"Tumbling through the wind like a piece of paper I fly, I told myself I am just a piece blown away tonight. But why does my heart say I may have something written important on me? My mind says after it's read its again will be tossed free.. but I tumble and tumble till I just can't stop.. the wind becomes stronger , the pace becomes quicker and I just can't stop..I am just a piece of paper tumbling through the wind , it gives me wings, it gives me flight, so for me the wind is life , but what am I to the wind after tonight?"

Singto reads the lines again and again, the draft sent by Ray he has read it multiple times too. This kid is good .. very good . Just needs few grammatical corrections and controlled writing and he will be a force to reckon in the writing world. He will write back to him soon. But right now, his mind is too muddled to write anything back , any review, any words evading him. . All because of that one person, his every night dreams, his every morning waking hours, featuring him .. krist.

That day in car , as he has closed the distance between their lips , the pink plump lips have opened up hungrily for him. He had nipped the upper he had bit the lower, but he just couldn't get enough.. he had bitten and sucked , his tongue taking in the taste, the scent of everything that is krist, every inch of the warm moist cavern spelt intoxicating and he couldn't help but drink and get drunk , only to catch his breath, he surfaced... to be drown again.. the sixteen year old had been a pliant companion letting him have his fill and as he takes his..

But after that an awkward silence had prevailed.. Singto wanted to say so many things but he didn't know what to say how to begin.. krist expected words from him, he remained silent.. he still remembers the all consuming silence and then the words that broke it ..it was only krist..

" first kiss is not overrated.. it does feel wonderful.. thank you for a memorable first kiss master.. I will treasure it forever ." Krist softly says, blushing so hard he knows he must be red, thankfully the car is almost dark.. it took him huge bravery to utter the words, to admit that he loved his first kiss..he expects Singto to say something like it's not just caught up in the Moment kind of a thing or he was not just trying to soothe him, that the kiss meant something..that he wants something more, anything but singto when he opened his mouth krist felt his world again shaking..

" krist I ..I am sorry, I didn't mean to.... means I meant to .. but .. it's just you know ..are you .. I mean.." and he could see so much regret in those black onyx eyes..

" just drop me to the dorm.. my legs are hurting after so much running, master .." krist stares out of the window .. trying to numb his senses.. Singto kissed him and then he is fumbling he has nothing further to say.. this is his first kiss he doesn't want to kill the buzz anymore .. he wants to go back to dorm and he wants to write.. it brings him solace ..

Singto doesn't say anything further and dropped him at the dorm and kept on staring up, until he saw the light in the room came alive .. he didn't leave immediately after, he waited until the light again went dark.. yes, that's right, he waited for hours in the car, debating to go up or not but he couldn't trust himself, he knew, he would have again kissed him and might get carried away further and krist is just sixteen.

The car incident some hours ago proved it ..he wanted to wait but those tear glazed eyes, those pink lips , the pale chest moving up and down..he just drowned and never came up for the rescue breath.

He is ten years older to him. Singto needs to be the responsible one .. but that kid , well he creates havoc with his everything, his self control can very well toss out of the window. This internal debate is going on for a week now ..

Yes, now it's been almost a week and he didn't contact krist in anyways..though he is thinking about him with his every breath. His sweet taste lingering and pummeling his heart. But he knows he is acting like a coward because he is afraid of the age gap , krist's burning youth, his beauty. What if he drowns again and krist regrets it later? Or his quirky ways get too much for him and he quits like so many others before him or worse he breaks his heart or hurt him not understanding the difference that a generation gap entitles. Not to mention krist's father? He knows krist is not ready to face him.. he has moved out but suffering everyday with the tensed relationship with his dad.!

But then also he hopes krist comes today at his home like every weekend , like he promised, though he is not sure what is his next step should be. He just knows he needs to see him to function himself, even when he was outside Thailand for six years he never could concentrate without talking to him on the weekends. It provided the oxygen to last another week. He had been a fool not to recognize his own heart even then. He always thought he cared for the younger and their friendship, never recognising it's been always more than that..for some years now..slowly and surely krist has stolen his beats..

A message pings up

" Phi rain is my writing not good enough?"

Singto is broken out of his thought, oh shit,

"I made another one sad and doubtful..I should have atleast responded it's ok or something." Singto reprimands himself.

" No no Ray, it's a beautiful write up it's just that I am caught up into something, sorry to keep you waiting."

" It's ok phi rain, I have a habit of waiting, doing this for a very long time.."

" Ray, I am really sorry.. I even wanted to comment on today's blog, you are no piece of paper Ray..you are not at the mercy of the wind.."

" That wind is a twister in my life phi Ray..ok I will not eat much of your busy time..pls send the corrections back when possible."

" Find a calm stable breeze , twisters destroy , if I may say..you sound so sad.."

" I am already blown away. I am doomed phi Ray.."

Nomore messages come.. Singto feels bad for this author, his blog says he is a college goer, imagine being hurt so deep to write such melancholic emotions.. this boy is bleeding..

what if krist is too?

The sudden realisation jolts him! Singto stands up and runs to his car, why the hell is he so dumb.. obviously krist is hurting, he will not come today back at home..why does he take the younger so much for granted?? For a week he just thought his side never even trying to understand krist's..he kissed him first not vise versa and then he broke contact!! His own mind and quirkiness will be the death of him and his any chance with the younger....

He reaches his dorm in record time..and climbs two stairs at a time not even waiting for the elevator..

Knot opens the door after loud two knocks

" Where is he?"

" He went out with Tana for a movie."

" Tana ! Alone with him ..why??"

Knot really wants to roll his eyes..after coming back from home they have discovered krist mopping around more than usual.. he even locked away his mobile phone inside the cupboard, it's not easy to guess its lover's fight and this man might have screwed up ..for a week he doesn't show up and when Tana some how convinced krist today for an avengers movie..he comes demanding why is he out with another man! Is he even real!

" I don't like avengers, Tana and krist both loves the characters, so they went together. They will be back soon..you can wait. They went for the morning show anyways."

Knot literally gets dizziness as he watches Singto pace up and down the room waiting for them to come back. After sometime sound of laughter is heard as krist and Tana enters with their own keys with hot pork skewers in their hand.. and carrying a parcel for knot..

Krist, before understanding what is happening finds himself flushed to the strong muscled chest of the elder, the familiar musky cologne scent soothing his bleeding beating heart..

" I am requesting again like a coward ... don't quit on me krist. I am sorry."

Krist nods his head in yes, which Singto realises, enveloping him more deeper .. placing a soft chaste kiss on the pink lips.. he can't go further, he will not go further .. he mentally decides and tightens the hug..as krist accepts his apology..

Tana silently drops his pork skewer in the dustbin before retreating to the balcony, knot following close behind.

The two fools back in the room..well one of them more foolish than the other ..bask in each other's warmth..for now it's again peace between them..but for how long?

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A/n :::: more drama awaiting

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