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seungkwan stops moving. his chest deflates as he stares at hansol in disbelief as his blank eyes waver. with his hand still half way back on the table and his mouth gasping silently for air.

"you and... wonwoo hyung?" seungkwan stammers as he leans back in his chair as a tear make its way out, leaving a blank line after it as it drops down onto his chest. he lets out an emotionless laugh as he looks down at his hands.

"so all the times you said that i meant the world to you... you were lying?" seungkwan speaks silently, not meeting hansol's eyes even for a second.

"they way you literally worshipped me... it was all a game, huh? and all the times you held my hand in yours, the warmth radiating from you wasn't real. when you stroked my hair and kissed my skin, the marks were only a sign for you to own me, huh?" seungkwan raises his voice for every sentence as more and more tears stain his skin.

"all the 'i love you's... didn't mean anything to you?" his voice breaks as he slowly clenches his hand into a shaking fist. he bites his lip and looks up helplessly.

hansol just sits there, unable to speak nor move, just staring at seungkwan as he feels his heart split more and more for every passing second seungkwan's hard words hit him. he shakes his head and feels a tear run down his cheek.

"say something! anything!" seungkwan yells in a high-pitched voice as he slams his hands into the table and stands up, the blanket still hanging on his hips.

"it's not like you think." hansol whispers barely noticeable.

i can't tell him that his own best friend kissed his boyfriend? that would ruin their friendship but what about this relationship?

"please calm down, hyung."

seungkwan's face softens slightly but his red eyes are still swimming in tears.

"if it's not how i think it is, tell me how it is then?!" seungkwan shouts, staring at hansol with so much pain and broken trust, hansol feel like he's going to break, fall into a million pieces right then and there.

"i– i can't." hansol clenches his fists and stares down into his cold tea.

hansol hears stomping steps walk past him and as he turns his head he sees seungkwan quickly putting clothes on.

"where are you going?!" he gets up from his chair with the blanket still around his shoulders as he rushes forward to seungkwan, grabbing his arm just as he's about to open the door.

"i can't do this right now." seungkwan continues to furiously shake his head, letting his light hair cover his eyes.

"please don't go." hansol's tears stream down like never before as his grip fastens on seungkwan's arm, pulling him closer.

"so that's why you were gone for so long after the party, huh?" seungkwan hisses quietly trying to pull his arm away which just causes hansol to tighten his grip even more.

"don't go."

hansol grabs seungkwan's head with his other hand and presses it into his shoulder, sliding his arms around his and pressing his nose into his shirt, breathing in the sweet scent.

seungkwan stops trying to get out of hansol grasp and lean his head against hansol's naked shoulder and sobs loudly. the two of them falling onto their knees, holding one another tightly.

"please don't leave, hyung, i love you more than life it self." hansol cries out loudly into seungkwan's shoulder.

seungkwan slowly breaks the embrace and leans back slightly, scanning hansol's face with his own red one. "really?"

hansol nods furiously and feel his heart tingle.

"hansol," seungkwan looks deep into his eyes. "tell me exactly what happened, i don't care if you're trying to protect wonwoo hyung here, i have the right to know."

hansol's looks down at his thighs which are tightly wrapped around seungkwan's waist.

hansol tells seungkwan everything, from the bus ride there to him running to the bus stop after. he tells him about the strange vibe he got from that jungkook guy, how wonwoo called him and how his eyes looked strange. he tells seungkwan all of it without looking up even once to check his reaction, he fingers shake as he finishes and closes his eyes.

"oh." seungkwan mumbles, mostly to himself and hansol looks up at him. seungkwan's face was covered in tears as his expression was puzzled.

"i wanted to tell you before anyone else did, i felt like it was my right to do so, i'm so sorry, hyung. i know i don't deserve you at all, you're way too good for anyone on this planet and i just–" seungkwan's lips presses against hansol's and a cloud of warmth and love surround them, seungkwan's light tugging on hansol's blanket made him want to cry tears of joy.

they break the heavy kiss and pull back, gasping for air, holding each other.

"you're the only person i trust, i trust you with my life." seungkwan stares into hansol's eyes as he presses a kiss to his cheek and lets his head rest on hansol's naked chest. hansol feel his own lips with the tip of his finger, they're still flaming hot from seungkwan's touch, as well as his entire body was literally burning from seungkwan presence.

hansol lets his hand run through seungkwan's hair as it slowly slides down along his back and intertwine with his other hand, resting on seungkwan's back.

"i'm sorry for everything." hansol leaves a kiss on seungkwan's hair as he closes his eyes, feeling a wave of sleepiness hit him.

"i love you, hansol."

"i love you, hyung."

the two slowly start to drift away into sleep right there, in front of the door, one sitting on top of the other, one dressed and one naked but both bound with the same feelings of love and trust.

you're the only one, hyung.
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a/n:
henlo y'all how's u
idek what this story is anymore but y'know
hhh hope you enjoyed this though !!

(btw as of writing this, bts has dropped
concept pics i'm cryinfgsb bye)

thanks for being all cute people

ily!!
- hanna