It was a cold day.
Great for skating on the big lake.
We walked to the edges of the lake and tested the ice with a few big rocks. Not the best day to fall into the water. Once we were absolutely sure it was safe, we laced up our skates and began to glide smoothly across the ice. "Akihito, look!" I attempt one of the jumps I see on television a lot, a triple axel, and immediately crash into the ice, my breath puffing around my face as I giggle. Akihito helps me up and then says, "Should I show you how you're supposed to do it, or...?" I nod gleefully. I love watching him skate. He's so graceful, he looks like a bird gliding through the air.

He lands the jump with some difficulty, but it's still miles ahead of where I am. He says it'd be cool to go pro, but I want to be a hero. When I told him, he didn't laugh, he actually encouraged me and said he'd help me train!

I love my boyfriend.

"Hey, Midoriya-kun!"
I glance up to see Uraraka and Iida in front of me, pulling me out of memory lane. "Yes?" I say, and lift my head up. "Why do you want to be a hero?" Iida asked. "Oh, uh..." Shit, shit, shit! Uh... "I just think it's really cool to help others when they need it most!"

Not the best lie I've ever told, but hey, it's not completely false. "Oh," Uraraka said, "Well my reason is a bit different..."

"You're doing it for the money?!"
"Shh! Not so loud!" Uraraka smacked her hand over my mouth, then sat back down and said, "That's a harsh way of putting it, ya know. I want the money because my family is so poor and I want to help them using my earnings." That makes sense, I think, and keep eating my lunch.

Oh my god, class is dragging on forever...I begin to drift off a little bit. I had no sleep at all last night, allergies were keeping me awake all night with a sore throat and a clogged nose. Decongestant can't do shit for allergies apparently.

I was woken up by a quiet tap on my desk and saw Todoroki pass me his notes and wink as he flips open a new page and begins writing. I thank him silently and continue copying the notes. Jesus Christ, thank god Todoroki is here. I would be so dead if he hadn't shown up. Is he, like, an angel or something?

Do I have a crush on Todoroki?

The question popped into my head as quickly and suddenly as my face went red. Is that an answer? No, it can't be. I love Akihito. I love...

He's dead.

I can't love someone else. I love Akihito. I can't stop loving him, but he's gone. So what...why am I falling in love? Am I falling in love? Is this-

The bell rings and I shoulder my backpack and walk to my dorm. I can't afford to have this dilemma right now.