They both started to explain what it entails to be an angel or a demon. the kind of powers you will inherit such as dream walking for angels or mind control for demons. they explained those things don't work on each but they do work on humans. I listened attentively.

 A dark feeling started to grow inside of me because this was either a thought through elaborate prank or they were actually telling the truth. I recapped the moments since I met them, all the secrecy around the two of them.

Eventually they were done explaining and there was another silence

  'so what happened to my parents?' I then asked

They looked at each other doubtly, could this get even worse?

   'uhm so its against our law to have any form of relations with an angel. so when you came into life it become known they were a couple. Aamon, your father was called, was executed'

My eyes widened, a pain in my heart for my father who died for such a stupid reason

    'and my mother?' I diverted my question to Jimin 

    'she, Celeste, uhm, well you were a halfy so there was no place for you in heaven therefore they came up with the plan to seal your powers till your 18th birthday, let you live among the humans and when the time was right let you choose a side'

He took a deep breath again   'so you were living with the humans, and she found out Aamon was executed and she had a hard time reintegrating with the angels so then she uhm she killed herself'

This time tears rolled over my cheeks while I listened in astonishment. my parents story was so tragic, and perhaps there had been always a part of me that hoped to see them again because I was never sure they were dead but now I was. Taehyung and Jimin both leaned forward to give me some comfort

    'please don't' I weeped

After hearing this I felt resentment towards both groups. I quickly wiped away my tears.

 'I don't want to choose either' I stated firmly

   'uh what?' they both sumptuously let out

-   'you're telling me my dad was executed by demons and my mom was cast out and had to give me up. I mean just because they fell in love? I don't know your kind, and from what you told me they are both not great.

I like it here, living with gran. I don't want any of this. I wont choose and stay here'

I crossed my arms in a way to make it even more clear.

   'if you don't choose you will inherit both powers but expected with only half the strength, you wont belong to any group, you wont be an angel, nor devil but also not human. and I don't think Lucifer will accept it' 

    'what do you mean won't accept it?'

Jimin and Taehyung exchanged a glance

    'you mean he will kill me?' I asked more specific

Taehyung nodded looking down

   'and I don't think the angels will protect you if you are not part of their group' Taehyung then said. I looked at Jimin and he kind of nodded in agreement.

There was a fear taken hold of me. It felt like this was check mate, there was nothing I could do. I was forced to choose either one of them. My life as it was now couldn't continue?

No this was all bullshit.

I got up

   'you are both fucking crazy' and with that I ran out. 

I walked around the town in the pitch black darkness. I walked and walked, my head almost exploding of all this new information. It was insane to think I first thought I needed to make a choice between two boys but now it appeared that choice was connected to choosing my life for I guess the rest of eternity.

It was stupid but it did explain a lot, my parents, my continuous inside battle.

I walked over the bridge crossing the river. but I stopped while standing at the middle of the bridge, I looked down over the railing. if I would jump as a human I would probably die, could I even die? I wasn't too sure.

I thought about everything. the choice, my parents. it was all too much, everything was too much.

I didn't want to leave Gran, or Seojoon or my life as it now was, and choose for a group that executed my dad or that outcasted my mother.  

I was feeling so hopeless and scared.

I stepped over the railing. the stupid thing was that I was ready to jump, I mean either die because the devil will kill me or by my own choice right? or what seemed more probable was that I wasn't thinking rationally anymore. but after all the shit I heard tonight what even was rational?

I closed my eyes and for a split second I saw Jimins face smiling at me.

I'm sorry I thought

I leaned forwards until a certain shout broke me from my trance.

   'Y/N STOP'

Taehyung? 

   'Please y/n get back behind the railing' Taehyung urged

   'Does it even matter?' I asked with a shaky voice 'can I even die like this?'

  'I don't know, the transition period is not very known to us, we don't know what can happen to you'

   'I don't know what to do Taehyung'

I didn't mean about jumping or not, I meant about everything.

   'I know, its a lot but please just get back here and we can talk about it okay?' his voice sounded calm but his body language and eyes showed how panicked he was.

My legs were shaking but I gave a nod. getting back behind the railing. Taehyung ran towards me pulling me into a hug. 

   'don't ever do that again'

     'its just how can I accept what you told me as the truth? its crazy. it feels unreal. and making a choice like that. I don't know how to. Like I mean you and Jimin and yeah I just' I rattled. 

Taehyung hummed mysteriously

    'what?' I asked

   'They have that human saying that just before you die you see your life flash before your eyes. What did you see?' he asked curiously