Andrew and I have had our first 'fight' a week after the London trip. I left and haven't talked to anyone for the past 4 days. There's a knock and I open the door to see them. "Saph?" I connect my eyes with Andrew and his eyes are red. "Y-Yeah?" "You okay?" I shake my head.

Ryland shares a look with Morgan and Shane. "Why?" I shake my head. "Did it involve Andrew?" "Y-Yeah..." Morgan hugs me and I cry in her shoulder. My sobs are muffled and I feel more arms around us. I feel my arm being tugged on and let it happen. The person leans down to my ear.

He whispers to me. "I'm sorry..." "Why?" "I've never been in a relationship and I don't want to lose you." I hug Andrew and cry on his shoulder. Andrew turns to them. "Can we be alone guys?" "Sure." They leave and we lay on my bed. We don't say anything and I lay on Andrew's chest.

He sighs quietly. "I missed you..." I look at him. "Me too." He looks at me and smiles. "Can we be back together?" "I don't know...why'd we break up?" "This was my first real relationship...I didn't want to lose you to someone else..." "You'll never get rid of me Siwicki."

He smiles and we lay like this for a bit. I lay on top of him. "T-this okay?" "Yeah." There's a knock on the door. I look at Andrew. "can we keep this from them?" "if that helps." I nod. "Come in." I get off Andrew and sit beside him. "So is my favourite couple back together?"

"Well, we mended our friendship..." "At least we're all friends." We all get in the car and go to Andrew's house. I smile remembering the memory we shared in the house. Morgan looks at how my face lights up when I in the house. "Good memories..." I look down so it looks like I'm sad.

"Yeah..." "You guys'll get back together." I smile at Morgan and Andrew motions me to the bedroom. I walk over and he pulls me in and whispers in my ear,  "I love you." I whisper back, "I love you too." He gives me a kiss and we leave the room. We're confronted with three faces.

"Just friends?" "Yeah, we were talking about how we could date other people." I look at Andrew on how he can keep this up. I sigh and shake my head. "I don't think I want to date anymore..." I look down and then up at Andrew. "Y-you'll always be a g-good friend." I run out of the house.

~11:37

I make my way back to the house and see Andrew sitting on the couch with another person. I stand near the window. "I can't believe she left." "It's fine, you have me..." "I guess, it's just not the same without Sapphire..." "You  really like her don't you..." "yeah." "I like you..." 

Once I hear that I go away crying. I go to my house and my phone buzzes with messages from them. I call them and they sound happy and worried. "You okay?" "no." "why?" "Ask Andrew..." "You're on speaker." "Andrew......" "Yeah?" "I guess I was just a nice hookup."

"No, I really love you." "love-ed." "What do you mean?" "At the house around midnight..." "Fellow YouTuber who stayed by to do a video with Shane." "She was all over you.." "I didn't want her,  I want you..." "I-I have to go." 

I hang up and lay on my bed like I was like when they came over last time. There's a knock and the door opens. "Saph?" (I just noticed that if it's spelt Sapphire, then it should be Sapph, keeping it Saph.) "What?" "Can we come in?" "Is Andrew there?" "Yeah." "Fine..."

They come in and Shane sits on the bed. "Saph?" "What?" "Can Andrew talk to you?" I shrug. "He really misses you, look at him, he hasn't edited in a while. Too concerned about you." I look at Andrew and he looks exhausted. I let out a small whimper, "Andrew..."

He looks up lightly and sees me. He sees my red eyes, red nose, and messy hair. He then looks at my wrists. I hide my wrist and he comes over. "Sapphire?" "Yeah?" "I love you..." I look up at him and see it in his eyes, he really does love me. He grabs my wrists and I wince.

I pull them back and shake my head. Shane looks at me. "you okay?" "No..." "What'd you do?" "Shane...how are you with self-harm?" "I don't particularly like it." I show them my wrists. "Why...Saph?" "I did it because of all the times I messed up......the times I hurt you guys."

Andrew sits beside me with an arm around me. "You haven't messed up, you helped us." "How?" "You made me fall in love, Morgan has a best friend, and Shane and Ryland have a person to have around who gets them." I smile at Andrew and lean on his shoulder. "thanks."

"Let's go to my house and start a video!" "It's almost midnight Shane." "It's just a simple get to know about...." "Who is it?" "It's gonna be Saph and Andrew."

~We go to Shane's house.