Amai: Ugh... Ria just had to make me do this...

Well, I am usually on in chat sessions to friends here in wattpad but now I'm depressed I could curse the whole day.

First I audition for Elphaba Thropp but then, due to "lack of ability" the teacher just chose someone else.

I do accept that fact but it's so much to take in.

Like that feeling where you practiced hard but didn't get in.

So please, to those who think I'm a good friend or good at my stories, thank you, but then it's really a hard phase for me to go through, I don't wanna even go to school tomorrow.

I still love English, but yeah I have such bad luck in plays

I'm such a self-centered person, huh?

Ria's taking over from here while I'm still, uh, sad. But if I manage to be in the mood to talk (which will take some convincing, honestly) I could talk to you guys.

I still waited on for nothing.

Waiting for the results after a whole week of school and then I hear that I'm not getting the part officially. Like holy sh*t it hurts hearing that.

And it's deja vu.

It all started when I was in my first year of middle school, Our play was Romeo and Juliet. A classmate who was gonna play Romeo's cousin went missing. So my teacher (last year's teacher and this year are different) made me do that role, thinking he wouldn't come back, but he came back the very next day.

Like, what a tick-off. The teacher gave his role back.

Did he even practice when he ran away from home? He's got a lot of suspensions already and bad moral character, but they still got him to play his part while I quit out of rage to be a backstage director

Now I recently forgave my teacher for his mistake. But here's my current teacher, a fresh grad, already making decisions where Ms. Sing-in-school-to be more popular- girl's Elphaba Thropp. (I'll name her here as Margarette)

Not saying that they should pick me. I've already admitted that Margarette-senpai has a good voice, but I practiced all no school week, while she's focused on basketball. She didn't set her heart in well enough.

But being a scriptwriter is a good job, only I've always wanted to sing in a musical school play.

That's it guys. I don't know when I'm ever gonna talk to you. Ria's taken over for now

I don't even know if singing or acting is a crappy job now. I feel like fate's not letting me get on a musical

And they wouldn't pick me in school either. Everyone in the whole middle school thinks I'm weird except my few-numbered friends. Very few. They think I'm like a piece of sh*t to them.

That's why I'm glad I'm here in wattpad, although still gonna recover from hard times involving the Wicked Play.

Sorry for slightly cussing here. I know it's probably the first time you'll be seeing me curse here.

I guess you guys would hate me now.

And I'm a total blabbermouth.

P.S. I only curse when I rant. Ria and other friends know.