Maya's POV:

I was furious. I was feeling like I could kill the person in front of me. It was a boy. He was younger than me in age. But a lot aged mentally I guess.
He was the one supposed to give me the tickets and necessary documents I needed to go to the fansign. I didn't have much time.

I came to South Korea three days ago and all I did this time were searching on social media, Twitter, Instagram, and even fancafe with the help of a local teenager for finding out someone who can help me get in there.

Unfortunately, the lottery winners' names were announced only yesterday. I almost gave up my hope but then I found this boy who was willing to give away the ticket of course for the money.

He was not a big fan of kpop or something. But he got lucky in the lottery pick for the album he bought for his sister who lived abroad. She had no way to come back for a Fansign and he was happy to give up this opportunity for money.

We made the deal yesterday. He will give me everything I need to go in but he has been trying to coy with me for the last ten minutes.
We made a deal for quite an amount but he was asking for more now. He realized I was desperate and didn't want to miss it.

"Take it or leave it. There are plenty of people who would love to get this ticket at this price. All I have to do is just ask." He shrugged his shoulders.

I was seeing red. If I had power, he'd be in hospital now. I felt my rage going up.
But I have to go in. At any cost. I opened my purse. There was not enough money. I showed him that, I had ten dollars less.

"This is all I have. I don't know what I  will do after this event, but I am betting my everything on it you see." I sighed, "please, give me the ticket."

He rolled his eyes. But handed me the ticket and the document copies.

I rushed towards the entry point and finally got my seat number and went in.

My heart was beating like crazy. Is it really happening? I never imagined meeting them up close. And now?

Oh my god! I have to calm down. I was almost on the verge of my ambition and I can not mess things up right now.

I arranged everything I needed in this fansign yesterday. Album for signing, Notebook or photobook for question and answer, sticky notes for questions and indication but no gifts. Bringing gifts has been banned since last year.
I have to calm down now. I was maybe the only foreigner here. I have to interact with them alone. I can't do that in the middle of everyone.

I decided what to do and went straight up to the person at the last seat, "Ah...hello."

"Hello." She was a little surprised.

"Do you wanna exchange your seat with me?" I indicated her towards my seat which was a second row.

"W..what? Why?" she was confused. Everyone wanted to go earlier in these events. But I was asking for the total opposite.

"See, I am feeling odd here being the only foreigner. I think it will be easy for me if I could go last."

"Yeah, sure." Her face lit up, "thank you!" she got up and moved to my seat.

I sat down and finally exhaled deeply.
I brought out the scrapbook. Turning to the first page, I again sighed. It was a new page.

There was a small doodle of a blue whale, drawn with a black pen.
I read the words written below.

"There are just different whales in the ocean speaking entirely different languages."

"Whalien 52"...I smiled. Nothing could describe Ashley more perfectly than this song.
She was indeed the loneliest whale in her ocean. She was the person who never fit in. Never belonged anywhere.
that made me realize, she was at last listening to them lately!!!

Hours passed after they arrived and the fansign was almost over. I didn't know how the event went. I couldn't concentrate on anything. I could be on cloud nine now if I were in a different situation.
It was almost my time and my heart was beating like I just ran a mile.

The first person was Suga. I repeated mentally, "Don't panic, be calm, be calm, be a calm girl!"

Suga was very sweet, very nice. I tried to talk slowly so that he could understand. He signed my album asked how I was liking Korea and gave me a high five.

I moved to J Hope next.
He was just like I knew him from the videos. A bright ball of sunshine.
I passed Jimin and Jungkook next.
Next was V.

I tried to keep pace with my racing heartbeat.
I gambled with everything. What if all these things I did were for nothing?

V greeted me with a nice smile. I was stunned. He indeed was the most handsome face. He shook my hand, asked how am I doing in Korea.
He signed my album, wrote down the answers to my questions and I  gathered all the courage I could at that moment.

"I brought something for you." I tried to smile.

"I am sorry Noona, but taking gifts has been banned recently," he said with an apologetic smile.

But I didn't wait for his words. I took off the necklace Ash gave me and placed it in front of him.

"Ma'am, you can't do that," a staff came in between from his behind.

"It's yours," I said looking into his eyes.

"Ma'am..." I looked at the staff and again said, "I got it from Ashley. You remember her?"

V stopped immediately.
I put the scrapbook in front of him, "There is a photo here. Take a look."

V was not saying anything, he looked at me blankly.

Staff asked me to move to the next member.

I moved to RM. The staff placed the necklace and the scrapbook in front of me, "ma'am you forgot your stuff, we don't keep gifts, please understand."

I nodded and took those back. I just wished that I made my points already. I was listening to almost nothing of what RM said, just nodded and made some small talk with him in reflex. My heart was thumping on my chest wall. Did V get my messages?

I moved to Jin.
God!!!!
He was my favorite out of them all. The only song I hear every day was Epiphany. I can't tell how much I  loved him!

"Why are you so pale? Are you ok?" asked Jin.

I was in awe of seeing him. I managed to say yes and handed him the album to sign. It still felt like a dream.

When he was done I was ready to go, but RM whispered something in his ear and he looked very confused. He frowned a little and nodded at him and turned to me, "if you don't mind....C...Can I write down my number here?"

I felt like a heavyweight just lifted off my shoulder.
I nodded.
He wrote down his number in one corner and smiled weakly, "we will wait for your call tonight."

I felt pity for him. He didn't have any clue why RM asked him to give me his number.
I smiled back, bowed, and came back to my seat.

I could finally relax and enjoy the rest of the time listening to their small interactions with fans and understanding nothing with a satisfied heart.

[It's the 40th chapter!!! I can't believe I made this story this far!!
This chapter was a little bit rushed I know, but I promise I will do better next.
The doodle used was drawn by me copying a reference photo I got from google.
Stay fine, and take love everyone!!]