It was a Saturday morning. Nice day I might add. I felt strangely happy.

"No need to ask why you are smiling like an idiot." Hermione said smiling.

We were in the Great Hall eating breakfast. Melissa, Laliah , Parvati and Betty all grinned at me.

"Why?" I asked faking innocence, though I perfectly knew why I was so joyful. Harry was coming back today. Well and Ron of course.

"We all know why." Laliah said sternly.

I couldn't help it : I smiled widely.

They all laughed.

"You are even more happy than Hermione!"

"I'm not!! I'm only happy because it's a beautiful day!! The sun is shining you see?" I said pointing something above my head.

Melissa coughed. "That the Great Hall ceiling." They all burst out laughing and I finally joined them.

"What time is it?" I asked.

"It's only half to ten you know. No need to hurry." Hermione told me.

I nodded.

Hours seemed to pass very slowly. It was nearly ten minutes before noon and we were on an armchair in the common room doing some homework when I asked Hermione. " Where do we meet them?"

"Just in the corridor before Mcgonagall's office."

"Okay."

"You miss him so much." Hermione stated.

"I don't."

"Yes you do. "

"It's normal. He is my.... friend."

"Of course." She said raising her eyebrows.

I sighed. Was she right? Was I missing him too much? He only went away for five days. But it seemed like years to me. I couldn't wait.
"What time is it?"

She sighed.

"The clock is here." She said pointing to the huge clock just in front of me.

"I'm just checking!" I said.

"You are hopeless."

"I'm not."

"It's the fifth time you say that today."

"Shut it!"

She sighed. I smiled. Only a few minutes.

"Should we go now? What if they arrive before noon?"

She looked at me as to say " really?" But finally said "Okay let's go."

I stood up and nearly fell.

"Stop being so excited!" Hermione laughed.

"I am n-"

"You are not, I know!"

We walked to Mcgonagall's office. I checked the time. Noon. Noon. Noon. Noon. They should be here..

I was feeling really bad until suddenly relieved ran through my body. Didn't know why though. Then I heard a voice through the door. His voice. "Hermione ! It's him! I mean it's them!"

"What?"

"Don't you hear them?"

"No.." she looked at me, looking sceptical.

Suddenly the door opened. They were here.

"Harry!!!"

"Gin!!!!"

I ran to him and threw myself in his arms. He put his trunk down and hugged me tightly.

"I missed you.." he said.

"I missed you too..I mean I missed you a bit." I said looking up in his emerald eyes.

He laughed.

"Wait! Did you call me Gin?"

"Yeah I guess?"

"I like it." He smiled.

We looked around.

Hermione and Ron were kissing. I looked back at Harry. I wanted to kiss him so badly. His lips were calling mine... I wanted him.

"We... hum... we should go." He said.

"Yeah probably."

***

We all went back to the common room and sat in the couches.

"So how was it?" I asked.

"It was really cool. I can't wait to be an Auror." Harry said.

"Yeah and they were all so happy to have us here... I mean it's Harry Freaking Potter!"

"And his ally Ronald Weasley." Hermione said.

"Yeaah sounds great." Ron said proudly. I laughed.

"How was it here?" Harry asked.

"It was nice. As always."

"It was a bit long without you." Hermione admitted.

"Yeah. Only a bit."

"Sure." Hermione said making fun of me.

I gave her a death glare.

"Oh!!! Guess what?" She said.

"What?" Harry asked.

"Ginny was asked on a date!!"

"What?!" Ron nearly screamed.

"Ginny was asked on a date." Hermione repeated. Harry was staring at me, lost in thoughts.

"When? Who? Where? Why?" Ron asked.

"Tuesday evening after practise. Dean. On the Quidditch Pitch. Because he liked her and the situation was great for him I guess." Hermione said. Situation? I thought. What situation?

"Dean! The traitor! Taking his chance only because we are not here!" Ron said fuming.

"I'm sorry?" I asked him.

"I mean, he knows I would not have been happy about that. And beside you are not his! He knows it."

"I am not one's possession!" I said outraged.

"That's not really what you said that day." I heard Hermione whisper to me. I gave her a death glare.

I looked at Harry. He hadn't say anything. He was just thinking.

"Harry?" Hermione called him.

"Yeah Harry come on defend me!" Ron half yelled.

"What can I say?" He replied bitterly.

"I don't know I mean... I thought..." Ron began.

"I don't own anything or anyone." He replied, clearly showing that he didn't want to talk. I didn't understand.

"Harry....?" I called him. He looked at me.

"I'm going to unpack." he said getting up. I quickly followed him. Ron tried to stop me but I pushed him away and followed Harry. He walked up the stairs, and went to his dorm. He closed the door. I took a deep breath and opened the door. There he was, sitting on his bed, his hands running in his hair.

"Harry." I said. He looked up. When he saw me, he sighed.

"Did you want to go out with him?" he asked suddenly.

"What would that change?"

"I don't want you to say no only because we would have been together if it hadn't happened. I don't want to be the reason you rejected him."

"But I didn't want to go out with him!" I shouted. "Why would I?!"

"Because you did before."

"I don't even remember it."

"You don't remember me either."

"I don't need to remember you! I don't need to know what happened before! I don't wanna live in a past I don't even remember! What counts is what I feel now!"

"Then how do you feel now!?" he shouted back.

"I feel completely lost!! I don't even know who I am!! And no one seems to care!! I'm just there and everyone would love for me to come back to who I used to be but I just can't!! How could I??"

"What do you think!? That I'm happy?! You only see your pain! But what about us? What about me!! Do you really think we don't care?! Do you really think I don't care?! You forgot me! You forgot your mum!! And trust me she suffers nearly as much as I do!"

"I..." I looked at him. His emerald green eyes were shining in sadness but also in guilt. His face was lighten up by the sun shining through the window. I could see how beautiful he truly was.

"I know that when Dean asked me out I was only missing you. That's the only thing I felt." I admitted, leaving out my ego.

He sighed. "I wish it could be easy."

"Sometimes things become far easier if you let them be."

"But the easy solution isn't always the right one."

"Then what is right exactly?"

"Letting you live. Letting you make your own choices."

"I don't even understand what we just said." I said half laughing.

"I....." He began but I cut him off as I ran in his arms. Only there I felt safe.