Whenever I'm bored I always start thinking about random things. And as I walk along the unpaved route through the trees I think about the most obscure and randomest things. Sometimes it gets so weird I have to stop or I'll be standing there like a statue, ashamed of my own stupid thoughts.

Like right now, I was occupying my mind by thinking about cows. Where did they come from? Who the hell named the cow cow? Who the hell names everything else? Why the hell am I think about the meaning of life when I started off thinking about cows?

Fucking stop it, brain. Just. Stop.

While I'm wandering the woods, I start to remember when Claude and I were hiding from the demon hunters in that wooden cabin.

That was the place where he had confessed his feelings for me.

Well, sort of, anyway. He hadn't told me exactly, but I figured that it was probably what he meant.

And then my brain started to do even more crazy thinking. What if he hadn't meant it at all? What if I just assumed that he liked me and to prank me really badly, he's been pretending to like me this whole time? What if he doesn't like me at all??

What if this is another one of his tricks again??!

Claude always used to trick me when we were kids. He always used pull pranks on me just to piss me off. What if him falling in love with me was just some grand prank that he's planning just to top them all off?

The more I thought, the more scared I was. When we were kids, Claude's always wanted to hurt me. Physically, obviously. But what if he wanted the damage to be internal as well. What if just wants to shatter my heart in the palm of his hands. I could almost imagine that smirk on his face as he said the words 'You thought I loved you?'

Okay, you seriously need to stop it now, brain. My hands started to tremble at the thought of him just leaving me like that. I know Claude would never do that. Right?

I still had my doubts.

Wondering if I had started to walk in circles, is stopped and looked around. There were rows and rows of tall, thick trees. You couldn't see anything else. None off them seemed familiar to me since I wasn't paying attention to where I was walking while I was thinking.

Shit. I'm lost.

I didn't start to panic because this wasn't the first time I was lost in a forest. I looked around again to check if there was any clearing but there were none.

I breathed out a long sigh and sat down on the trunk of a fallen tree. Nothing really worried me. It's not like there were any wild animals in these woods and even if there were, I could just fight them of with my newly discovered demon powers. And speaking of demons, Claude had said something about them not needing to eat or anything and that it was just an optional thing so I guess getting attacked by wolves and starving are two things on my list I don't need to give a shit about.

The other thing was it wasn't that bad I was lost in the first place. I mean, I really needed some time off the manor just to be alone and clear my thoughts out. And a long nature walk was a good idea.

I leaned against the branch, breathing out again. Just in relief.

It's peaceful when there's no one around to annoy you and potentially break your heart. I breath in the relaxing silence and close my eyes.

And once I had, my hearing was so sharp that I could hear the drops of rain the leaves on the trees had collected after the storm plop gently against the moss growing on the ground. I could even here the wind under the wings of the birds flying overhead me. It was starting to creep me out how much my ability to hear in such detail was. Then again, being a fucking demon is a creepy ass thing to have to live with.

My hand reached to touch the charm of the necklace with my name on it:

Raven

It was the necklace Claude had given me on my 19th birthday a couple of months ago. It was proof, in a way, that he probably did care about me. But I still wasn't sure. I can never trust myself.

Suddenly I hear an abrupt thump that echoed even after it had sounded and immediately regretted coming so deep into the forest. I was as I had wished, hopelessly lost, but now I wasn't so sure about it. I imagined a huge, rabid bear with sharp teeth that would claw my organs out or a pack of wolves that would attack me and drag me into the woods and rip my flesh apart. My breathing became more heavy as I let my imagination run wild; all these sudden fantasies ended with me dead or in a bloody mess on the floor.

I clenched my fist as I heard the noises get louder and louder. Sweat dripped down my forehead but I tried my best not to get scared. All I had to do was not feel fear.

'I didn't expect you to find me so easily.' A voice suddenly called out behind me, making me jump and trip over a fallen branch on the ground.

'You scared me, again, Helston!' I yell, catching my breath. It was as if my heart had just stopped completely for a second. It was just Claude.

'Sorry,' he replied but I could tell by the tone of his voice that he was holding back laughter 'I didn't mean to make you fall over.' I tilted my head to see he was covering his mouth with a hand, obviously to hide his little smirk.

'It isn't funny,' I glared at him 'I didn't know you were following me.'

'Following you? You're the one that found me.'

'So you think I walked all the way here to find you?'

'Are you still mad?' His voice was now cautious.

'Of course I am!' I bark.

He holds out a hand to hoist me up but I reject it.

'I don't need your help,' I mutter to myself as I get up from the ground, still glaring up at him. He moves slightly closer to me and reaches for my head. 'Don't touch m-'

'Calm down. There's a leaf in your hair.'

'I can get it out myself!' I shove his hand away and get the thing out of my hair. Then out of rage, I start walking away from him deeper into the forest.

'What are you doing?' I saw him roll his eyes.

'Getting as far away from you as possible.'

'You're going to get lost...' He moaned, walking after me. 'By the way, did you get my notes?'

I stop in my track, jolting towards him and thrusting the price of paper at him that was still in my hand 'You can have your stupid notes! I don't care! Make fun of me, I don't care! Trick me, I don't care! Break...break my heart, I don't care!'

'Why the hell would I want to so that?' He asks, looking confused. He reached out to hold my arms in a comforting way but I stepped back before he could.

'I know you're faking all this. I know it's all a prank,' I whimper, trying me best not to sound weak. I won't let him think of me in that way 'It can't be real. I know you don't really love me. So just admit it!'

'What are you talking about?!'

'Stop pretending like you don't know!' I cry out 'I won't let you hurt me anymore, Helston...'

There was a long silence. Neither of us spoke. We just stood there, staring at each other, feeling the emptiness of the world consume us both.

'Do you think I'd still be here if I didn't love you?' Claude finally said in a low voice 'Do you think I would have saved you that night, or risked my life trying my best to keep you alive if I didn't? I'm sorry I made you feel hurt in the past but now... Now is different. I thought you would know that.'

'I...' I paused, taking a breath and sounding more serious 'I didn't.'

I was nearly looking at him but I could tell from the atmosphere that he was hurt.

He furrowed his brows, turning his head away from me and saying 'Okay. I get it. You don't believe. I just wanted to say that today is February 14; Valentines day. And I wanted you to be my valentine.' There was another silence until he carried on 'But I get that you don't, so I'll go.'

He started to walk away.

I bit my lip, turning my head towards him.

'How do I know?' I say.

He stops. 'What?' He turns around.

'How do I know you aren't faking this whole thing?' My arms are crossed.

He walks back and stops in front of me. His eyes close and h leans forward until our lips meet. He kisses me gently, and then parts, walking away again.

'I'll meet you at the manor,' his back is facing towards me as he walk away 'It's your choice if you want to go or not.'

'Go where?' I ask, but he doesn't reply.

'Go where?' I repeat but he had already vanished.

(A/N A lot of things have kept me from updating. School is being ruthless with homework, my tablet on which I write this shitty shit had broken and needed fixing, not to mention this Harry Potter marathon I had with my family. Boy do I love ending chapters in cliffhangers)