My life is a big pile of shit, stinky ape shit
I rested on my bed looking at my beautiful ceiling, what is this?
Why would I do that to a friend?
- She might be lying...
Why would she lie?
- Because she hates you!
But why does she hate me?
- Because you did something to her...

Exactly...

My mind and heart fight regularly. They don't get how stressing it fucking is, yet they just keep doing it. They're like the boyfriend's ex and the girlfriend, acting like bitches.

The overthinking...

It's a murderer...

I just want to sit here and not do anything. No therapy, no work, no people... Nothing

What’s wrong with my father?
Maybe work is stressing
But for him and mom?
People have problems
It doesn’t look like it
Stop it
No, you stop it

"Both of you, stop it" I sighed and got up to get ready for work

I went downstairs and reached for the door "Mom, I'm heading to work." I said and opened the door

"Chanel." Xander called from behind me "I'm driving you to work today."
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The car ride was okay, we were still halfway there

"What happened at the hospital?" He asked

"I don’t want to talk about it"

"Chanel, I'm your friend"

"I know. I just don’t feel like talking."

"Its okay. No pressure."
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"Hey, Eric." I smiled

"Suuuup Chan?"

"Not much really"

It was a normal workday. People buying the same things, no biggie.

"Chan, Kira's birthday's today in this cafe near your house. Wanna come?"

"Oh..." I smiled "I'd love to"

"Not a date though so Leo won't kill me" he laughed

"Oh shut up" I laughed with him giving popcorn to a customer

"Hey Chanel" Mia greeted

"Oh hey, Mia. What are you doing here?"

"Theatre, Chanel" she smiled

"Oh yeah... pfft" I smiled back "What can I get you?"

"Caramel popcorn and a coke, please"

I got her what she asked for and handed it to her "That'll be 14.59"

"Thank you" she smiled while taking them and handing me the money "I'm gonna pay you a visit tomorrow at home, is that okay?"

"Yeah, sure."
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My shift ended and here I am standing waiting for Leo to come pick me up who as it turns out he was busy so I called Xander.

After 10 minutes, Xander's car was in front of me.

"That was fast" I smiled

"Why are you standing on the street like that??" He said angrily

"I was waiting for Leo then I called you and waited for you to come. What’s wrong?"

"I'm worried about you, Chanel. You can't just stand on the street like that" he said and as he drove away

"I'm sorry"

"Don’t be" he sighed

"We're not going home"

"Oh... Where are we going then?"

"My work colleague's birthday, it's in this cafe called Yellow, Eric gave me the address"

"Why didn’t he take you with him?"

"He left early because he had something to do" I shrugged

"Oh... Okay"

The ride was peaceful. Xander was so concentrated on the road and clenching hard onto the steering wheel the entire way

"Xan, are you okay?"

"Yeah, I’m good. Why?"

"You look tense"

"Oh, it's okay. I'm just worried. You being in the car and all." He sighed "I haven't been in a car with you since the accident except for this morning and it wasn't a long ride."

"Its okay, Xander. I'm not freaking out, I can't remember the accident"

"The police reports haven't come out yet?"

"Police reports?"

"Yeah. The ones you get saying what happened to the car and what caused the accident"

"I know nothing about that.."

"Well, that’s odd" he shrugged and slightly untensed "You should ask about them"

"I guess I will"

He drove in silence on a highway. I looked around in the window at the signs of the road.

'Lake Street'

"Come on, Chanel... We're almost there... Go down that road!" A girl said with loud music blasting

"Which one?"

"Lake Street! The next right"

"Okay," I said drifting into the right as I drove fast

"It's the fifth house, I think," she said over the music while I slowly parked

I gasped slowly for air and panted.

"Xander, STOP!" I shouted as he stopped suddenly

"What the hell, Chanel?"

"Lake Street"

"What?"

"Go back and go into the right route."

"That not our way..." he said confused

"Just go!"

"Okay okay" he said going back with the car till we reached the exit and drove into it. "Where are we going?"

"The fifth house" I answered

"Um... Okay" he said driving slowly

We stopped in front of the 5th house.
It was a huge house.

"Wow..." Xander whispered

"Yeah..."

"Why are we here?" He asked

"I don’t know... But I'll figure out"

I walked slowly to the mailbox to read the name

Franklyn

"Do we know any Franklyn's?" I asked

"Not that I know of... Chan, I think we should leave."

"No. I'm going to know why I’m here..."

I walked to the door and rang the bell with Xander not far behind.

A woman at her mid-40s opened the door and looked at me.

"Hi, I'm so sorry to disturb you, but I'm here and I don’t know why... My name is Chanel. I'm amnesiac and I just had a vision that got me here, as crazy as that might sound."

The woman's eyes started to shine and tears slowly came down her face as she hugged me "I knew you'd come one day, Joel needs us to stay together, Chaney"