST, BLOW A KISS AT THE WEBCAM PLEASE.

Your eyebrows scrunched together, 'Huh?'

Like here you were, ready to show off your moves, just to have somebody wanting you to... blow a kiss?

What the hell? Maybe you should've named your stream, 'Y/N Work Out Stream' instead. That's be even more creative.

But a deal was a deal. Even if it did take a blow at your dignity.

You just puckered your lips as your blew a kiss at the screen quickly.

HOT
I LOVE YOO!!
CUTE

"Yeah, I think that's gonna be it for today." You mentioned as you hovered your mouse over 'End Stream'. "I'll probably stream again in like, some other time. So, bye."

You ended your stream as quickly as you started it. And in the end, you had racked up upwards to eight hundred dollars in balloons. Which definitely made your day better.

"Hehe, I'm rich lol."

Y/N decided to celebrate her earnings that night by going food shopping without a budget, and not surprisingly she blew it all off on a whole two carts of groceries. And a Nintendo Switch with Animal Crossing.
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VASCO'S ROOM
Vasco only sits still on his study chair, his knees to his chest as he squeezes his new large lion stuffed animal close to him.

He had saw it on display at a nearby toy store, and the yawning face of the lion plushie had really reminded him of a certain somebody. So he had to get it.

He only wears a white tank top and fluffy doreamon pajama bottoms, the top showing off all his defined shoulders and biceps. Contrasting his bottom half very much.

The light of his computer had reflected a black "Stream has ended" screen on his pupils as he only sits quietly with his lion plush snuggled up against his large chest.

When you had done those pushups, he felt his stomach fluttering, but when you kissed the screen he almost fell out of his chair with a squeal. Vasco buries his head into his stuffed toy before letting out a girlish cry.
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ZACK'S ROOM
As Zack sits against the wall of his room, he scrolled through your Paprika profile. You had just ended your livestream— which he almost missed if he hadn't gotten out of his shower fast enough.

Yes ladies— Zack was half naked with only a towel low on his waist, his V line completely out and the droplets of water slowly sliding down the indents of his toned stomach.

He only felt his heart speeding up at the end as he still hadn't completely recovered from the display, when you had puckered your beautiful lips at the screen he felt like his heart stopped.

And he cursed himself for not screenshotting it on time, which made for a frustrated silent screaming contest in his room. (He didn't want to disturb his family).

As he continues looking through your new page, he heard his room's door creak open.

"Hey sweetie, dinner is ready—" Zack's Mom peaks in as she was cut off from seeing her son naked and on the computer. They both stared at each other as Zack's Mom shuts the door quickly "Sorry to disturb you"

"WAIT MOM, IT'S NOT WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE!" Zack yells as he reaches out.
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DANIEL'S ROOM
All the lights were turned off in his home, only the brightness of his laptop screen illuminated his tired face. Dark, under eye bags were prominent as Daniel had just finished recording and saving the livestream video of you into his backup, and mains download folders.

An eerie smile cracked on his face as he chuckles darkly "I finally had my kiss with her". He closes his eyes as just a moment ago when you had leaned in on the screen, Daniel did the same, kissing you gingerly on the lips through the virtual wall that separates you too.

"Now that I kissed her... She's officially mine... right? Nobody can take Y/N from me, that would be... cheating right?" Daniel starts off with a small laugh before breaking into a loud maniacal one.

"Hey shut up in there! I'm trying to sleep!" One of his other neighbors yelled (that's not you).

"Eep! Sorry m'am!" Daniel jolts as he sighs tiredly.

'I should probably get back to work...'
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JAY'S ROOM

Jay smiles gently as he looks at the screenshots of your kiss directed towards him (ASDF). He was saving this precious memory as he traces his thumb around your lips on his desk too screen.

He smiles before air dropping the picture to his phone, ready to make you his background picture.
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DOWNTOWN; BACK TO YOU
As you spent your last pretty penny on your two month supply of groceries (which you totally don't regret) you walked around the streets with large plastic bags filled with goodies and a Switch, stacked on top of your arms.

As the lights illuminated your path, you tried your best walking through without bumping into the curious and astonished bystanders that watched you basically juggle a towers of grocery bags.

It's fine through, despite you not being able to see much in front of your eyes, the serotonin you felt from buying Animal Crossing would be enough to get you back home.

You head towards your neighborhood with a large smile on your face. You hummed a happy tune but as you got closer to the end of the city streets, you heard sobbing.

You tilted your head as you glanced towards the direction of the noise, eyes trained on a group of girls crying over something they were seeing on the TV behind the window of a Electronics shop.

'Why the hell are they all huddled together— crying?' You asked yourself as you looked at whatever they were sobbing at.

You eyes locked with the giant TV screen trying to read the text that was zooming by, the screen seemed to reflect the Korean News network. With a single picture of a handsome Korean man with swept by brown hair and a cute smile was shown. It seemed to be a photo with yellow, white and pink flowers surrounding the frame.

You tried reading some of the words on screen, however you were a bit too far away to see them clearly so all you could get out of it was the words "Death, Suicide, Kpop celebrity, and Jonghy..." and that was about it.

You felt your heart strings tighten at the words 'Suicide' as you put all your stuff on the ground for a moment.

You closed your eyes as you held your head down, holding your hands together, 'My condolences to you, I hope wherever you are— you are at peace'.

You finished your small prayer, scooping up your stuff before turning and slowly walking down the cold, dark Seoul street. Stuffing your hands in your jacket pockets as your eyes looked down the entire way back home.

"No one is truly alone. Those who live no more, whom we loved, echo still within our thoughts, our words, and our hearts"
-UNKNOWN

12.18.16
The sky seems a bit dimmer as a bright star has died out.

I didn't personally see, listened, or knew who you were Jonghyun. But when I heard about your death, it became such a sad day.

You seemed like a bright person, even through I only seen you through pictures on a screen. However- all I could see was a beautiful, slightly awkward and great smile of a young man taken so soon.

A young man who held great sadness behind a bright smile like that was a shame. Because your music had reached the hearts of so many, that you will not be forgotten any time soon.

My condolences to your family, fans, and friends.

I truly hope you are in a better place now.

☾Goodnight☽

*＊✿❀ Kim Jong-Hyun ❀✿＊*

You Did it Well.