Jade POV

I had been home over a week and some how in all that time I had managed to avoid looking at my body. I just hadn't been ready to look at my scars, I wasn't ready for Damian to look at them either, gone were the days of sleeping next to him in next to nothing, now I was completely covered up convinced that if he saw my body he would never want to touch me again. I had wanted to breast feed Mack but that hadn't happened, a mixture of not wanting to see my body and fearing my scar would scare him prevented that.

Not long after we left hospital my mom flew out to stay with us again, to help look after Mack, when Damian said he was calling her to let her know I was alright I asked him not to tell her about my heart, I knew she would be devastated and I couldn't stand to see that pain in her eyes again.

While mom and D were downstairs taking care of Mack I had decided to take this moment alone to finally look at my scar, standing in front of the full length mirror I take a deep breath and open my robe. I look at myself intently taking in every detail of the two scars that now adorned my torso.
The one on my now not so flat stomach didn't bother me it was the one running down my chest, between my breast that did. I feel the tears pool in my eyes unable to take my eyes off my reflection which admittedly had changed a bit, I let out a sigh as only one thought circles my mind - D will never want to come near me again if he sees this.

Damian POV

"Mi amor, your mom has taken Mack for a walk in his pram" I say as I walk into the room, looking up just in time to see her frantically wrap her robe around herself and wipe her eyes. "Princesa what's wrong what's happened?" I ask walking over to her

"Nothing, I'm fine honestly" she says giving me a half smile

"It didn't look like nothing" I say wrapping my arms around her from behind "you know them being gone means we have sometime alone" I say kissing her neck.

She leans back against me closing her eyes, I continue kiss her neck as my hands reach for the belt on her robe, the second I touch it she tenses up, grabs my hands and stops me.

"I can't yet I need to heal remember" she says but instinctively I know there is more to it then that

"We don't have to make love mi amor, there are other ways I can pleasure you" I say returning my lips to her neck

"I'm sorry D I'm just not in the mood" she says stepping away from me

"What's going on princesa?" I ask "please talk to me"

"I don't want you to see my body" she sighs wrapping her arms around herself keeping her back to me "you won't want me if you do"

I close the gap between us and wrap my arms around her once again before moving her in front of the mirror. I reach for the belt on her robe once again and once again she stops me.

"I love you and I will always want you" I say quietly "let me see"

She loosens her grip on my hands and I untie the belt, I slowly open the rope and look at her in the mirror. At the same time she looks away.

"Look at yourself mi amor" I say "what do you think when you see your scars?" I ask

"That they are ugly, unattractive and I wouldn't blame you if you never wanted to touch me again" she says as tears filled her eyes

"You're wrong" I say as I gently run my fingertips down the scar on her chest "I love this scar, I love it becuase this scar means your still alive, it means Mack and I didn't lose you, it means your still here loving me in a way only you can, it means you survived. Your body may look different now but it's still beautiful to me, I still have the desire to make love to you even though I can't"

"How can you still find me beautiful when I look like this?" She asks and I smile softly

"Because you are still the woman I fell in love with" I say "and no matter what happens, no matter how much your body changes I will always find you beautiful, I love you mi amor, for better or worse, in sickness and in health........"

"Til death do us part" She says looking at me questioningly

"No I will love you much longer than that princesa" I smile "much longer"