Warnings: crying but like overly emotional in a happy way, quick mention of teenaged virgil not having done great mental health wise

Set by the time patton is 3 months

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Virgil wasn't going to lie, he had spent many nights crying in the early hours of the morning, especially as a teenager and especially after his son had been born.

But this time it was not because school made him wish he had never been born, and it was not because he felt alone and terrified of being a dad, and it was not because of sleep deprivation.

Or, alright, sleep deprivation likely had something to do with it, otherwise Virgil likely wouldn't be enough of an emotional wreck to be sitting and holding his son and crying just because he was so small and cute and Virgil loved him so much.

In his defense it was not that weird that he was a bit of an emotional wreck now and then, he felt that he was entirely justified of this.

He heard the creaking of floorboards, so he sniffled and looked up only to spot Roman in the doorway. Virgil realized he had been sitting in the living room for a while and that Roman might have been waiting for him to come back after feeding Patton.

He was dressed in the same tight fitting t-shirt of Virgil's that he had been wearing when falling asleep and he smiled slightly and walked over to him, then seeming to register that Virgil was crying and frowning.

"Hey, are you alright? What's wrong?" He cupped Virgil's teary face in his hands, looking down at the sleeping baby and up at Virgil again. Virgil leaned into the warm touch.

"Nothing, really." Virgil said croakily, trying to keep his voice hushed to not wake Patton up. "He's just so small and cute and I'm kinda tired but I don't wanna go to sleep, I just wanna sit here with him."

Roman blinked, looking between them again and shaking his head.

"That's why you're crying?" Roman wondered, fighting a little smile as his thumbs attempted to wipe the tears from beneath Virgil's eyes.

"Yeah, just look at him, he's so tiny and adorable." He leaned back, away from Roman's touch, and his boyfriend sat down next to him, carefully reaching out to caress Patton's pudgy cheek.

"And, hey, didn't you once cry seeing me and Lo cuddling on the couch?" He told him in a jokingly accusing tone. Roman was generally the sappiest of them all, he had no right to judge anyone.

"Okay, yeah, yeah, you're right. But in my defense you were both being adorable and I was overcome with love for you both, and I would cry about that again, any day." Roman said, putting an arm around Virgil and kissing his hair.

"I refuse to admit to something that sappy, but yeah, that." Virgil bent his head down to kiss Patton'sforehead, then leaned into Roman's side.

"You and L both know that I never planned on having any kids, like, it's too big of a responsibility, and I never would have thought I'd be a good enough parent." Virgil began. He wouldn't go as far as to say that he was a great parent, but he wasn't terrible and he was doing better than he thought he would.

"I just could never have guessed how much I would love him. I mean, it's definitely still terrifying, but being a dad is pretty great sometimes, I can't even describe how much he means to me." He said, looking down at Patton with nothing but adoration.

There was just something about babies, wasn't there? It felt impossible not to love him.

Virgil wiped his cheek against the Twenty One Pilots t-shirt that Roman was borrowing, then sat there looking down at his sleeping son in silence. Patton wasn't very fun while he was crying for long periods of time, but right now he couldn't be more adorable, fast asleep in his little unicorn pajamas that Logan had gotten him for reasons that were of course not self indulgent at all.

"Come on, my love, we've got that house tour later today, we should get some sleep." Roman said, his hand patting Virgil's arm.

"Mhm, in a minute." Virgil said. He was right, of course, and Roman would have to go to work in the morning and then afterwards they would meet Logan and go on yet another house tour. They had hopes about this house, the pictures had seemed very promising, even if it didn't have the porch that Roman had been wanting. It was even in their price range.

"Alright, I'll give you a moment." Roman said, then yawning and leaning his head against Virgil's. He guessed that they would fall asleep on the couch if they sat there for much longer so soon enough they both got up and returned to Virgil's bedroom.

He carefully placed Patton back into his crib, pulling the little blanket over him. Then he crawled back into bed with Roman who was already snuggled under the covers and waiting for him. Of course as soon as he laid down he had Roman clinging to him, and both of them fell asleep before saying another word.

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Written: 7th, 8th, 9th June 2022
Published: 10th June 2022
Words: 851

Almost crying, im doing the night shift, i work midnight to midday, and so at 11:30am i go eat lunch and then go to bed and.....then i wake up by myself around 7-8pm... because im rested, i wake up feeling rested😭😭 i didnt know u could do that

And I mostly just sit on the bridge in the dark and listen to an audio book of the first harry potter book with my colleague lol, nightshift is lit

Also of course fuck jkr, ugly ass terf