Surbhi's POV

Isn't it an amazing feeling when you really like someone. I was smiling... Smiling like an idiot.

When Anand and Priya were taking vows I was seeing Mahir smiling. How I wanted him to smile like this for ever and honestly now I wanted to be the reason of his smile.

I wanted to take away all his pains. I know he might think me as his friend only and I have no problem in that. What I just want is he should be happy.

After the wedding I came home. Neeti di messaged me and said that she's going London for some important work for a month and jiju was already there.

After sleeping for sometime I messaged Mahir. A smile appeared again on my face by his name.

"Hey. Mahir. Woke up or still sleeping" I messaged

Soon my phone popped with his message

""Surbhi.I'm going Out of india today only. So don't try on this number. I'll not be available for days" came his message

What!! He didn't had any plans till morning.
What happened so suddenly.

Of course work issues Surbhi.

He said not to try on this number. He might be sending me the other number to contact him.

"Okay send me the active number " I typed and thinking this I went to bathroom.

After bathing and getting ready I saw my phone.

It had been 2 hours since I messaged.

Seeing the message was far away thing..His mobile data was also not on.

There was just one tick on message.

He Might be busy in Office.

But he always replied me. Why hasn't he replednow.

Surbhi... idiot. He has many important works other then replying you. He'll reply you after some time. I know he'll reply after 2 hours.

Yes in his Lunch break.

I kept my phone and went to study room for studying. After two hours I smiled to myself and looked at my phone. He must have messaged me.

But No!! He didn't messsge me till now.

I hope he's fine because now it was bothering me.

He never did so. What has happened to him. There were even two ticks on the message. It meant he had his mobile data on. But he didn't reply me.

Is he ignoring me.

No surbhi!! Why will he ignore you. He's not like that.

I waited for his message for the whole day. I didn't get any. Suddenly my phone rang.

It must be Mahir. Now Compensating the loss by calling.

I went towards the phone when my smile disappeared.

"Hey Neeti di" I answered

"Hey Surbhi. What's up" she asked

"All good di. You say" I said

 I cannot tell her anything. She even don't know about me liking Mahir.

"What happened Surbhi. You fine " she asked

"Yeah of course di. What will happen to me. How did you called " I questioned

"No just wanted to talk to you " said di

Oh di..how to tell you that I want to talk to only one person right now.No one else.

"Surbhi. You seems to be lost some where. What happened " she asked again

"No no di. Nothing. How's you and jiju. How's your health " I asked

"Everything is good. I was saying that your college are over right. So please come here na" she said

"What.London. But di"  I  tried to say

"Surbhi please. Even I have made masi agree to this.Now don't deny please " she pleaded

"Di but how... " I sighed

"Just for 10 days.pleasee" she said

"Okay fine " I told.

I was not in the mood to go anywhere.. but I can't deny her on anything.

"Great. Your tickets are ready. You'll be coming tomorrow " she said

"What. You've decided it early right " I asked

"Yessss !!" She said.

"Fine. Coming. Now bye okay " I told

"Yeah byye " she replied

I saw my phone to see if Mahir has messaged but no. After some time I went for dinner. I didn't had any mood for eating so I just had a bowl of soup.

"Surbhi what happened. Why aren't you eating " asked bhai

"I've eaten granola bars before sometime so I'm full" I lied.

"Okay bye.I'm leaving tomorrow so I'll pack my bags and sleep. Good night everyone " I faked a smile and went to room.

I didn't want anyone to know my state of mind.

Mahir!! What has happened.

Why the hell aren't you replying. I'm tensed. I don't even know what's this.

You are making me crazy.

Just wait. Once you come back and meet me I'll punch your face.

I said and grabbed my diary to write something.

To write for him.. I was missing his anger..I was missing his frustration.. I was missing his talks... I was missing his face.. I was missing his Smile....

I WAS MISSING HIM.

What are you doing to me Mahir. I can't even spend a day with out talking to you.

I started writing .....

"Na jaane kaisa nasha hai apki in annkho mai..
Jitna dekhu utna aapme doob jaati hu !
Yeh hasi aapke hoto ki dekh..
Na jaane kab unme kho si jaati hu !!
fitoor apka kuch esa chadha hai sar par ki...
Apki hasi mai apni khushi dhoond laati hu !
Or apki bas ek jhalak dekh mai..
Apne saare dard bhul jaati hu !!
Ek jhalak dekh apki mai..
Apne saare dard bhul jaati hu !! "

Writing this a lone Tear escaped my eyes.

Atleast you should've replied Mahir. You don't even know what you've become for me.

Atleast you should've replied.

Sleep was no where to come.

I packed my bags. Flight was of 12pm.

I went to bed and closed my eyes. There was only one face coming in front of me..

If this is called Falling for someone then yeah ....

I am falling for you Mahir.

I am falling for you!!

MAHIR'S POV

I was on my private terminal. I tried many a times not to think about Surbhi but how can I not think of her. She was in my mind right now.. Everything would have been so great if Surbhi was only in mind.. But there was something more bothering my mind.

Mom asked me what's that much important that I've to leave today only but I told her that some business issues.

I had some pending works in London so it's good to be there and keep myself busy in those things so that I'll not remember her.

But was that possible!!!

You've to make it possible Mahir.

You've to be away from her. She deserves better. She don't deserve an arrogant rude man like you. She don't even deserve a friend like you. She's the one who makes everyone smile.... And you.
You cannot make even yourself smile so how will you make her happy.

I can never deny that she's the girl I like...

Or I must say she's the girl I've fallen for.

I know it is going to be very difficult for me. I can't even live without talking to her. I... I don't know what's happening.
I can't come over that small thing which happened with me in my past so how can I think of a future with her.

Yeah it might be small thing for other people. But I was a hell sensitive person that time... Now see what I became and then Surbhi came in life... Who tried to bring that Mahir back.. But no.. That Mahir can never be Back. I'll never be able to.

"Sir. What you'll eat for dinner" asked the air hostess

"No nothing. And don't come again and again. I don't want anything and no disturbance. Understood" I said in frustration and she nodded a bit frightened.

Before boarding the jet I switched on my phone to change my sim card to change the number. I know her. She'll try calling me. She's a concerned person...But I know I can't even lie to her properly.

She comes to know when I lie.

I saw my phone. I opened our chat. I saw a message from Aanand.

He sent me some image.

When did he clicked this.

It was a image of me and Surbhi laughing.

A smile automatically appeared on my face.

I am sorry Surbhi. I didn't have any other option.

I am like fire Surbhi. If I come near you you'll burn in this rage.

I am not a good friend Surbhi. You deserve better. But yeah thankyou for giving me these 20 days to be happy.

I'm happy that I met you...

After years happiness came in my life...But happiness and I don't go hand in hand.

Every happiness vanishes from my hand. I know one day you'll also be fed up from me and leave me.
I can't make you my habit. That's why I've to go away from you.

Sorry for giving you tension but I know you have more good friends than me and you'll forget this friend of yours very soon.
You even don't know that I've fallen for you. 

I switched off the phone and closed my eyes.

Only one face kept rotating all the time. I don't know when did I slept.

I woke up when air hostess knocked.

"Sir we're about to land In London " she said and I nodded

Soon the jet landed on the private terminal.

Pheeww.

London is good and that shitty paparazzi is not dancing behind me here. I can go alone whenever I want.

My car was waiting outside for me. I directly went to my house. After getting inside my room I freshened up and came out. I had my meeting with some clients till 8 at the night. I did so because I know if I'll be free there's going to be only one I'll be thinking about. So I've to keep myself busy.

But will you be able to keep her out of your mind. 

Pheeww!!! I'll try to. That's why I asked Trisha in India to pack my schedule from 2 to 8.

I directly went to my office here in London.

Hopefully I got busy with work but yeah I'll not say that I didn't remember her.
Every small thing was making me remember her.

I don't know how these girls can wear these tight fitted pencil skirts. If someone say me what will I like to wear I'll be happiest in t-shirts and PJs !

She used to say me this whenever she saw any woman in tight fitted pencil skirts!!

How can people sit silently. I can't sit this silent for even a minute.

She used to say this for the people silently sitting and doing nothing.
Pheeeww!!

I went home and had dinner. I don't even know how she is. I don't even know what she might be thinking. I don't want her to think about this friend of her who is of no use.

I went to my bed and opened my phone. I opened gallery and her photo.

I came here for getting away from you Surbhi.

I came here so that you can forget this idiot friend of your forever. I know I can never forget you.. How can I forget the one who've always made me smile...But yeah I can't even come to you because I know I'm not even good as a friend so how can I be there for you and see here I'm not even able to resist seeing you.

Good night sweetheart!

Hope you sleep well Surbhi...

I said to her pic in the phone and kept the phone.

I don't know when did sleep engulfed me.

2-3 days passed like this only. Work and remembering her. She might have forgetten me till now. I hope for this.

There's not even a night when I've not thought about her.

I Once said her that I don't find a difference between love and liking....But she said me...

"You know Mahir... difference between love and liking....you can forget the one you like in somedays...you can survive without remembering them...But You can't live for even a single day without remembering the one whom you love...You can never forget the one you love. They might be away from you but they'll always be here in your heart."

Yeah...she was right. I can't live without remembering you. I can never forget you. You are in my heart. It's not just liking...I know I've fallen for you...

And Now I've realized that I love you....

I love you Surbhi!!!

Still I cannot tell you this ever!!!

Because for giving you happiness, I've to let go my past. I've to move on from what happened in my past..and I know I can't move on from that !!

 Still, I love you !!

I'll always do !! Though Silently !!

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