#AOT

There goes the echoes of silence

The howls of stillness

Alliance of anonymity and tranquility

Just simply not existing for a while is what I yearn for

It's so comforting to be a stranger in an unfamiliar place where you just wander and explore as if u were just reborn, experiencing life for the first time.

Peace comes with a price I can't afford

When we were young, everyone dreams big. Everyone wants to be doctor someday so they can heal people. One wants to be a pilot to fly a plane, helping one person meets the other person. Others aspire to be an engineer, to build houses for the one's who were left behind and didn't grow up with a peaceful home. Lawyers who serve justice sounds liberating

I, on the other hand, isn't different from them. One of my dreams is to become a doctor. Not all superheroes wear capes. I realized how huge of a responsibility it is. Risking your life to save a life

But if I were to ask to choose if I want to see my future self or myself in an alternate universe, I would pick the latter. I would love to have a glimpse of myself in the alternate universe. I see myself living in new zealand, opening a coffee shop, part-time bookkeeper or selling flowers, even sewing dresses as a hobby.

A time when there's no social media, where everyone meets the other at the middle. When life was simple and peaceful. It's sad that at this age, simplicity wouldn't lead you anywhere. People get tired of you and easily get bored. Some of us were just forced to do stuff. Hence the countless thoughts of going no contact occurs every now and then.

What is the point of doing all these? I don't want to be seen nor anyone hears about me. I'm just a supporting role of my own story, watching myself walk away and leaving others behind. My absence leave no trace but will make a noise. My presence only brought silence, they choose to ignore.