Rain.

Rain is the first word I can think of. It's not raining outside but I know it's gonna.

The sky is grey, just like my life. I get up and stare into the mirror on my wall.

45 minutes.

That's the time I have left before hell. I take on my school-uniform and walk off to the bathroom. My reflektion hits me in the face, tears begin to fall from my chins. I wipe away them. I know I'm even uglier when I cry.

I quickly pick up my brush, my soft hair falls down to my waist in soft waves. It's dark brown with blonde highlights. So many people have said nice things about my hair. When I slowly drag my hand through it I can almost believe them.

I try to smile sweetly to the mirror but somehow it looks fake and false.

35 minutes.

I walk down to the kitchen. A grapefruit is placed on a plate and a note is right beside it. I sight and sit down.

I had to go to work, eat the grapefruit and a toast maybe. It's something atleast. Money for lunch is on the desk. Goodluck at school. Hugs, Mom.

I roll my eyes and grab the spoon and begin too eat.

The bus is of course late. And by late I don't mean like two minutes, no longer, TWENTY minutes! Not that I care, but the rain (just like I thought) was slapping me in the face. There was me and three other people waiting.

One of the two girls that were talking began to move closer to me and she opened her mouth to do exactly what I feared. Starting a conversation with me. She must be new.

“Hi! I'm Alice”, oh God, now I really regrett not taking my Ipod with me...!

“Hi, I'm Autumn and I'm bored”, I said and turned to look after the bus. Finally I could see its yellow shape in the rain.

“Oh, I get it, you don't wanna talk with me. That's okay though I can talk. I was just trying to be nice you know, I'm new and all so of course I wan't to find a friend”

“Yeah, I get it. You can pick anyone when we are at school okay? Just not me please?”, I got up on the bus and took a seat in the middle. I sat down by the window, I rested my eyes to the sad world outside. Not that the inside of the bus was much better.

I heard someone sit down beside me, that bothered me when they did that. I looked up and saw that there was many empty spots left.

“You know there are other seats”, I muttered. I went back to staring out the window. The trees were starting to get yellow and red leafs.

“You know you could at least try to be nice”, Alice, of course right? That girl already pissed me off.

“Do you know what annoyed me at first? That you even spoke to me, then I tried to be nice to you but you keep annoying me!”, I whispered angry to her. Was it so hard to see? I don't want her here.

She sighed and walked over to the other girl at the bus stop. Finally, some peace.

The lockerroom was full of chatty girls, annoying boys and nerds. The mayor part was the nerds but the only people you heard were the popular crowd. Plastic, fake and false. They had my smile plastred on their lipglossed lips all the time. At least I tried to not show mine.

I grabbed my mathbook and pushed through the crowd. Eyes at the target. One room, filled with people I hated, feared. I grabbed a chair and focused on keeping the world out. Out of my memory I began to write down 'Moments* by One Direction. A contor of a smile formed on my lips.

“I knew you could smile”, yeah? And I didn't know you were such a bitch!

“Hi Alice”, I put my fake smile on and turned to her.

“Oh, Autumn I didn't mean that smile, no I didn't mean it like that! I tried to be nice!”, she had a wrinkle between her brows. That absolutely disturbed me. She was beautiful with her blonde hair and green eyes. But that wrinkle threw all that away.

“Well you're not good at it. And please don't male that face, it's ugly. No, I didn't mean it like that!”, I joked, yeah payback is a bitch, just like you.

“You really are mean”, she walks away, maybe hurt. I wouldn't know. The only thing I know is that I need to get out of here now.

Like really now.

It's still raining outside, I have no coat, I left it in the locker. It's cold outside but I don't mind. I begin to walk, no destination, just walk in the rain. I take in a deep breath and look upp to the sky. The refreshing raindrops all over my skin. I walk as my hair becomes all wet.

My first stop is a juice shop. The doors opens and Tony smiles at me behind the desk.

“Hi lovely! Skipping again?”, he looks a bit worried.

“Yeah, again. I just didn't feel like it you know?” I lick my lips as I reveal the truth about today.

“No, I don't know, I didn't skip school when I was fifteen. I was one of the nerds”, he laughs softly and I look at him.

“I still can't understand how you could be a nerd Tony!”, I say to him and I pick up the menu.

“Oh, don't look at the menu, I will suprise you! A Tony shake it is!”

“Haha Tony, yeah suprise me!”, he walks out and after about five minutes of strange noises he comes back with a red-pink drink.

“Oh, Tony! Thank you!”, I taste it and try to guess the ingredrients, a game we play every time I come. The raspberry taste is obvious but the other is harder.

After an hour I begin to think if its time for me to go. I thank Tony for the drink and walk out on the street. Suddenly I get the best idea ever. The park.

The park is still green, and filled with colourful trees. Music was played from speakers. Suddenly I heard WMYB and I began to hum on the song. Before I knew it I was twirling around, dancing and laughing. At the last tones of the song I stopped.

Thats when I heard a voice behind me, a cute irish accent singing, standing with his mouth right next to my ear.

“That's what makes you beautiful...”