It has been 4 days since that first meeting of Thaku Maa with Mini, Mini is still not so comfortable with her and Thaku Maa tries her best to make her feel comfortable..... It was early morning, Bondita was sitting on the dining table with Thaku Maa, Sumati and Rimjhim..... chopping vegetables for the lunch preparation, Som and Veer left early in the morning for some factory work assigned by Binoy.... and the others were sleeping peacefully in their rooms as its just 6 in the morning..... 

TM: Bonditaaa......

Bon: jii Thaku Maa???

TM: Bondita mein jaanti hu ki Mini teri apni beti nahi h fir bhi tu usse bohot pyaar krti h.... pr beta teri shaadi ko 10 saal ho gaye h.... to teri kokh abhi tak khaali kyu h??? jamaai babu tujhse pyaar nahi krte kya??? ya fir koi or dikaat h...

Bondita's face become pale listening this, 

Sum: ye aap kya bl rahi h Thaku Maa.... jamaai babu Bondita se bohot pyaar krte h..... shayad unhe abhi bache nahi chahiye honge...

TM: arrey ese kese?? pyaar krte h to pyaar ki nishaani to honi hi chahiye na..... kahi esa to nahi ki tu unhe khush na rakh paati ho..... unki mardo waali ichae poori nahi kr paati ho..... ya tujhme hi khot ho kuch.... agar esa h to bata de Bondita.... hum tere pariwaar waale h..... humse kya chupaana....

Rim: Saasu Maa... aap kesi baatein kr rahi h bachi se..... ye unki neeji zindagi ki baatein h.... hume bataane me lajja nahi aaegi use???

TM: Tum dono apni zabaan band rakho.... me apni poti se baat kr rahi hu.....uski khushiyon me or uske dukhon me uska saath dena farz banta h humara.... (to Bondita) dekh beta mene tujhse zyada ye duniya dekhi h...... ache se jaanti hu mardo ki fidrat.... jitna jaldi ho sake.... Roy Chaudhary Parivaar ko uska asli waaris de de.... maanti hu Mini ko unhone apne khandaan ka pehla waaris ghoshit kr diya h.... pr apna khoon to apna hi hota h na..... dekh beta tu hamaari bachchi h... hum kabhi tujhe dukh me nahi dekh paenge... pr ye samaaj esa hi h.... agar ladki shaadi ke ek saal ke andar andar ghar ko waris nahi deti to log taane maarne lagte h use.... or ek do saal baad uske sasurral waale use ghar ka kachra samajhkar ya to ek kone me chod dete h ya fir use bojh samajh kr ghar se hi nikaal dete h... or uska pati doosri ptani laane me samay nahi lagata.....

Bondita's eyes were failing to control the teras but she was gripping the knife more tightly to control herself and not to get affected by such things again but her last line broke her patience and she shouted.... closing her ears tightly with her hands.........

Bon: BASSSSSS!!!!! bas kijiye.... bas kijiye thaku maa.... or mat boliye..... mere pati  babu esa kabhi nahi karenge..... (started crying)... kabhi bhi nahi......

TM: Tere bolne se kuch nahi hoga Bondita.... tere bhale ke liye  hi keh rahi hu.... samajh jaa...... bhale kitna hi acha kyon na ho pati.... pr hote saare mard ek se hi h na..... or jamaai babu bhi ek mard hi h.... tu nahi to koi or aurat... pr koi to chahiye hoga na unhe unki ichaae poori krne ke liye......

Bon (again lost her control) : nahi.... nahi nahi... esa nahi ho skta..... agar esa h to me ye nahi dekh paungi.... bilkul bhi nahi... esa ho usse pehle hi me..... (she gulped the lump that was formed in her throat due to excessive crying)..... usse pehle hi me.......

She looked here and there and then noticed the knife she was holding in her hands.... without thinking once she slid the knife on her wrist......... and fell down..... blood was continuosely flowing from her wrist making the scene more horrific.....

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Ani (screamed): BONDITAAAAAA!!!!!!!

He woke up with a jerk, he was sweating badly, breathing heavily, panting hard....... he suddenly got off from the bed and without thinking once he ran down to the hall and noticed Bondita sitting on the dining table with Thaku Maa, Sumati, and Rimjhim.....and with the same knife in her hand as in his dream a while ago....he also witnessed tears flowing down her cheeks...... he quickly climbed down the stairs and pulled her up from the chair holding her hands...... he quickly took off the knife from her hands and threw it away and engulfed her tightly in his arms being scared of losing her..... this was not new to Bondita and others..... this has become like a daily routine to see him in this condition..... and the first incident started from the terrace incident, then sometimes he dragged her from the riverside in fear that she might jump in the river... sometimes dragged her out of the kitchen in fear that she will hurt herself with the gas flames..... and today he got scared looking knife in her hand...... Bondita gently rubbed his back to calm him and others started looking here and there trying to ignore their posture....... tears were flowing from both of their eyes.... Anirudh was shedding tears in fear of losing her she was shedding tears seeing her pati babu's condition and somewhere she was blaming herself for his condition......

Bon (softly said): kya hua pati babu..... aap kyu dar rahe h??? 

Anirudh broke the hug and took her wrist in his hand examining it deeply if she has really hurt herself or again it was his dream...... and then he noticed that nothing happened with her, he looked back at the floor seeing that knife with horror-filled eyes..... pointing his shaky finger towards it, he stammeringly asked her.....

Ani: ye...ye......ye...tumhaare haath me kya kr raha tha??? tu..tu..tum kya krne jaa rahi thi.... huuh???? tum kyu kr rahi thi esa????

He moved towards Thaku Maa,

Ani: aa...aap...aap meri Bondita ko.....kya....ulti seedhi patti padha rahi thi??? esa kuch nahi hoga.... samajhi aap (raising his voice a bit) kabhi bhi nahi.....

Thaku Maa and others were confused about what he was talking...... and why is he behaving like a maniac from past few days..... Thaku Maa was startled listening the intensity of his voice..... Bondita quickly went to him and holding his elbow, she made him look at her......

Bon (gently cupped his face): shaant shaant.... shaant ho jaiye pati babu.... mujhse kisine kuch nahi kaha.... aapne fir se koi sapna dekha na.....

Ani (murmured): Sapna???

Bon: haan sapna.....me kuch nahi kr rahi thi.... I was just chopping the vegetables..... I was just helping them....

Ani: to...to...tum ro kyu rahi thi??? mene dekha tumhaari aankhon me aansu the......

Bon (wiping off her real tears): pati babu, I was chopping onion..... aansu nahi the vo.... aankhon se paani aa raha tha..... me ro nahi rahi thi.... 

Anirudh again felt embarrassed for creating a scene once again.... without saying any word, he downed his face and started walking past Bondita, but today she will not let him go like this.... she was bearing the pain of seeing his condition...... but now she really needs to confront him.... today she needs to ask him some questions and wants him to clear her as well as his own insecurities...... she held his hand and pulled him back to the same place he was standing......

He was continuously gazing at the floor expressionlessly..... Bondita made him looke in here eyes which were full of tears and pain.....

Bon: me tab bhale hi nahi ro rahi thi pr ab zaroor ro rahi hu..... me ro rahi hu... mera dil ro raha h..... mujhe dard ho raha h......

Ani (slowly); kyu jaan?? kyu ro rahi ho tum???

Bon (tears again made their way down her cheeks so did his): aapki wajah se.... aapke ye haalat dekh kr.... ye ho kya raha h aapko Pati babu??? aap apne hosh kyu kho baithte h???

Ani: me kaha... me kaha hosh khota hu??? vo to bs....

Bon: vo to bs aapko meri chinta rehti h.... hena???? yahi kehna chahte h na aap???

Ani nodded his head slightly......

Bon (raising her voice a bit): pr itni chinta achi h kya??? bataiye??? ese baar baar kabhi mujhe kahi se kheech kar lana... kabhi mujhe kisi se door kr dena.... kabhi kisi cheez ke paas bhi na jaane dena..... ye kya h??? kyu kar rahe h aap esa??? boliye..... boliye na... ab chup kyu h... boliye....

Ani (losing his patience he shouted): because I'm scared....I'm scared for you... I'm scared of losing you..... har roz subah ye hi sapna dekhta hu ki tum door jaa rahi ho mujhse.... How can I let you go.... I need you to survive...... I can't live without you...... I can't even breath without.....  cause you are my love, my life, my oxygen, my heartbeat, my affection...........my addiction..... yes I'm badly addicted to you now...... I'm highly obsessed with you shona......

Bon (angrily):SHUTTTTT UPPPP!!!!!!! Shut Upp pati babu.... I know what am I for you...... I don't need you to chant this everyday..... I know you love me.... I know you care for me..... I even know that you are scared of losing me.... and so am I..... yes I'm also scared of losing you nowadays.... the way you behave... the way you show your concern... sorry sorry.... concern beyond limits is making me feel uncomfortable..... its making me feel insecure...... I know I need some extra care and love because of my mental issues......but everything has a limit... and your care for me is crossing its all limits..... I'm feeling suffocated now......you are bounding me to meet people so that they cannot taunt me.... you are bounding me to do anything which can cause harm to me.... you are bounding me..... and you are not my pati babu.... my pati babu never binds me from doing anything..... he was the one who wanted me to fly high in the sky..... but you are the one who is making me feel like I'm a caged bird.... just because of your insecurities..... and just because of your senseless insecurities I'm also becoming insecure for your health..... just look at your condition..... you know what!!!! people says that  Barrister Babu has become a "MANIAC" he doesn't have control on himself.... is that true??? no it's not true right now..... but I can sense it becoming true soon if you will behave the same you are behaving right now....... I'm suffering from a mental problem na??? not you..... I know that incident still affects me and I loses my self control..... so you cares for me.... but have some sympathy for your own too..... you are deteriorating your health day by day because of this..... why don't you understand that not only me you too are affected by those incidences..... indeed you pretend to be all ok... but you are not.... let me explain you from starting.... the day when you got married to Manorama di..... this was the only problem that for which you think that I'm suffering today but you too are suffering pati babu.....not only I lost my pati babu.... you too lost me in your second marriage... the more I got hurt, the more you pained.... the more I cried, the more your eyes swelled.... the more I bleed, the more you stained.... Not only me....this was our condition after your fake marriage.... coming to the next incident.... the day when I lost my child...... not only me.....you too lost your child.... If I am bearing the pain of losing my child as a mother....then who you are??? you too were a father... It was indeed my flesh...but the blood was yours.... you too are as hurt as I... I know I'm not stable mentally, but you too are emotionally unstable..... then why you are caring only for me and why not yours too... I know you love me more then yourself...I'm your life.... I'm your heart....but what if your life loses her breath... what if your heart loses its heartbeats.... she'll never be able to survive.... pati babu you are my every single breath and every singly heartbeat.... If you are scared of losing me... then I'm your better-half, I too feel the same you feel for me... I'm also scared of losing you... why don't you understand that you are the most precious thing to me, much more precious then my own life, I can't lose you....it's a die heart request that please take care of yourself too, otherwise, it will be proved as unbearable pain for me... and don't focus only on me.... you too have your life...enjoy it.... and don't waste it by having a fear of losing me all the time... I'm trying my level best to be normal and not to get affected by those incidences...I'll be cured soon with your love, affection and care.... but if you will be tensed all the time just because of me, then how can you think that I'll be fine someday...I hope you are understanding my point of view....

She was so angry at him for being careless for himself..... she said this in a single breath shouting at the top of her lungs bringing everyone at the hall...... the people standing there were shocked and scared at the same time after seeing her this side..... Anirudh was all baffled listening to her..... she was indeed angry.... it was evident from the way she was scolding him but her love and concern for him were also evident from her tears that were flowing down aimlessly her cheeks..... don't know about other's but he can easily sense that mixture of emotions...... 

She didn't let him speak, just after completing her so long breathless speech, she ran to her room crying badly and wiping her tears on the way...... Anirudh noticed her retreating figure from behind with his blurry vision...... the only thing he said after she went was.....: Mishti..... he whispered only this much, he wiped off his tears and then he too went out of the house to calm himself and to decipher what just happened...... leaving all the others behind....

who understood what she said were crying silently and who didn't got what she said were giving confused looks.... they just understood that she was shouting at him, scolding him for something which is very rare to see... that a wife is shouting her husband and he is just listening to her without intertwining her......

(What do you think??? Whatever Bondita said was right or not??? Surely Tell me in the comments...... plzzzz)

Hey guys!!!! next chapter here..... see I dropped the idea of putting my story on hold during my exams ..... I am still writing for you guys...... so please show some love yrr...... I think you didn't pay any heed to my last request.... and that's the reason I got just 4 comments in my last chapter..... the lowest no. of comments in my whole story..... I'm highly disappointed......and that's the reason I wasn't able to write a long chapter.......If you didn't like the chapters then also let me know the comments section, tell me where am I lacking to get you guys satisfied.... I will not say anything now.... please don't ignore and yes, don't forget to vote atleast..... 

Thanks to those who read till here,
meet you in the next chapter.
Bye bye!!!!
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