I was no longer a virgin.

I don't think I ever thought about the day I would lose my virginity, and don't get me wrong, I wasn't one of those 'I won't do it until I found the one and I get married first' kind of girls or anything like that, but I just never really put much thoughts on the day I was gonna actually get down to losing it.

One word. That. Was. Painful. As. Hell. Wait, that wasn't one word. You know what, just combine them together and make it one word because I'm telling you now when he pushed himself inside me, I thought he was breaking me apart and seeming as I bled on him, he did break me apart. After that, it wasn't that bad. If I wasn't so immersed in thinking about the pain, rather than Logan was naked in front of me, parts of him inside me, I would have begun to enjoy it. Oh well, next time then.

Did I just say, next time? Seriously, shame on me for already thinking about our next time together.

Suzy would have lost her mind from the news. If she was talking to me that is.

What kept me going during the deed was the amount of care Logan showed me. He was all over. Kissing me, holding me, caressing me just so he could make me feel better.

If I'm being completely honest though, I felt much closer to him. I mean, he was inside me. It can't get any closer than that.

"You want to have a shower?" Logan quietly spoke beside me. I had no idea how long we laid there in each other's embrace, but having a shower sounded just like the thing I needed.

Truth be told, it was beginning to feel a little too hot and I did feel kinda... Dirty with the amount of moist between my legs.

If it was any other day, I would have just jumped out of the bed and galloped my way to the bathroom. Part of it would have been because I would have been too shy to walk slowly with my butt naked in front of him, and the second reason would have been because I could walk faster.

Circumstances at that moment didn't allow for any of the above. Believe me, I tried only to end up wincing and ground my teeth.

"Would you like help standing up?" Logan who'd been watching everything I did to that point offered.

My cheeks turned to crimson red.

I pulled the bed covers tighter to my body. "This is weird, isn't it?"

"No. No, it's not." He crossed his arms behind his head and laid back in the bed. The covers that were covering his body, rode down to his waist allowing me another view of his perfect, muscular toned front and his nipples and belly button and...

Shame on me.

He smirked. "Besides, " he continued. "We've done quite a lot with me bursting you open and all so, it's pretty normal."

"Jesus, Logan." I threw him a look that clearly said 'You are unbelievable' and rolled my eyes. "Just shut up, and help me up."

He chuckled before unlike me, he didn't have any problems standing up, so he got up from the bed and stood in front of me. Stark naked might I add which caused me to try really, really hard not to look down past his belly button. He extended his arm for me to take, I did, but not without making sure my other hand was holding the bed-covers tightly. I wasn't going to stand there naked the way he did.

But of course, that was Logan we were talking about. Because instead of just pulling me up and let me go about my way, he pulled me straight to his body, making sure there was no space left between his naked chest and my covered chest.

He didn't stop there, he dipped his head closer to me, almost like he was sniffing me from the side of my neck to my shoulder.

"Mmmh." He took a deep breath. "Interesting," he said. "You smell something in between me and you. It suits you."

My traitorous body, I couldn't believe it for a second. Heck, I couldn't believe my hormones weren't settled even after what he and I had done a few hours ago because you know what? Goosebumps still spread across my arms.

Unbelievable. And Logan didn't let me go. He still held on to me causing the situation somewhat much more prominent.

"Can I err... Go to the bathroom?" For some reason, my voice came out almost in a whisper.

"You want me to come with you?"

"No, " I practically shouted.

We've already been butt naked, mingled in a jumble of hot and sweaty bodies quite enough to want to be naked with him again in a bathroom full of steamy, running waters down our bodies.

Not this soon, at least and besides, I wanted to be able to squat down and clean myself down there thoroughly without any awkwardness, know what I mean?

"Fine." He rolled his eyes and let me go. "The bathroom is through that door." He pointed to the set of sliding glass; double doors perched on the side of his room.

Without wasting a single second, I bobbed my head once and walked into the bathroom ready to get myself cleaned up.

*****

Two hours later, Logan parked his car in front of dad's front porch.

I'd found him trying to replace the bloodied bed covers to clean one's when I came out of the bathroom feeling much cleaner and refreshed.

The sight was both embarrassing and nice to watch at the same time. My cheeks heated once my eyes zoomed in on the protruding red-stained on the sheet discarded on the floor, so without another thought, I offered to wash it myself. That stain was not coming out without bleach, but he had refused and offered to drive me home instead. So, yeah. There we were.

"Okay then, I better go in, it's pretty late, " I said as I opened the car door and dangled my foot outside. Before I could go though, Logan grabbed my arm and held me in place.

"Hey, I'll see you tomorrow at school yeah?"

School... Where everything else was still a pile of mess. Where apart from Logan, I wasn't yet sure how to approach the rest of my friends. Maybe Leo was the one exception, but the rest, I had no idea where everything stood.

Logan picked on my hesitation because he squeezed my arm before he spoke. "If you want, I can come to pick you up and we can go together tomorrow."

"Umm, no, I'll be okay. I'll see you there."

"Okay, if you say so. Can I at least get a kiss?" He smirked.

I smiled and leaned back inside before I planted a kiss on his lips and we said our goodbyes.

*****

Dad, Melissa, and Margaret sat at the dining table when I walked inside.

One look at them I knew both Melissa and Margaret had been brought up to speed on the situation, and Margaret definitely wanted more gossip from me.

I rolled my eyes at them and pulled out a chair. "Don't start."

Dad raised his hands. "Alright, we won't."

Melissa kept on throwing me looks every time she thought I wasn't seeing her, and Margaret looked like she couldn't wait to get me alone for more tale.

Dad on the other end started a repetitive, annoying tap of his fingers on top of the table that really started to irritate me.

"So..." It seemed he couldn't hold out anymore. The thing is, when he finally decided to speak, he started by dragging the words out. Prolonging it to an almost irritating length. Instead of the simple 'so' the word sounded like 'soooooooo' almost made me pull my hair out. "Logan..."

I raised my eyebrows and bore my eyes at him. "I thought we weren't going to talk about it. "

"No, no we are not." Melissa shook her hands back and forth. "We just err... Wondering if you are okay, that's all."

How subtle.

"Well, I am..."

"She's fine, " Margaret rushed to my aid. "And I just remembered, Amelia and I had something we wanted to do so..." She got up from her chair and took my hand on hers before she literally pulled me out of my chair. Once I understood her intention of getting me the hell out of there, I followed easily. Better her than them.

"See you guys later, " she shouted over her shoulder halfway through the stairs.

I only shook my head and let her lead me up the stairs to my room. I wished I could have told her to slow down due to my between the legs situation, but I wasn't ready to reveal that little secret just yet. So, I sucked it up and let her plant me on top of the bed before she followed right after.

"First of all." She raised her finger in front of me. "I want to know this, how in the world did you manage to snag yourself not one, but two world-class most handsome guys in the world? I mean when I saw Ethan the first time, I knew he was to die for from all that good looks, but seeing Logan seriously made me question my choices of boys I have a crush on."

I chuckled. "It's only Logan, Ethan is just a friend and It just happened. I think I told you the story."

"You seriously think Ethan is just that? A friend?"

I took in a deep breath and laid down on the bed. I was a fool to think he was. Or maybe I just turned a blind eye on that side of him. The side that deep down, I knew I meant more to him than just a mere friend.

"What are you going to do?" She asked.

"I don't want to lose Ethan as a friend."

"Well, they are both gorgeous." Her eyes drifted off, as if recalling just how they looked. "To be honest, it's a tough choice. If it were me, I wouldn't let any of them go."

I laughed at that remark. But the true question remained. What was I going to do if Ethan decided to come out to me, and wanted to cross that thin line between friendship and more? If I said no, what would be the outcome?

My blind eye wasn't a choice anymore and I knew I would need to jump in and danced to the tune sooner rather than later. The question was, what was I going to lose in the process.

*****

I am so sorry about this chapter. I was having a massive writer's block and so I feel like I haven't written to the best of my ability.

I might still be having that freaking block.

Oh well, seems like Amelia has a lot of tough choices and a lot of dilemmas ahead of her. With Suzy, Ethan, and Luke.

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