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I'm here alone

In my warped mind

As tables turn

And stars combine

Into a deep

And dark abyss

Beneath my thoughts

And dreams I've missed

In lost places

Around my soul

That opened wide,

Swallowed me whole,

Into that deep

And dark abyss

Beyond all truth,

Beyond all bliss

Of starry dreams,

Of golden play,

In galaxies,

On rainbow ways,

Where I remained

Long past my youth,

Long past the time

I learned the truth

And cast it off

Like devil lies

Meant to scar

And steal my pride

And crush my hope

To soon achieve

The foolish dreams

I dared to dream

In that warped mind

That long lived on

With all its twists

And turning songs

Of broken thoughts

And long-dead dreams

Where failure was

The destiny

Just meant for me

Who chased the sky,

Who chased the stars,

Who tried to fly

Although I knew

And cast aside

The truth of death,

The truth of life,

The truth of dreams,

The truth we hold,

The truth that we've

Never been told

But still just know

In our warped minds

Because we're built

To always find

The dark in light,

The night in day,

The dreams sun-

Light rips away

And hides from us

Until we're left

To be alone,

Slowly undress

In our warped minds

The dark abyss

Of dreamers' flaws

And brokenness

Sent to be drowned

By our own sin,

Places we don't

Dare to have been

In our short lives

Up to that time

Where tables turn

And stars combine

Just for our show,

Performed for us,

Born of new life,

Dead in the dust;

Yes, just like us,

Just like we'll be

When someday we

Meet destiny

And finally see

Where dreamers land

From rolling waves

Onto the sands

Of Heaven's clouds

Or hell's red fire,

Depending on

Their heart's desire

When they yet lived,

When they yet breathed,

Chasing stars of

Humanity

And wondering still,

When here alone,

What sort of sin

They'd come to own

In their pursuits,

In their warped mind,

Just like I think

In time I bide

Right here, alone,

In my warped mind

As tables turn

And stars combine;

Am I alive?

How does that feel

When numbness is

All you can feel

Beneath your skin,

Beneath the truth

You've tucked away

Beneath a bruise

You can't ignore;

I can't forget

The wounds you earn,

The hurt you get

At your own fault

When you live pain

Like it's a choice

You could explain

If they asked you,

But still, you can't;

It took the path

You never planned

And left you numb

But still in pain,

Ever trying

To still explain

How you're alive,

How you can feel,

When you still can't

Feel what's real.

Your warped mind spins,

Pulling on you,

Pulling you out

Into the blue

Waves of the sea,

Waves of the stars,

Letting the night

Rip you apart

In bright of day,

In devil lies,

And I can't escape.

God, help me, I've tried.

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Gosh, emotions can be dark, can't they? Surreal. Terrifying. Dark like ambition, the ambition we entertain. Yes, we entertain what we fear, don't we? Because we fear it? Or, because we won't acknowledge that we do? Maybe though, we entertain ambition, however scary it can be, because we still want what it promises; we still want those dreams. We're human. We'll always be ambitious... even if it tears us apart.