it's not easy to hide my tears,

thinking of the past years..

you were my reason to smile..you were my life.

I will never forget the pain you gave me..

its not easy to be strong and say "I am fine"

it's not easy to cry nights..

I miss you and will always do..

I loved you and will always do..

all that promises you made to me...

to be on my side whenever I need...

to deal with my mood swings..

to love me till the end..

to spend a lifetime with me..

to have your babies with me..

it will hurt me each moment..I will see love..

it will hurt me each moment I see your pics..

it will hurt me each word I will remember of yours..

each moment that we spent together..

each feature of your beautiful angelic face..

your sexy smile and those shining eyes..

it will not let me move onn..

although I can say you did really wrong..

maybe I got what I was destined too..but you made my tears flow..

you made my heartache..

I will always remember you..

this Is gonna hurt like hell..

but I sure gonna let it pass..

Because ultimately for the people who love me..I will have to live..

though it will be only body without soul..

though it will be only fake smiles..
you killed my soul..

you killed me inside out..

I will be still living but with no emotions..

the fear of losing my loved ones now will never let me go close to any one..

you taught me a lesson to be at a safe distance with everyone emotionally..

actually I have no emotions except the tears that still roll down..

but am sure soon they will dry up and I will be strong..

I will always love you..as I used to..

but now I will never be willing to be with you..

Because you left me alone here..forever..

and now am afraid to have anyone emotionally attached to me..

they will leave me alone too..

I feel like going to random people and talking..

I feel to go spoil my life.. maybe then you will come and care..

but no..I will not..

I will just let my tears flow..and eventually be strong..

strong enough to love you forever but still be alone..

strong enough to put on fake smile..

strong enough to keep going..

strong enough to not to try and get you back in my life..

Because love can not be forced..

I will have to move onn..

Because this fucking Life Goes Onn..