Hello, Lovelies. 

How are you all? Waiting for the update for a long time? I know. sorry that i kept you all wait. But .. i won't give explanation because those words became boring, though they are the truth. I couldn't change. And i couldn't manage. Not everyone is understandable. 

Anyways, enjoy the update. Not edited. Sorry for any grammatical and spelling mistakes. 

and do listen the song. It's Arabic, but i find the music so touched with the plot that i got inspired and i wrote the chapter while listening the song. :P 

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Manik

I watched her from my seat with cigarette hanging from my lips, acting like an invisible magnet, though I could sense that she was aware of my presence. It was hard to maintain a cool demeanor around her, when she had this aromatic aura. I felt aroused and just the thought of holding her naked body beneath me while I fucked her slowly made me insane.

Total distraction.

That reminded me of our encounter last week. I swore before went to her place that I wouldn't create a drama that was why I waited for a week to make my appearance at her door. But something had changed when I appeared just ahead of her, and seeing her swollen stomach I couldn't control the anger and scared the shit out of her.

But what choices she left me?

I looked at her soft features and her regardless attempt of walking the stairs. Such a bitty little person like her had this flame inside that I couldn't help myself from getting intrigue by her presence. Though her defiance towards my every order, made me angry. I told her not to climb the stairs, but see the madam had to disagree.

I walked silently beside her and carried her to my arms. She struggled for a bit but when realized there was no use of this, she stopped fighting. Glancing down at her, I saw she was throwing daggers at me. I raised my eyebrow in amusement. Seriously! I came down and walked to the guest room. I placed her on the bed then stepped back to maintain a distance between us. "I ordered you not to climb up the stairs." My voice was calm, but she wasn't so stupid not to catch the warning behind the words.

"I am not a disable person. I can climb the stairs." She fired back.

I raised a single brow, challenging her to go further. She started to cough nervously, clearing her throat. "I am used to this. I climbed the stairs at my work place." Seeing my expression she quickly added. "Doctor said I need exercise."

"Exercise like this?" My voice sounded like gravel, but did her flinched her a little. "Not in my watch." I could sense her discomfort from here. And that made me realized we back to the first place from where we started. I pressed lips tightly as the thought crossed my mind. Fuck. If I was like before I would have taught her lessons, but I am a changed person now. I didn't have to teach her a lesson to make her realize the love we had. Because we came far from there. "But what can I expect from you? A doctor will come and see you in an hour. Behave. After what he will suggest, you would follow." Her lips parted to say something but decided against it. And this little act of her was enough to make a move on her. But I controlled myself.

Though it was fucking hard not to pounce on her when she was looking like a goddess. I turned and walked out from the room as not trusting myself right now.

I did love her.

My heart twitched, crying at the word I used.

Did!

I turned the corner, not sure where I was heading. But when I came to consultation hall, went inside and closed the door.

For fuck's sake.

I raked a hand though my hair, feeling fucking restless after seeing the intensity in her eyes. I had never felt so out of control, not even when I fall in love with her, and not even when I fucking proposed her. But now... I had no idea.

Too much happened.

I rested my head against armchair, and drinking from the bottle. I needed a drink. Well not a drink, but the fucking bottle. She was still fucking with my mind. Then go find answers. No. Then let her fucking with you. Fuck you. Stop.

Fuck my life.

I was about loose myself when the knock on my door jazzed me, and I jolted back on the seat.

"What?" I asked, sounded tipsy.

Cabir closed the door behind him before taking the seat in front of me. "What the hell, Manik?" He narrowed his eyes at me.

"What?" My heart was pounding in horse speed.

"You are drinking at this time of the day?" I couldn't fucking point out if he was asking or telling. But who cared.

"Um... I can drink whenever I want, and doesn't need permission for that."

I opened another bottle and started to drink. Cabir sighed. "Talk to her."

"Did she talk before leaving me?" I snapped, my brows slumped into frowns. I fucking wouldn't go to her and let her seeing me like this. An emotional fool. I once dropped my layer of mask in front of her, but not now after what she did to me. I wouldn't do the same mistake again.

Yeah I am an asshole. Whatever!

I opt to drink more as Cabir tried to stop me. Fucking hell. I snitched the bottle and gulped it one second. I tried to stand up but my body trembled, resting one arm at the table I had tried to balance myself.

Fuck. Why the hell couldn't I stand up? I am not that much drunk. Yeah. Right. Looking at Cabir I could sense his irritated face. Observing his face a while, I came to an end for sure. "Cabir." I whispered.

You could make a fine fucking model for the furniture shop.

What the fuck are you saying? Cabir reached out to hold me, but I refused. "I am fine. And totally sober." I again tried to walk but failed.

"I can see that." I made a sound, protesting, but Cabir didn't listen and helped me to lay on the couch. "Take rest. You need it."

"Hmm." Then I blacked out.

Nandini

I would be fine.

He wouldn't hurt me.

I kept saying those words in my head for the last few days.

But who was I trying to convince?

Me?

Because from where I was seeing that he actually intend to hurt me in every single seconds. Like he wanted to get rid of me and I was the actual problem in his life, and being pregnant was my fault. If he had this much problem then why the hell he bring me here? Why this much effort to find out about me?

Oh, because I hurt his ego. I left. So now it was time for my punishment.

Putting one hand on my stomach, I felt thrilled. No. I couldn't lose the baby now. I rubbed the stomach with care, but what if he planned to take it from me. Fear started to consume me. I have to talk with him. He couldn't do this to me. It's my baby. I stood up slowly, and walked to the door.

I understood his anger. But I wouldn't let him snatch my baby from me.

Well, it's your outcome. You shouldn't have run away.

I searched for him but he was nowhere to find. Then I thought to check in his room, but he clearly said that his room was off limits for me. Then I so Ayesha heading towards her room. I called her, and she turned around to face me, smiling.

"What child? Do you need something?"

"Uh... no. I was—Where is Manik?" I asked politely. Watching me for a moment she answered me.

"In study. Anything else?"

I nodded my head in negative and she left me there. Well....

I walked to the study room, and almost crashed with Cabir. "Uh... I am sorry." His eyes instantly fixed on me, and I felt uncomfortable. Not in a bad way, he wouldn't do that but yeah he made me feel small. I turned my gaze to control my emotion. Everyone changed.

Then what do you expected? That when they see you, they will come to you and hugged you, welcoming you?

Stop!

I scolded my inner voice.

I try to smile at him, but he remain cold. Umm...

"Do you need something, Miss Murthy?" He asked formally. I would start crying if they continued to behave like that with me. I reached my last step of emotional breakdown.

"I want see Manik." It was hard for me to compose the words, when my lips trembled. My hands played with the stole around me, nervous.

"I don't think it is the right for you to see Manik. You should get back to your room." I looked at his dark eyes, searching, but what I had no idea.

"I need to talk with him, please." I pleaded.

"I told you it's not the right time. He is not in a good condition." He relied. Leaning a little back on the door like he had lots of time, but he wouldn't back out.

But my mind already took his words. Not in a good condition? But he was alright when we were having lunch. What happened in this period of time?

"Is he okay? Let me see him." I spoke worriedly. He adjust his coat, and appear in front of me.

"No." Blocking my way. "Don't. Why now?"

What? Before I could ask he spoke.

"You don't care so don't appear in front of me like you cared." I felt like someone burned me with a hot iron on my back.

"I do care." I snapped.

"Listen, Nandini. We did what you asked for, but we wouldn't do the same thing again. Our loyalty is towards Manik. And... forget it. Just go to your room." His every words were like a daggers at my heart.

"You know why I had to run away. I was afraid. I couldn't stay in cage."

"Really? You thought I would believe you? I never did when you explained your reasons that day, and I still don't. But if you are so sure about your so called reasoning then let me tell you that you got what you want."

"What do you mean?" I felt like someone see through me.

"I meant exactly what you thought. You got your freedom. But the question which is bothering me the last few months of your disappearing that does it worth it? You running away and live a life don't know where but is that worth it than your love?"

I gulped my nervousness. I stepped back.

"No. It's not. That's why I was sure that you were misleading us. So now I am going to ask you a question, Miss Murthy. And you will answer me honestly." I took another step back.

"W-what qu-question?" I stammered.

I understood now why he is the adviser of Manik.

He is scary.

He didn't have to go violent or spoke in a harsh words with me just to make me feel weak. Because he clearly see through me. I never saw him this way. He was so fun loving, easy going that I never thought in this way.

But he is scarier than Manik. His words were like bullet which hit every target without pulling the real trigger.

"What are you hiding, Miss Nandini Murthy?" Smiling.

My whole body went freeze, and I could feel the trembling in my pulse. My mouth was hanging open but I closed it quickly. He was using his charming smile, that made me realized it was just shield to hide his coldness. Why I didn't see it before? I rubbed my sides as my head was circling with memories. Somehow I managed myself and looked into his eyes.

"I am not hiding anything." I snapped back, but he was still smiling. Without wasting any second I turned to leave.

I shuddered inside.

How?

Even Manik didn't catch the hole in my words. But he was sure from the beginning.

Well, he is an adviser for a reason, Nandini.

Yeah. I thought He and Dhruv was the easiest going guy and obviously a good person, but now I am doubting. I closed the door behind me and locked it, like he would still see through me if I didn't lock it. I kept my eyes shut for a second then lost in memories.

"You will leave him or I will kill him. Which way dear?"

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So how's the chapter? Both are having their own breakdown. And Cabir? 

OH MY FREAKING GOD. 

SO Intense. So dangerous. IS he really him? I never thought Cabir would Speak like this way. what can i say HE is a Lawyer. and an adviser. but Oh my devil, HE is fucking dangerous and so calculated with his words that i also felt shiver when i wrote this. And obviously sounded sexy. 

And you guys will probably laughed if i told the story behind Cabir-Nandini scene. Please don't laugh, okay? Umm... i was having shower and singing my heart out then suddenly Cabir knocked at my mind and asking for entrance, so i thought why not then i imagined the scenes with Manik then Nandini entered and my mind divert to Cabir and Nandini. It was like they were automatically having their own conversation and left me out of the picture. so rude. anyways it was shower effect i can say that totally. :P 

Don't blame me. I was just enjoying my shower. *Making a innocent face.*

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