autumn brings forth
m e m o r i e s.

thanks i wanted to give you,
words i wanted to exchange,
congratulations i wanted to tell,
dreams into smoke that i want to consume,
until every inch of me breaks up into those wisps,
gone,
and unknowingly,
i wanted you to breathe me in,
to partake me into a memory.

i knew you couldn't do that.

our shoulders bumped in the hallways,
and i remember sugawara telling me,
"are you sure he's worth it?"

i didn't know the answer,
so i replied the answer i knew best,
"i don't know."

he offered to carry my books,
but i didn't care,
because that weight kept me in the ground,
walking,
brushing the dust off falling,
i stand up as night rises,
hoping to smile again,
with those idiotic dimples that belonged to me,
and i hadn't seen it for a long time.