"Did you cheat?" He looks at me sadly.

"What? Of course not. Why would you even think that?" I can't believe he thinks that I'm that low.

"Then why won't you tell me?"

"Because I don't want to lose you." I mumble looking down at my hands. Justin gets closer to me touching my cheeks with his thumb with me looking at him. "Hey, you won't lose me, we've been in so much shit together, do you really think after all that I would leave you?" I shrug looking away. "Look at me when I'm talking to you." He taps my face getting my attention. "Remember when I was babysitting a year ago and you put on a fire on their house and no one in the neighborhood would trust me?" I chuckle, nodding. "Did I ever leave you after that?" I shook my head. "Or when you embarrassed me in front of those girls telling them that I sleep with a bear called Mr. Cuddles?" Man, I'm awesome.

"No, you haven't."

"See I could name a thousand more things but who has time for that?" He kisses my cheek.

I bit inside of my cheeks, deeply sighing " Let's just say I did some stuff to her."

"What kind of things?" He says laying on the bed.

"Well I remember her and I went to the same salon so I knew Brent there, remember?" He nods waiting for me continue, "I once paid him to shave her head."

"I don't remember her shaving it." I roll my eyes." Because she worn a stupid wig." He's mouth makes an "O" looking at me.

"Remember when we went camping and she was there? Well I took her clothes when she went for a swim in the lake, and I once saw her mom cheating on her dad and let's say I made a plan for them to break up. I wanted her to suffer just like how she was doing it to me. I once wanted to burn her house down." Justin looks at me with a scared face, I just shrugged, "but I didn't because they were moving the next day, so my plans worked. And I got you." I said it, I didn't how he felt or not but I did those things and I was proud of every minute of it. Bitch sue me. "Justin?" I say snapping my fingers in front of his face. He shakes his head still not saying anything. I sigh knowing this would happen.

"W-what do you want me to say?" Justin suddenly speaks up after 10 minutes. I shrugged looking around.

"I'm not disgusted what you did, I'm just wondering h-how I didn't see these things that you were doing? Am I that blind?"

"You weren't blind you were just too in love with her." I slowly answer him.

---

The next morning I woke up seeing Justin didn't sleep beside me as I past out on the bed. If Abbie didn't came this would have never had happened. I know Abbie meant everything to him. But it was 5 years ago, why is he even thinking about her?

I shook my head getting out of the covers, stretching my muscles going to the bathroom doing my business.

After that I go downstairs seeing Justin not around sighing I rub my nose with the back of my hand taking a water bottle out drinking seeing a note on it.

"I went for a walk, I didn't leave you so don't worry about me."

I rip it throwing it in the trash, going to put some clothes on to find this lover of mine.

---

As I walk I feel the breeze on my skin, looking at the sky seeing it was cloudy like it was gonna rain any minute.

Walking on my way to the park I see the kids running around and playing in the sand. Smiling to myself, I want that with me and Justin someday in the future.

I walk slowly, seeing the Milo lake that Justin loves to sit and watch, looking around if I spot him, and with my luck I do, seeing a brunette with a hoodie on his head sitting on a bench looking at the lake.

"Is this seat taken?" I ask him as I sit down. He looks at me smiles a little. "Beautiful lake huh?" I smile looking at the lake.

"I know what you're doing." He says with a dry voice.

I couldn't help but let a chuckle out. "Need some water babe?" He rolls his eyes, clearing his throat.

"Aren't you supposed to be grounded?" I narrow my eyes starting at him with putting my hands around his back. "Your moms are coming back today, did you know?"

"No they're not, it's the second day."

"They texted me saying they are coming in the morning." He says stretching his legs. When he said that I checked the time to see what time it was it was already 10 AM. I quickly stand up, "what time did they say they'll be here?!"

Justin puts his hand behind his back, "10" with that I speeded to my house trying to get there faster then them.

I'm so screwed.

I get there in 5 minutes with me looking for the car but wasn't there, going inside but I see it's locked. That bitch, hearing laughing noises I look around my back seeing him laughing his ass off. I take a step back from my house running to Justin to beat him up, he tried to run but I took his hoodie with him screaming kicking me and trying to escape. I put my hand on his mouth. With him licking my hand getting disgusted I take my hands off.

"That shit always works. Let me go Jason I mean it." Squirming trying to escape again. I pick him throwing him over my shoulder. "Jaaaaason!" He whines kicking me with his legs with me slapping his ass.

I open the lock getting in throwing him on the sofa. "You thought that shit was funny huh?"

"Duh!" He says giggling. But he points a finger up. "I'm still kinda pissed and uh..." "Scared?" I finish his words for him. I take a seat next to him. He lowers his head looking at his lap."I-I-I I'm not scared I just... I just can't believe you wanted to burn her house down and how obsessed you were with me."

"I wasn't obsessed over you I was in love with you and still am."

"It's funny how I tired to get mad at you and leave but I just couldn't because I'm in love with you too, and I can't live without you either." He whispers but I hear him loud and clear. That really made my heart skip a beat. "I just don't get what's so special about me that you wanted to burn a house down..."

"Special? There's a thousand things that you're special, I love kissing you it's like a drug to me, I love how you try to make me look in the good things when I do the most worst things or when you make me a better person, I love when I wake up you're snuggle beside me, or how we have sex you moan my name." Justin slaps my shoulder, crossing his arms looking away blushing hard. "Hey I wasn't done yet, remember when I first came to our school and everyone thought I was a weird badass that had nothing to do-", but he cuts me off, "you can stop talking about yourself now." I roll my eyes licking my lips. This is my fault for spoiling him so much. "So what my point is that you were the one who accepted me and stole my heart." He smiles into my eyes.

"I don't know what to do with you!" He groans covering his face.

"Can you just forget and forgive? It was years ago."

---

Justin's POV

With him saying that made me thought of what the old lady by the lake said to me.

I was sitting by the lake enjoying the wind around me the breeze making me shiver, I put my arms around me, making them go up and down.

"Beautiful weather huh?" I look beside me seeing an old lady sitting beside me. I smile, nodding."Makes me wanna dance, I don't know why." She laughs looking at the lake." You seem sad, care to share?" I take a look at her putting my hoodie on.

"Um let's just say I had a fight with someone I love."

"Oh she must me special that you can't be sleeping at this time."

"Well he is special and on my nerves." The lady got embarrassed.

"Oh I'm so sorry I meant 'he'." I shake my head saying it's fine. "Well boys are always lying or getting on nerves or trying to break you."

"You seem sad yourself care to share?" I grin using her words.

"My husband-d-d broke up our marriage because I cheated on him when we first got married, a week ago he found out and broke everything off that was a long time ago." That sucks first of your marriage you cheat? After all these years he broke the marriage what the fuck is this shit?

"Um, I'm sorry." I whisper not knowing what to say.

"Having someone's forgiveness is hard, try to be forgiven to your lover. Don't end up like my husband."

"I forgive you. But you gotta make it up to me and come shopping with me today." This happened years ago, I'm not gonna hold on to it, what's the point of it anyway?

"Fine, I'll even eat a cockroach to get your forgiveness."

"Ew no then I have kiss your cockroach lips." I make a gag sound. Making him laugh. I stand up with him walking beside and getting out of here.

Yesterday started weird and today ended up well, I just hope I made the right choice.

-------------------------------------------

If you guys like stories which Justin isn't a fuckboy please check out my book Lexia :)

-Nazanin