"Pregnant? How? From who?"

"We don’t know from who yet. We are testing the child as it was 9 weeks old"

"9 weeks?"

"Yes. She didn't tell you anything about that?"

"No... or not that I remember"

"Thank you, Miss Antoine. If we need anything we'll contact you"

I slowly stood to my feet and walked out of the office. I sat beside Xander as we waited for my father then my mother to give statements.

We walked out of the station with Aunt Lorain and her husband.

"We're going to come to stay with you, Lorain," my mom said

I turned to Xander "You can leave... Just take care of yourself"

He nodded with a slight smile and hugged me tightly rubbing my back "Are you going to be okay" He whispered

"I think so" if sighed "Can you please go search for Leo?" I said moving back

"Where?"

"His father's house. Go check if he's there? Somehow? And sneak him out if he's not okay or if he's like in danger"

He sighed rubbing his face and looked at me "I'll see what I can do"

"Thank you.."

"Don’t.." he kissed my forehead softly and walked away
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We sat on the couch with aunt Lorain watching her slowly breaking. I read that there are 5 stages of grief: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance, but unfortunately I can't determine which one aunt Lorain or mom are in.

But I for sure know which stage I’m in..

Anger.. and I think it's going to stay like that for a while, at least till I find out who did this to her.

"Its okay, Lorain," my mother said patting her back

"Why would someone hurt her? She never did anything to anyone?"

My mother had a cold look on her face. I don't think she's at all effected by Irene's death; she's just affected by her sister's hurt.

"We will know who it is one day, Lorain," she said softly "Maybe she did something so wrong that a person hurt her, maybe she was mistakenly killed."

"Mom!" I glared at her

"Killed?" Softly said aunt Lorain and chuckled "My baby.." She whispered before bursting into tears and screaming on the floor.

"No.." I got on my knees beside her and held her tightly "It's going to be okay!" I yelled over her voice repeating the same words over and over again as this woman broke down between my arms, slowly fading away and blacking out.

I got her to her feet and held her to her room slowly putting her on the bed and calling an ambulance.

I walked out and closed the door then walked to the living room "What the hell was that mom??" I yelled "Is that how you treat your sister when her daughter dies??? How heartless could you get??" I stopped for a second then it hit me "Of course! You don't even give a fuck about someone trying to kill your own daughter! Why the hell would you care about someone else's!?" I said between clenched teeth

"That’s it, Chanel!! I've had enough! Of all of You! You, your father, and my stupid sister who can't get over the fact that she gave birth to a fucking monster!"

"What..?"

"Oh sorry I forgot you have no memory! You lost it and lost your mind with it!" She yelled
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I stayed by aunt Lorain as the doctor checked her. Mom left right after her lash out leaving me with who she called "My hopeless aunt". I wasn't going to get affected by that or leave aunt Lorain's side.

"She's going to be fine. I suggest the people she loves to stay beside her during this harsh period. She's going to need all the help she can get" the doctor said walking out of the room with me right behind him

"Thank you so much" I shook his hand and watched him walk out of the door.

I looked around the house and watched family pictures, killing time till aunt Lorain's husband comes home.

I walked upstairs and walked into what seemed like Irene's room. Her smell filled the room along with her pictures. I sat on her bed, moving my hand on her bed softly.

"What have you done, Irene?" I asked quietly and sighed

I moved my head slowly upwards facing her mirror and a picture of us handing on the side. I got up slowly and pulled it out and looked at it.

Us. Smiling, it looked like it was soon. I looked the same, she did too. I still have the same black dress in the picture that I never got the guts to wear to the extent that I thought it wasn't mine because of how short it is. The right side of the picture looked like it was cut like there was beside me that was removed. There was someone else in the picture with us.

"Hey Channy" Tom, Lorain's husband said standing at the door frame

I jumped up in terror before I realised it was him "Tom.." I breathed out

"Sorry I scared you sweetheart"

"It's okay. I was just.."

"Don’t need an explanation, Chanel. You and her used to love playing in this room, you hated going outside."

"I'm so sorry, Tom" I walked to him and faintly smiled

"We're all going to die, Chanel. Irene lived her life to the fullest, god saw its time" he smiled slightly back "What happened to Lorain?"

"Lorain was talking to mom and she couldn’t take it; she had a harsh breakdown"

"You can go home now, sweety. I'll stay with her."

"The doctor said she needs people beside her.."

"I'll do my best to never let her feel alone.." he cracked a smile with a hint of hurt in his eyes that he's trying so hard not to show
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I sat behind the counter in the theatre, waiting for the people to go out of the movie so I can go home.

"Hey, Chanel," Eric said rubbing my back "I heard what happened to your cousin. I'm so sorry"

I smiled softly at him "Thank you, Eric"

He sat beside me "Why are you here..? Should be with your family.."

"I don’t want to be with them.."

"Is everything okay?"

"Meh.."

He sighed and rubbed my back "We all get those downs, Chan. It's okay... When's the funeral?"

"Today.."

"And you're here, Chanel?"

"They don’t need my help. I have a psychiatrist after work to get me ready for the funeral"

"Just go, Chanel.."

"Fine Eric, Fine" i said getting up and inside the storage room. I changed my clothes and walked out of the back door
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"So the funeral is today?" The doctor asked

"Yeah.." I responded, "I don’t want to see aunt Lorain say goodbye to her.."

"I know it's hard. I understand. You have to be there. Irene was the closest thing you had for a 100%-best friend that you remember." He said "You have to remember, Chanel. You have no idea who the people you have now are. Maybe they're good... Maybe bad. Maybe they're liars.. maybe they're honest. You may never know, but, Irene; you remember how close you both are.."

As hard as it is... He was right...

Irene is the only friend of mine that I remember.. the only person that my memory didn't delete when I came back to the world...
I had to be there for Irene if not for my family...

"Thank you" i said standing up and walked out
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I went home to Xander waiting for me wearing all black along with my parents. No words were said by me as I climbed the stairs to my room putting my dress on. I have to accept that she's gone now... but the anger still exists. I will find whoever did this to her and only god knows what ill do about it.

I walked down the stairs and smiled at Xander.

"I shouldn’t say this.." he started "but you look extremely pretty"

"Thank you.." I smiled as we walked out of the house. "Did you find Leo?" I asked him stepping into the car

"No, not yet. I'm on it though" he sat back still and smiled slightly as he started driving away

Just like every other funeral, Irene's day was full of tears, late people, Gossip, and flowers.

The priest stood in front of the coffin and started "We are gathered here to say farewell to Irene Tomas smith and to commit her into the hands of God." He kept saying his prayers and to end it he said "Our Father in heaven, we thank you that, through Jesus Christ, you have given us the gift of eternal life. Keep us firm in the faith, that nothing can separate us from your love. When we lose someone who is dear to us, help us to receive your comfort and to share it with one another. We thank you for what you have given us through Irene. We now entrust ourselves to you, just as we are, with our sense of loss and of guilt, When the time has come, let us depart in peace, and see you face to face, for you are the God of our salvation. Amen"

I slowly wiped my tears and looked to my side at Xander who stood with his head down. My eyes focused behind Xander; a girl standing far away watching the funeral carefully. As soon as her eyes caught mine she walked away.

Mia...