I woke up today with two choices. Either to accept who I am now or try to find out who I was...

I looked around my room searching for anything that could symbolize anything or mean something

I looked under the bed, in the drawers, in the bathroom and found nothing.

When I opened my closet and looked around under the clothes; I found this box... it looks like a safe.

A code?

What the fuck?

My phone rang, and I ran to answer it

"Hello" I said

"Hey Chan" Xander answered

"Hi Xander, what's up?"

"Wanna go out today?"

"Nah, I'm in a really bad mood" I sighed

"Is everything okay?" He asked

"Yeah..." I thought for a second "Do you know anything about a safe?"

"What safe?"

"I Have a safe in my room. Its pretty weird and I can't remember the code... I can't even remember I had it"

"That's odd..."

"Yeah... I don't know what to do"

"You'll remember someday, Chan. Its going to be okay"

"Thanks, Xander"

"I'll call you later then" he said "Bye"
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I went downstairs to my dad's office and walked in

"I'll call you later, my daughter needs me" he said on the phone and hung up "Hey, Nelly"

"Hey dad" I said sitting down "I don't see you much in the house. I always see mom and she's always in the kitchen"

"I'm sorry, sweetheart. I just got a lot of work"

"I understand..." I sighed "I just missed the three of us sitting together and all"

"I know, Chanel" he intertwined his hands together "I'll try my best to make it up to you"
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".. so yeah she mentioned this guy called Joel and I have no clue who he is" I told Leo everything about what's been happening for the past week

"Damn Chanel... That's a lot to take in and handle" he moved his palm on his face like he can't believe what I told him

"I know..." I sighed "I don't know if I should let it go and be someone new or try to understand what's going on"

"Did you ask that Xander dude?"

I nodded "He said he's gonna help but I guess there's nothing he could do" I shrugged

"I'm sorry but... isn't it a bit odd that he's your best friend and doesn't know any of these things?"

I looked at Leo and thought of it for a second "I never asked myself that..."

Leo frowned "Well... It's odd to me" he shrugged and was silent for seconds "What about that...? From now on just tell me about anything that happens, and I'll be there to help you when you need it"

I smiled at him "You're so sweet, Leo. Thank you"

I don't think I should trust anyone that fast... I shouldn't even trust the people I know. After that question Leo asked I'm thinking it is kind of odd that he doesn't know any information about anything...

Maybe he knows and doesn't wanna tell me? Why?

Did my mother tell him to do that?
But why?
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I walked onto the porch of my aunt and knocked on the door and 5 minutes later she opened up

"Chanel! Sweetie, how are you??"

"Hey Aunt Lorain" I smiled "I'm fine thank you"

"Oh! I'm sorry. Come in" she started moving away from the door when I stopped her

"No, I just wanted to ask if Irene is here?"

"Oh no sweetheart, she just left half an hour ago did you want to tell her anything? I could deliver the message"

"No thank you. Can I just have her phone number?"

"Of course, sweetie"
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I tried to call Irene throughout my way back home, but she didn't reply, nor did she decline.

I walked into the house and to my mom "Hey mom"

"Hey sweetheart" she smiled "Where have you been?"

I sat down beside her on the couch "I went to aunt Lorain to ask for Irene, but I didn't find her"

"Oh, why?" She asked and looked at me in interest

"I wanted to chit chat with her a little"

"About what?"

"Just girl's chat, mom" I shrugged

"Hmm... Okay" she looked at the Tv for a while then asked "How's that Leo boy?"

"He's... okay?" I smiled "Why?"

"I don't know. Seems like you're interested in him" she smiled back

"I don't know him well yet, mom"

"Okay honey. Just take care of yourself" she patted my shoulder and looked back at the tv as I smiled and stood up to walk to my room

I stopped halfway on the stairs "Hey mom"

"Yes sweetie"

"How long have I known Xander?" I asked her

"I think 2 years, sweetie. Why?"

"Just asking" I smiled and went up to my room

I changed my clothes and laid on my bed. Tried calling Irene again multiple times but still nothing.
I put my phone on the bed side and laid in a comfortable position to go to sleep. I swear the overthinking that happens before sleeping killed me as I slowly drifted into the stage between life and death.

"Come on Chanel!!" Young Irene ran with young me following back behind her

"Slow down Renieee" I panted "You're too fast"

She stopped running and held my hand "You're soo lazyyyyy" She laughed

I pouted and left her hand "No I'm not!"

"Okay I'm sorry I don't mean to upset you" she smiled and hugged me

Our hands were in each other and we kept running in a circle singing

"Three little birds were sitting on a tree
First one fell and broke his knee
Third one fell but flew with glee"

Our voice slowly echoed and started fading away then suddenly Old Irene showed up

"Hey Princess" she smiled creepily

"Where are we Irene?" I looked around me at a very dark place it was like a graveyard

"I didn't say it... But I showed it Chanel" she walked closer

"What are you talking about??" I shook my head in terror and confusion

"I didn't say it... I showed it Chanel" she kept walking closer

I moved backwards slowly from fear and suddenly she stopped

.......

"I DIDN'T SAY IT... I SHOWED IT CHANEL" She screamed

I woke up panting and crying from how terrifying that was. I looked at my clock it was 4:00 am
I opened my phone to find 5 missed calls

Irene...