A/N; If you're not on the NSP server or heard me talking about this. Here's some background info. I have gotten K to talk about BDay a bunch(like I've done with EVERYONE on the server. Most powerful mod /j) and he made a joke about BDay coming back as evil after the whole pibby darkness..... sO HERE WE ARE
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Painful...glitchy. Dark.

BDay wasn't sure what to do. It felt like he was stuck. Puppeted around. Not able to think or do anything. But he was conscious. He could tell something happened. He felt so much pain. So much sadness. What happened?!

He. He remembered being on the skeld with Gnome, Stoner...few friends. He headed to the reactor during a meltdown. Then, this huge glitchy black mess broke out from the reactor. He....he tried to run. But

He remembered hearing his balloon pop, Gnome scream. The electricity and power spewing out with this huge mess. He was scared...about to cry. Then it got a hold of him. It felt so painful, so constricting. He didn't like it. He couldn't do anything but stay there as he felt it mess with his mind and body. He didn't know what to do.

The darkness consumed him.

Or...was he free?

He felt the tight grip around his disappearing, the darkness still there...but he felt more free. Was he getting out? What was happening...why did everything feel so....off?

He...felt like something was happening. He felt so...empty. Not like he was there. He eventually felt his body begin to move, everything was still black...a dark abyss. But he could move. He..he thought.

He felt as his body began to shake, a horrible headache forming. It felt like he was foaming at the mouth. Yet he couldn't see. It hurt. WHY WAS IT SO PAINFUL? Was everyone feeling this way?...

Would it be better if everyone else was? What- no....no no no why did that thought come to his mind. Why did he feel so weird. Why did this have to happen?!

He was so scared, a cold air surrounding him. The foam feeling from his mouth beginning to feel more drippy...coming out from his throat. Foamy...warm...metallic. Was it blood? What-

All of his thoughts stopped as a sharp pain started to stab into his chest, his consciousness fading away with a hate replacing it...no...no. He wasn't gotta let his death be because of these idiots in this game. This stupid glitch. He was better than this.

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"BDay? BDay...." A decently loud voice spoke out, taking a deep breath. "BDAY!!" It screamed out, causing the blue crewmate to open his eyes. 

"...wha-" He mumbled out, his body aching heavily as he sat up. The ground was cold. Uncomfortable, yet so familiar. "What happened?" His squeaky voice asked, rubbing his head a small bit. 

He turned over to the person who woke him up, it was Gnome. She seemed worried, her eyes shining as if she was trying not to cry. Her hat was on sloppily and it looked pretty beat up. "You weren't waking up. Dummy! Don't worry us like that! Come on, all of us are getting together in the cafeteria so we can discuss what happened!" 

And with that, she stood up and quickly sprinted out, saying something...what BDay supposed was about him waking up. What an idiot...he never could stand Gnome....but he never said anything. Never even THOUGHT anything rude about it- at least, not meaningfully. Why did it feel like it was truly coming from the bottom of his soul.

This entire thing made him feel sick. He could deal though...he knew he could. Taking a deep breath, he stood up with a small struggle. He got used to the feeling of standing and being balanced before he went and began to walk out of the reactor room.

Maybe...maybe what he was feeling wasn't him? No...It was better than him. He could tell. It felt...needed. CORRECT.

Whatever it was...he knew it was meant to be there.
He knew.