Conversations & Confessions
(take my horrible Tjyrus art that I unfortunately made. It took me like since the 2nd day of pride month and was finished on the 13th of pride month. You can now find this story and my Freebat Oneshots on ao3. My username is the same on there.)
Jonah stood outside the glass door of the Spoon. He could faintly see his own reflection along with the interior of the diner. He stood there in thought. He wasn't sure if he was ready to face TJ, let alone Cyrus. He felt overwhelmingly guilty, especially for ghosting his friends. However, he was brought out of his thoughts by a voice.
"Jonah?" He didn't even need to look to know who it was, but he did anyways. TJ Kippen. Jonah paled and froze.
"Uhh..." He felt the overwhelming urge to run, to be anywhere but here, and he listened. 'This was a bad idea' ran through his mind like a mantra. He made a mistake, he shouldn't have agreed to this. Eventually, he ended up in the park by the lake. It wasn't super far from the Spoon, but it helped calm his anxious nerves a little. Though, his relief was cut short. It didn't take TJ long to catch up with him.
"Wait, Jonah. Please don't run away again, I need to talk to you. Please?" The dirty blonde begged. Jonah reluctantly agreed, but it was mostly because he was tired from running so fast. The two boys took a seat on a bench that outlooked the lake. TJ gave him a soft smile. "I didn't think I'd be having another conversation like this on a bench so soon..." He mumbled, but Jonah was able to hear him.
"What do you mean 'another conversation like this on a bench'?"
"I'm not sure if you knew, but at Andi's party, when Cyrus and I got together, I confessed to him on a bench in Andi's backyard." He looked down at his hands. "It was nice, really. It was probably the most comfortable I had ever felt, up until that point, knowing I had feelings for a guy. I really accepted that I was gay that day, and I even kinda accepted my bizarre name."
"I'm really happy that you and Cyrus got together. Both of you guys deserve each other, it was bound to happen sooner or later."
"Are you happy, though?" TJ looked Jonah in the eyes. Jonah got a little lost in his gorgeous laurel eyes. "Are you really happy that I'm with Cyrus because I don't think you are. I mean...don't you like Cyrus?"
"Wow, okay. I don't think I like the shift this conversation took." He quickly averted his gaze away from TJ.
"Jonah, I can't fault you for your feelings, they're not something you can control, but I want you to be honest with me."
"I'm not lying, I am happy for you and Cyrus. I just...sometimes wish I was in your place, or even Cyrus's place."
"You wish you were in Cyrus's place?" Jonah blushed but managed to redirect his gaze back to TJ.
"Well, yeah...Cyrus has a really amazing boyfriend." He admitted sheepishly. Jonah could see that TJ blushed lightly, though, he wasn't sure if he was the cause.
"Um, Jay, listen...can we talk about this later? I want Cyrus to be here too." Jonah couldn't help but feel a little disappointed.
"Oh, yeah, sure, of course." He replied awkwardly. TJ gave him a small smile.
"Do you want to meet up again soon? Like in an hour or two?"
"Um...are you going back to the Spoon? I told Marty that I'd come, that'd make things more convenient, I guess."
"Yeah, okay, let's go." TJ stood up and Jonah followed soon after. They walked in awkward silence back to the Spoon, occasionally stealing glances at each other.
They arrived back at the diner not too long later and ate lunch with their friends. Jonah was too focused on the anxiety coursing through him at the thought of continuing his conversation with TJ (and now Cyrus). He was mostly silent, and nobody pestered him about it. But you don't care about that, you want to get to the juicy part.
After an hour and a half, TJ announced that he has something else he has to do. Jonah wasn't sure if he felt relieved he didn't have to keep talking to TJ or upset that TJ forgot. However, TJ made sure to bring Cyrus and Jonah with him, and Jonah realized their conversation was the important thing TJ had to do.
The walk back to the park felt way faster than the walk to the Spoon. Maybe it was because Jonah was attempting to distract himself. It was uncomfortably silent and Jonah's mind was reeling. Were they gonna talk about the kiss? Well, obviously, but would Cyrus be upset that Jonah liked him? TJ actually took them back to the same park bench he and Jonah talked at earlier. An intense wave of dread flooded Jonah as they all sat down, Cyrus and TJ both sitting on opposite sides of him instead of next to each other. He definitely noticed that but decided against saying anything.
TJ clear his throat, gaining the attention of the two boys. "Well, um, Cyrus...earlier today, Jonah and I had a little chat and well...I think you two need to talk about the kiss. I can't stand watching this whole...ordeal. You need to tell Jonah how you feel, Cyrus, and you need to do the same, Jay." Jonah looked at Cyrus.
"Listen, Cyrus...I know you don't have feelings for me, and I'm sorry I have feelings for you. I shouldn't have ever kissed you, it was a mistake, I wasn't thinking."
"Jonah..." Cyrus sighed. "You're wrong, very wrong in fact."
"What do you mean?"
"You're wrong, I do have feelings for you. I...I kinda have had feelings for you for a bit...and TJ knew, of course, don't worry. I never told you because I didn't think you'd feel the same, or would even be fine with...sharing me, I guess. Or being shared between me and TJ? I don't know how to explain it. I didn't think you'd want to be apart of the whole 'dating me while I simultaneously have a boyfriend.' I'm going to break up with TJ just because the feelings between us are mutual. I still...care about TJ, so much. I don't want to have to choose between you two. I couldn't do that."
"I...I'm not going to make you choose, Cy. I mean, I like TJ too, and you two make an amazing couple. I don't want to disturb that with my stupid feelings. So, I think you should just stay with TJ and...I'll try and get over my crush."
"But what if I don't get over my crush on you? I want to be with you, Jonah! I just...is that what you want, too?"
"Yes! Of course I want to be with you, Cyrus!" He took Cyrus's hands into his own. "I really do, but...you're with TJ. Unless we started a polyamorous relationship between the three of us, we couldn't be together."
"Well, I don't know about you two, but I wouldn't mind being in a polyamorous relationship." TJ piped in. "I have to admit, I've grown quite fond of you, Beck." Jonah blushed. When he met eyes with TJ, TJ winked at him, causing him to blush harder.
"I, um, I think you're pretty cool, too, T." Cyrus smiled as he watched the two interact.
"Well, I guess it's settled then, huh? Do you want to be our boyfriend, Jonah?" Cyrus asked. Jonah smiled at the two of them.
"Yes, I wouldn't have it any other way."
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