Author's   NOTE:

Hello lovelies, 

Umm... 

How are you all? I am Sorry. I know i am being MIA for a long time now, and i am apologizing for this. 

But i was in so much depression that it was hard for to come here and updated my stories. And believe me i am still in depression. and it was... hard. Very hard. 

I am a solitary type of girl, and a very much introverted person. I don't speak a lot to anyone about my life, and anything about me. I just speak random things, talk about anyone but not about me. And as you all know that i got married 2017 and i was occupied with the new life... new environment.. new things. new family... it was tough. and it was rough.. a rough time that i never thought it would be. I am very simple and always wanted a simple life. and honestly marriage wasn't in my list, but i got married (arrange marriage--the quick one, and i don't think in reality quick arrange marriage happened... and i thought okay my parents choose him.. okay) , and getting married a person in just one hour after meeting him by arrangement of the two family, i accepted my fate... and (eventually and mentally gave up on my dreams). 

I... umm...

It was hard to explain... and i am not good with explaining. so i won't pulling the matter much. but a little info that.. I HAD GONE THROUGH WITH WORST in this last 2 years . and i never imagined that i had to go with this. The marriage was filled with violations.. torture....betrayal... and cheating. I always see positive things in any situation and the person i loved was the worst human being i ever met in my life. so i was not in right situation.. not in the right mind to focus on my stories.. on my writing. 

i had gone through with divorce. tortures.. So i had to take a break..i have to take a break.. so i can focus on myself.  So i have to take a time for me .. to heal myself. I wanted me.. the real me.. i want myself. the person who was strong once. who believe in her dreams. who doesn't ever to give up on her life ..her dreams or anything that makes her happy. 

i almost gave up on me.. on my life. and still.. it gets me. and i couldn't focus on me. 

So yeah... I am Sorry if i was not here.. updating stories for you all.. because i want to love myself.  I want to take time with me. I am sorry. I just can't seat and write when i wasn't me..myself. 

Yes i am sorry. the thing i had gone through... its might seem normal. yeah okay. But i was in depression for long.. almost 10 years... funny right!!  I should consult a psychiatrist!? May be but i am counselling myself. because i can't let anyone in into my life. i am not ready to share. 

even it takes 5 months for me to write here and explaining this to you all. I am not good with it. ...huh.. Trust me. it was... tough for me to write now. 

But sorry... if i wanted to take time for me.. if i want to take time for myself.  i hope you all will understand this. i am still not recovering from my health and mental issues. i can't say what happened to me. because i just can't. but it was nasty.. it was brutal.. that i was 99% convinced that i don't want to live in this world. but the 1% in me was positive..was hopeful.. was grateful to my ALLAH. that saved me. One day i just woke up and said to me ENOUGH. 

"ENOUGH AND ENOUGH. i won't tolerate his brutality.. i won't give up on me." and from that moment i fought back. i fought.. i am still fighting. the 1% saved me. 1% hopefulness in me..saved my life. And THANKS to ALLAH. 

so yeah i am sorry if i wasn't active.. and i can't promise when i can.. my mind is in mess. i get trauma everyday.. and i am handling me ALONE. so sorry. 

and please  i request you all BE SAFE. Life is really short, but you can use it beautifully with a purpose and then you live this life long. The present situation, COVID-19 taught us how we all take our life so granted that we neglected us.. our family..and live a life outrageously. 

SO, Be safe.. Be careful.. Be good.. Be kind. Love the all human being. No one is superior then Our GOD. Spread love. 

and of course Pray. 

Thank you for taking you time to read this.  and once again Sorry. 

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Chapter Four

Manik

"Manik?" I didn't have to look up to know who was talking, well known to her voice that I refused to look at her. She cleared her throat, trying to gain my attention. Calming my mind, I looked up at her nervous posture, her scared eyes as she approached to me.

"Leave, Nandini." I drowned the rest of my wine. "It's not the good time for chit chat."

"Manik." Again her sweet tempting voice called me, forcing my brain to lose control. I shook my head. F*ck it! I strode to her swiftly before she could react on my action, grabbing her head with my one hand I smashed my lips on her, and forcing her body to close as possible and also be wanted to be careful as she is pregnant with my child.

My child!

Damn!

So long, I thought. After a long time I got to test this cherry lips. I groaned. "You shouldn't have leave, Nandini." Talking between kiss as trying to warn her. I kept her still with my one head as my other hand was roaming her body.

"Manik."

"No talking, love."

"Manik! Stop... I am not--,"

"Nandini, What I tol--," I opened my eyes, and shocked to death.

Fuck!

"What the f*ck Cabir?" I stood up right away.

"Good morning to you too." Cabir voice rang, sounding angry.

"Ah." Holding my head between my hands, I tried to clear my mind. It's fucking hurt. I looked around, and saw the chaos. What the hell happened? I attempted to recall the night but fuck I couldn't think straight through the line.

I felt like a disaster. My eyes peeled open at the sound of close door. "What the hell?"

"I should be asking that as you were trying to rape my virtue."

I looked up though my head was hurting badly.

He placed two black coffee in front of me. I stared at them having no clue about last night. "Drink up. You badly needed them." He helped himself on the couch, getting comfortable. I took one coffee, started to drink.

When I felt little light, I spoke up. "What happened?"

"Really? Still you have the audacity of asking me about last night?" He scolded me like I was a fucking child. I narrowed my eyes as not liking him at this moment a bit. "I f*cking ditched my date with Navya and accompanied you here, and see what you were doing. F*cking attacked me."

"Cut the crap, Cabir."

Ignoring my words, he started to give his own lecture. "No. You get that clear that I am not Nandini. And what is wrong with you? You miss the important meeting, though i let Dhruv to handle it." Cabir snarled, eyes were cold, no hint of joke. I glared at him again before savoring through my coffee. "I never see you like this. So reckless. Get your shits together."

"Fucking stop." I had enough. "Give your lecture to someone who needed most."

"Right now I am seeing that person is you." His eyes sparked mischievously, fucking shit enjoying my misery. "But--," he stopped for a second. "But I must tell the drunken Manik was the hell of a show." He winked, laughing silently.

I frowned.

"What do you mean?"

"That you are having fantasy about me." He chuckled.

Snorting loudly, I murmured. "I thought you are Nandini." Getting up, I looked around again cursing badly I walked to the second door of this room. The fucker just laughed at me. Fucking asshole.

"Come fast. I am waiting outside."

****

As I entered the conference room, Dhruv shot me an angry look, and I just shrugged, ignoring all the killing stares he could give at me.

Like I cared about what he thought of me. The think I knew he shouldn't be here, not with me.

Taking my position at the head, I asked for details of the meeting. Dhruv hand over the file before went with the details, and as he briefing I checked the file. Of course, no errors. Fucking best in everything.

Or you are just looking for a fight.

I ignored my mind as we continue our meeting.

"I hope that's all. You got the deal." He tried to stand up and I narrowed my eyes at him.

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"Not your business, Manik." Dhruv smirked evilly like he was in mission to destroy everything. I never saw him like that way. And for a second I felt like I lost my friend. He was destroying himself only.

I sighed, seeing him leaving the room.

"He will come to a reason." Cabir spoke softly.

When? I was so focused on my life that I forgot what was happening around me.

Reading my mind, Cabir added. "Now please, don't blame Nandini for this. It's not her fault, but him only." Didn't I know that?

I growled.

My room was huge, filled with dark staffs and darkness. I liked dark. Soft and bright concussed me to death. Every inch mixed with blood and gun powder. Every darkness came together in this room. This room screamed to me, and me only. I recalled when I brought Nandini here, it was amusing.

"Nandini!"

Beautiful, fragile, and pure soul.

I could drink on her anytime, but she had to leave. No. She betrayed me by leaving me. The thing she was once repairing with her kindness going back to his old self, and became more dangerous. She took my soul with her and nothing left now. I closed my eyes tightly, before opening again. She would pay. Definitely.

I had a plan for her, just waiting for her to give birth to my child. I nearly laughed at my viciousness. Oh, Nandini. It would be my pleasure to play with you.

Again.

"That's original." Cabir's word bring me to reality. "If we get our hand on this first I think this would benefit us for long."

"Hmm. You know Punit?"

Cabir frowned slightly as ignored the topic. "Who? Who is Punit?"

"The one who tried to kill you last year?" He turned fast, like doubting me.

"Isn't he dead?"

I laughed. "He is dead but his brother was trying to get 'this' deal from us. Even killing our man." If I could tell what was going on his mind, as I observing him like a hawk.

"I suppose it is time to meet him for real." He smirked evilly. "I think his gang won't mind if he is found dead."

"No." I said, stood up from chair. "Bring the girl he was with last night." With that I left the room. It was time 'papa'. I was waiting for this long. He would be an idiot if he thought it would be passed by me. I didn't get their chair for no reason. As I waited for life a voice interrupted my thought.

"Hey handsome. I've been looking for you."

I turned my side to face Sydney. Her gaze looking at my pant zipper, licking her lips like she was on this already. Pushing her body to mine, her hand directly went to my cock tracing the zipper seductively. My head groaned. "I can make this quick, baby." She already started to open my zipper, but the lift door opened and without any thought I pushed her to lift. Trapping her body with mine, I pressed the stop button. "Ah. I like this." She moaned.

"You like this, huh?" I slapped her ass as her hands working on my zipper. "Let's see how much you can take."

F*cking b*tch!

****

"What the f*ck you did, Manik?" Dhruv asked angrily.

"She deserved that. Take her body, I don't want to see her again. Kill her or do whatever you want." I zipped my pant and walked for the stairs, but gave a last glance to the b*tch, as she was laying on the floor all blooded. Next time they wouldn't dare to go on me.

A good lesson for them. 

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Thank you.   

  I know this is short. But i just wanted to thank you all for be in my life. Without you all i won't have this 1% hope in my life, that saved me from HIM.  Thank YOU All.  and Please read the author's not i posted, scroll up. 

LOVE,

D. A