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Y/n: What it is?
I panicked at the weird shriek which accumulating in my ears churning every walls till it reached to my eardrums. No one was there actually

* A nightmare? Impossible, it's a beautiful dream*
I woke up without him beside me. The dream I had was so abnormal. I felt pristine rewinding that voice in my head, over and over again. Hearing confession from a dream character, soothed my modest soul

* I'm crazy. There's no one to confess me *
I giggled at my stupid lucid dream though still enjoying it, with a intimidating smile on my curled lips

I wafted a very alluring smell in the air and followed the direction of its smell. Like that I reached to the kitchen passing over the stairs case up from stair and down the stair. My hands raised up and landed on my eyes slightly rubbing it as if it could make my vision clearer and sharper

He was " COOKING "
There's an apron on his waist, straps properly wrapped on his groin. I always impressed the man who could cook but that scene wasn't impressive to me. May be, I judged him over a matter of presumption

Chanyeol: C'mon I've prepared you a breakfast
His dimple which could heat girls' heart down till it burned into ashes, baptized me as soon as I entered the kitchen. Each dish was fondly settled in a neat and particular grid out of his hands. I slowly fitted my body on the seat and and ate what he prepared. He looked pleasant not like any other expressions I'd ever seen. It's ineffable. That's the right word

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At night,
Chanyeol distracted me from tv by tapping my shoulder repetitively. I put the popcorn down on the table, slipping out of my cuddle, before craning my neck up to him

Chanyeol:Can we, umm, may be have dinner at some outside restaurant?

* For real? *
I sprouted my eyebrows up to the ceiling scanning if he was asking me out

But then, I remembered that he didn't think of me as a girl he loved and cherished. It was an arranged marriage after all and he's just too dumb to realize we we're what we were supposed to be

LOVERS

I scoffingly chucked and brought my slothful eyes, back to the series which I had no idea about, 'cause the movie I was focusing had been ended while he was distractive. I kept silent and ignored him like he didn't say that. I knew how it felt like when someone ignore me, but I didn't consider his feelings at all. I held powerful hatred on him rather than a humane pit. Such a cruel lady

Chanyeol: What do you think?
He's also was such a diligent guy. His diligence and stamina which never failed to annoy me, truthfully amazed me like it always did. Some words had to be spoken, than burring deep inside

Y/n: I don't think and I won't think
My reaction was rude. But that's what he deserved for what he did. His face became dry and his delightful visage perished to the black hole. That was exactly what I prayed, to see him weak and hurted as if I could hurt him

Chanyeol: Y/n, at least give respect to your husband
His tone was like ordering me.

* An order from the emperor to his little slave. Wish Chanyeol, if you want *
I thought and stood up introducing my bare soft feet to the cold barren floor

Y/n: It's only on the papers. I don't take you as my husband even a bit
Well well, my words were colder than the lifeless non living floor, so nefarious and blasphemous. I would be surprised again if he retained his creepy smile on his lips. But I knew I just crossed the limit. Enough surprise from him for the first day, to the entry of a new married life

Chanyeol: Y/n, you're coming with me
* Is this a command? *
I concerned only in my head when my tongue working on what should come next out of my lips, to attack him back
Y/n: Don't order me, Chanyeol
The tension between us became harder. There's no way to obey him. Not even close to it. I still hated him to death, and his aggressive statement even more empower me to resist him further

Chanyeol: What did I do wrong? Tell me
He finally spoke out about his pain aching in his heart, probably. He surely had no idea why I hated him. All these days, he's the one who was breaking me and crushing me like I was a cockroach, then this question couldn't be accepted. His tone was graced with so much emotions and softness. I noticed he tried to be gentle

Y/n: You forced me to marry you. You dragged my pride down to the bottom of the ocean
I blurted like a lighting having no idea if he was perceiving all my pains in those words. I didn't wanna say that but I had to, even if I might looked vulnerable and mild

Y/n: The worst thing is,........., you broke my heart
My throaty voice slowly faded in my sorrow at the last words. Feelings of sorrow and torment flickered my heart, like it whipped me rhythmically over and over again. I couldn't bare that broken feeling again. I'd rather be whipped physically than those mental break down

* You broke my heart , Chanyeol *

I heard him groaned while his lips shook uncontrollably matching the floating eyes to no direction. May be he might frown or wince. I could only imagine how he'd look like, 'cause I lowered down my head tending to hide my teary eyes from his stare

Chanyeol: Tell me, Y/n. It's bcuz I stole you from him?
He squeezed my arms tight and forced me to face him. Facing him wasn't hard, just reigning back my threading tears were agonizing

Y/n: You don't know how I felt when he stared at me in the wedding. Do I deserve all of this?
A tear rolled down my cheek. At least I endeavoured my best to hold it back. Some things need to be free

Y/n: His eyes were so broken. I even couldn't look at him straight in his eyes
My head went to an trance and lost the current memories traumatically. He wiped the tears which formed and dropped uncontrollably from my eyes, which I had no idea if they were oozing out of my visions or not

Chanyeol: Don't cry. I'm sorry
He let go of me and drove his car fast out of the compound. I didn't bother knowing how long I cried that day. I only remembered when I woke up, my eyes were pluffy and hectic

I didn't wanna open my eyes. They're so tired of producing liquids, but the sun treated everyone equally. It bothered me by hitting it's rays to my eyes. I yawned annoyingly and sat on the bed. There's a tray with meals on the nightstand. I could feel the heat on the meals

* He just put them *
I pondered formally and enjoyed his foods before scrolled down the stairs. He was found neither in the living room nor in the kitchen. I just thought he's somewhere in the house and focused on my daily routines, like reading wattpad and watching tv. Oh, what a simple useless life

But I didn't know he avoided me intentionally. Till we left from the trip, we barely talked each other and had a few face times

* Avoiding me? Cool. It doesn't bother me at all though *

His expensive BMW idled by the house which I literally was about to stay for months which could be form into years if they convinced me everytime

Yoonhae: My dear, treat her well. A happy marriage is the best medicine in the whole universe
His mother was giving him a speech obviously it was for me too. Her such sweet dulcet tone was adorable and charismatic

Yoonhae: Why did you lose weight when Chanyeol gained some from trip?
She turned her gaze to me and asked, while gently caressing my hair on my temple

* I wasn't happy in that trip, obviously *
Chanyeol looked like reading my expression and interrupted

Chanyeol: Mom, we only stated there for a week. You're talking like meeting us after a year
His mom bursted out in laughter over her son's cute reply

Yoonhae: Ok, ok I think you need to take a rest . I prepared Chanyeol's old room as your shared room
Aunty Yoonhae words were like shooting bullets right to my heart causing me to suffer heart attack

* Again, I have to smell his scent when I sleep, damn *
When I was about to pick up my luggages, Chanyeol slowly pushed my hands away and lifted them to the room

* Oh, gentleman *
My sarcasm didn't leave my mouth but they were always there in my head

Everyday, he went to his work and I was left with Mrs. Park, Miranda the maid, Johnny the gardener and Diamond, the pluffy cuty cat.

His father, Daesung uncle also worked so at the day, there's only one man, but at night, we gathered for a family dinner

Yoonhae aunty taught me how to cook but I only screwed them up as I had no talents at cooking

Yoonhae: Oh dear, it's ok. Your husband can cook. It's enough if one of two can cook. You won't starve
She said while looking at the dark black fried chicken I made. It had no fault but it was out of dishes because of me. The intention for a chicken is to be served neatly and expensively on the plate. I always assumed like that

We stared at the chicken pittifully for awhile and looked at each other. We saw sorrow for the chicken in each pair of our eyes like " R.I.P CHICKEN ". Then we laughed at our chaos

Yoonhae: Oh ha ha ha, Oh ma ma

Y/n: It's so insane, ha ha

I used to spend my time playing with Diamond after the morning cooking class. I couldn't do anything else as Diamond wanted my attention, and interrupted my every move

One day, I was reading a book and Diamond shoved her body from the bottom of the book to my belly. I thought she'd stay still but she flipped the pages with her soft hands, and I couldn't focus on the novel

Another consequence,
When I looked for a job interview with my laptop, she walked over the keyboard and pressed the keys one by one with her forearms. I'd almost sent a wrong request for an interview, but I pulled her in my arms in time

Y/n: You bad girl, why are you disturbing me? Huh?
She just snuggled me and mumbled the only word she used to say
" Meow "

Y/n: That's your explanation, huh?
I took her to the bed and we fell asleep slowly. When I woke up, that pluffy's fatty weight was on my waist, and I tried to pull her to my chest. But the load on my velly wasn't Diamond

It's his arm

Y/n: What the hell?
I quickly strived to escape from his embrace by removing his arms. Unfortunately, my whole body was stuck to his chest, and his shoulder was shielding my small existence. Pressing his heavy well built arm on my body, he locked me from moving. The more I struggled, the more he tightened his grip. When I tried harder, he groaned and flipped my body to him

Chanyeol: Hmmm

* Oh My God *
My mind went crazy because of how close we were. His nose was almost touched my forehead, and I guess I could hear his heart beats

* Stop making dirt in your mind Y/n stop it *
I had to be cold not to melt in his heated attraction

* Is this heaven? *

That thought light headed me, in the confusion of reality and imagination, when his exhaled air hit my eyebrows

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