***Alex’s POV***

I woke up in the morning to see two new messages from Seamus. One of them was from about 3 in the morning.

text me back Alex its important

I rolled my eyes and opened the next one.

hey come to my house at noon. You won’t regret it ;]

I sighed and checked the time. It was about 10. I showered and picked out an outfit. I fixed my hair and applied my makeup. It was 11:30. I might as well get walking. “Bye daddy, I’m going to hang out with Paige,” I lied. “Alright sweetie,” he said.
I walked to Seamus’s house and knocked on the door. Lizzy opened it and her face brightened a bit. “Hi Alex! Are you here to see Seamus?” I nodded. She frowned a bit.

“Look Alex, I don’t mean to be rude, but if you’re hear to tell him you guys can’t be together…please don’t. He’s really broken. It hurts to watch.” I shook my head. “I’m not here for that. He asked me to come.” “Oh.”

She hesitated but let me in. I walked up to Seamus’s room and knocked on the door. He opened it and the powerful smell of smoke hit me in the face. Ugh. That was so disgusting.

Seamus gave me his cocky smirk and let me into his room. It still freaked me out quite a bit. He had some depressing song playing. I was surprised it wasn’t screaming. Well, it was kind of screaming but not that much. Whatever.

“Don’t go, cause I can’t do this on my own!”

He shut it off and shoved his hands into his pockets nervously. Wait. Seamus Fitzpatrick was nervous? Well that was something you didn’t see very often.

“Come on,” he said at last. He picked up his iPod and led me outside. He opened the car door for me and looked up at me. I bit my lip nervously. His best friend and mom had just died in a car accident.

“Please?” he said quietly. He never said please. What was up with him today? I sighed and got in the car. He smiled a little and shut the door before getting in the drivers seat. He pulled a cloth out from the backseat.

“Put this on. I want this to be a surprise,” he said. I glared. “No way Seamus!” I said. No way was he covering my eyes with that scummy thing. “Alex come on! Don’t be a pussy,” he said, his cocky smirk back. I rolled my eyes but allowed him to cover my eyes.

I felt the car starting to move again. “Um, I can put on the radio?” he offered. “Sing,” I said immediately. He had such a beautiful voice. He chuckled softly.

Feels like the walls are closing in on me 
I'm suffocating, I can barely breathe 
And you've got me right where you want me 
This is the side of you I've never seen 
You're not the girl that you used to be 
And you've got me right where you want me 
You always know, how to bring me down 
Let's just face it now, I'm never changin' 
You are my world, my everything 
You stupid girl, you're gonna be the death of me 
So let me go, just let me be 
You stupid girl, I love the way you're killing me 
(killing me) 
You stupid girl 
You're like an angel but with broken wings 
A heart so cold can never show mercy 
And you've got me right where you want me 
You are my world, my everything 
You stupid girl, you're gonna be the death of me 
So let me go, just let me be 
You stupid girl, I love the way you're killing me 
(killing me) 
You stupid girl (killing me) 
You stupid girl 
I know I'm a bastard, I'm not a coward 
Why can't you see what you're doin' to me? 
I'm falling faster, more every hour 
Why can't you see what you're doin' to me? 
Open your eyes, open your eyes 
This is killing me 
You are my world, my everything 
You stupid girl, you're gonna be the death of me 
So let me go, just let me be 
You stupid girl, I love the way you're killing me 
(killing me) 
You stupid girl (killing me) 
You stupid girl

The lyrics made me squirm a bit. I smelled smoke in the car. “Ew, Seamus put your cancer stick out!” I snapped. He chuckled and I heard the window roll down then up. I rolled my eyes.

He turned on the radio and we listened to mainstream for a while before the car stopped. “Keep your eyes covered,” he warned as he helped me out of the car.

Great. I was letting Seamus of all people lead me blind in an unknown location. I had truly lost my mind!

We stopped and he took the cloth off and I couldn’t help but stare in wonder. A small smile took my face. We were on a deserted part of the beach. Seamus must have been here earlier. He had laid out a blanket. He set his iPod and speakers on it and played a slower song.

“Do you like it?” he whispered. I nodded. “I do.” He wrapped his arms around me and pressed his lips to mine. This was it. This was what it was all supposed to be. Just Seamus and I, together at long last. After everything we had been through, we were holding each other.

And I had to stop it.

I pushed him away. He had a hurt look in his eyes. “Alex…” I held up my hand. “Seamus, no. Preps and emos just don’t go together.”

“But you and I do!” he said fiercely. I knew it was true. I loved Seamus. I loved him deeply. But this was all wrong. He looked at me with begging eyes. “Take me home,” I whispered.

Seamus bit his lip but packed everything into the car. We drove in silence for a while. “Alex?” he asked quietly. “What Seamus?” I asked angrily. “I love you. I really do.” I sighed. “Well, I don’t love you,” I lied.

He let his hair hide his face and his eyes. We pulled up to my house. “I’m sorry,” he said quietly. He looked at me, as if to memorize every detail. A sad smile lit his face. I stared into those beautiful green eyes of his. I’d never get tired of seeing them.

“Bye Seamus,” I said flatly and got out of the car. “I love you Alex. I always have. I always will. Will you remember me?” I raised an eyebrow. “Sure. Bye.” I shut the car door and watched it drive off down the street.

I rolled my eyes before heading inside and shutting the door. I sighed as I went up to my room to be alone. What did he mean would I remember him? Of course I would. I knew him almost my whole life. Why did h-

Ohmigosh.

He was really going to do it.

Seamus Fitzpatrick was really going to attempt suicide.