Riddhama's pov :

I was in the car with Kabir. The flashbacks where still playing in my head again and again,  but now my tears were not coming. My head was on the window looking outside and eyes were red. We were going from a different road as it was not familiar. But my mouth didn't even utter a single word .

After around 1 hour, he stopped the car and went outside. After few minutes he came back with something in his hand and again sat inside then he called my name....

Kabir : Riddhu...

I looked at him, he again said...

Kabir : I don't know what happened nor I want to ask you about anything. I just wanna say that Everything will work out, Things will get better and The best is yet to come....

Hearing this I hugged him crying badly, now I couldn't stop my tears. He also hugged me back. His one hand was around my back and the other was caressing my head. We broke our hug, he put his hands around my cheeks and said...

Kabir : Everything will be okay.... sshhh.. don't cry....

I just nodded my head, wiping my tears from back of my hand...

Kabir : I have brought sandwiches for both of us. First drink this water..

He said forwarding the water bottle.

Riddhama : Mujhe bhook nahi hai, tum khalo..

I took the bottle from his hands and drink a sip...

Kabir : Yaar Riddhama, tum nahi khaogi to mein bhi nahi khaunga... and one more thing mujhe bohot bhuk lagi hai, maine subah se kuch nhi khaya

He said making a puppy face

Riddhama : Kabir tum khalo mujhe sachme bhook nahi hai..

Kabir : Naa, maine bola na ti jab tum khaogi tabhi main khaunga...

Riddhama : Okay baba, give it to me..

He happily handed me the sandwich and we both eat in a complete silence. After finishing, he started the car and we both headed to my home.

Vansh pov :

I saw her going away from me. I fall down on my knees crying badly.. I fucked all the things up this time. But I won't be letting her go away from me. I need to do something. Mein aise hath pe hath dhare nahi baith sakta. Mujhe jald se jald kuch karna padega. Main uske bina kaise jiunga. Main ab sab khup thik karlunga pehle jaise. I can't lose her.

I picked myself up. I can't let her go away. I will apologize to her, I will beg her for forgiveness and I know she will forgive me. I went inside and took my car keys and headed home.

I reach there, I went inside her house. Papa was sitting there watching news. I asked him

Vansh : Papa, Riddhama hai kya upar?

Papa : Nahi Vansh, woh to tumhare saath gayi thi bahar. Kaha hai woh?

I didn't knew what to say so I lied to him saying

Vansh : Haa woh mere saath hi thi par usko Sejal ka phone aya tha. To maine usko Sejal ke ghar chod diya... Aa jayegi woh thodi der mein..

I assured him and left from there to my house..

I was sitting in the living room thinking kidhar hogi woh? Abhi tak to usse ghar pochna chahiye tha.... Pata nahi ye kabir usko kidhar leke gaya hai.. mujhe uski gaadi bhi nhi dikhi rastein mein...

That when my eyes fall on the bar in our house without my knowledge my feets were going in that direction.

I took one bottle from the shelf and opened it, took a sip directly. It was bitter but not more than my life. I took a glass and poured myself a drink just like my father make for himself. I have seen him making it so I just copied him.  I drank total 3 pegs and I started feeling dizzy. I couldn't move from my place my vision become blurry and I was blacking out in between. My eyes started getting heavy and I don't remember when I passed out.

I got up rubbing my eyes and remembered all the things from today's afternoon. I got up and checked the time, it was 11 something, I couldn't see it properly and ran out to her house. I was outside the main gate and entered and saw papa heading inside. I called him

Vansh : Papa...

Papa : Vansh beta kya hua..

Vansh : Riddhama hai na andhar..

Papa : Haa hai beta.. par woh bimar hai aur kisi se milna nahi chahti.. usne khud ko kamre mein band kar liya hai and darvaja bhi nahi khola hai tabse..

Vansh : Main jaa ke dekhta hoon use..

Papa : Nahi beta.. usne mujhse kaha hai usse kisi se nahi milna hai... tumse bhi nahi.. I can't let you in Sorry beta.. kaal baat karlena..

Vansh : Nahi papa bohot important hai... kaal tak nahi wait kar sakta warna bohot der ho jayegi...

Riddhama's pov :

Kabir dropped me home. I entered and saw papa there. He asked

Papa : Aa gayi beta sejal ke ghar se..

Riddhama : Sejal ke ghar se... Apko kisne bataya?

Papa : Abhi Vanish aya tha thodi der pehle usne..

Riddhama : Vansh aya tha.. Accha papa mein apne kamre mein jaa rahi hoon.. main bohot hi thak gayi hoon, mein apne kamre mein jaa rahi hoon aram karne. Please mujhe koi disturb mat karna.. Mujhd kisi se nahi milna... Vansh se bhi nahi... Aur haa abhi mein khake ayi hu bahar se to mujhe bhook bhi nahi hai... Khaana khaane ke liye bhi mat disturb karna please....

Papa : Kya hua beta...

Riddhama : Kuch nhi hua papa... thodisi tabiyat thik nahi lagrahi isiliye..

Papa : Chalo phir hospital jaate hain...

Riddhama : Nhi pata itna kuch nhi hua hai... mamuli sa sir dard hain soo jaungi to thik hogaungi..

Papa : Pakka na...

Riddhama : Haaa...

I gave papa a kiss on his cheeks saying ''bye" and went in my room and locked it. My head was paining badly so I took a painkiller and was lying on my bed, I started crying badly. So to distract myself, I connect headphones to my phone and started listening to my favorite playlist. The song which was playing was EPIPHANY by bts.

(I personally love this song soo much, it gives me a lot of confidence and also inspires me to love myself)

참 이상해 분명 나 너를 너무 사랑했는데.

(It’s so strange. I clearly loved you so much.)

뭐든 너에게 맞추고 널 위해 살고 싶었는데

(I adjusted everything to fit you and I wanted to live for you.)

그럴수록 내 맘속의 폭풍을 감당할 수 없게 돼

(But as things go on I can’t bear the storm inside my heart.)

웃고 있는 가면 속의 진짜 내 모습을 다 드러내

(I’m revealing the real me hidden beneath this smiling mask.)

I’m the one I should love in this world

빛나는 나를 소중한 내 영혼을

(shining me, my precious soul.)

이제야 깨달아 so I love me.

(I finally realize it now, so I love me.)

좀 부족해도 너무 아름다운 걸.

(Though somewhat lacking, still so beautiful.)

I’m the one I should love

I don't know when I fell asleep. After few hours I got awake with a bad headache and also I was soo thirsty. I got up and looked at the side table only to find the water jug empty, so I went downstairs to bring water.

I was in the kitchen, I filled the jug and went out of the kitchen rubbing my eyes that's when my eyes fell on the  main door of our house, it was open. I kept the jug on the dining table and went there to close it. But when I reached there I saw Papa and Vansh there talking.

Vansh : Nahi papa bohot important hai... kaal tak nahi wait kar sakta warna  bohot der ho jayegi...

Papa : Beta suno...

That's when I interpreted them saying

Riddhama : Papa aap jao andar, mujhe baat karni hai vansh se. Main aati hu thodi der mein...

Papa looked at me, I could see he was worried. I could feel that he knows that something is wrong between Me and Vansh. I assured him through my eyes.

Papa : Ok beta...

Papa went inside, I looked at Vansh folding my hands. He looked at me, his eyes were bloodshot red.

Riddhama : Are you drunk?

Vansh : N-n-noo...

Riddhama : Stop lying,  I can smell it from here..

He came near and within a second pulled me in a tight hug. I was shocked and couldn't do anything. We both were crying . He said crying " I am really sorry, I betrayed your trust and created my and your life’s biggest disaster. I have shown you what an idiot I can be by making that mistake.I was wrong and behaved like a fool! I know you’re angry and you should be after what I did but still I want you to think about all the beautiful memories we had together that have made us believe that we’re meant to be.I am not perfect but I’m still me. The same guy who holds you in his arms because you’re all that matter to him. Sweetheart, l never want to see you suffer. Main apne kiye par  sharminda hu, I’m really sorry but please forgive me this time, from now on I won't do anything that will upset you… I love you.” saying this he broke the hug and put his hands around my shoulder. I removed his hand and took his hand on my hand, he seemed little bit happy but then I put the ring on his hand, It was the promise ring which we exchanged. He was shocked...

Vansh : Ye ring mujhe kyu de rahi ho, pehno phirse..

Riddhama : Nahi.. ye tumhe vapas de rahi hi, humare beech ab sab khatam ho gaya hai.

Vansh : Nahi..nahi...nahi aisa mat bolo please Sweetheart... Tumhe gussa hone ka pura hak hai par hamare beech kuch khatam nahi hua...

Riddhama : Toh bacha hi kya hai, Vansh? Tumne aaj mera bohot dil dukhaya hai. Mujhe laga tha ki tum mujhse pyaar karte ho par nahi you just love my body and not my soul, you provedme wrong. Tumne mere pyaar ka mazak bana kar rakha hai.

Vansh : Nahi aisa nahi hai Riddhu... Main tumse bohot pyaar karta hu..

Riddhama : Aisa hi hai Vansh.. Even if you really love me na then also my heart won't accept it after what you did today.

Vansh : Riddhama aise mat bolo, please  I know you love me but forgive me this time..

Riddhama : Ooo to tumhe yaad aagay ki main tumse pyaar karti hoon. Ye tab yaad kyu nahi aya jab tum mujhe apna pyaar sabit karne ko bola rahe the...

Vansh : Tab main thik se soch nahi paa raha tha, pata nahi mujhe kya hua tha tab. Main sachme tumse bohot pyaar karta hoon..

Riddhama : Main nahi maaf kar sakti, Main chahu bhi to nahi kar sakti. Mere self respect bohot important hai mere liye, jiski tumne kadar nahi ki.

Hearing this he fall on his knees crying and hug me around my waist.

Vansh : Please Sweetheart aisa mat karo hum dono ke saath. I can’t even imagine spending just a day without seeing you and hearing your voice. My Love, Life, Body, Soul and my everything belong to you. My life revolves around you.No matter how hard I'll try, I cannot live without you, you hold the keys to my heart and I will always Love you till my last breathe.

Riddhama : Vansh tumse jyada mujhe bohot taklif hone wali hai... Main tumpe sabhi cheezo keliye dependent hu.. choti ho ya badi...

He interrupted saying

Vansh : To mujhe maaf kardo..

Riddhama : Stop it Vansh... Bass hogaya. Nahi karsakti mein tumhe maaf samajh kyu nahi rahe ho... Mein tumhe jab bhi dekhungi na to mujhe woh saari baatein yaad ayegi jise mein bhulana chahti hu... Abhi bhi tumhe dekh kar woh baatein yaad aa rahi hai and it is hurting me...

I removed his hands from my waist and said

Riddhama : Aur haa mein apne bich jo hua hai woh Mumma, Papa, Maa aur Baba ko nahi batana chahti. Goodbye Vansh....

And went inside...

Vansh's pov :

I was on my knees crying looking at her going inside... Pehli baar mein khudko haara hua mehsus kar raha hu. Aur aisa lag raha hai ki meri zindagi mujhse door ja rahi hai...

Na aaye ho, na aaoge, na dooriyaan dhikhaoge
Na thaam ke woh josh mein yun hosh se udaoge
Na aaye ho, na aaoge, na jhoot se sunaoge
Na rooth ke sirhane mein, remote ko chhupaoge
Gaye tum gaye ho kyun, yeh raat baaki hai
Gaye tum gaye ho kyun, saath baaki hai
Gaye tum gaye hum tham gaye
Har baat baaki hai

I picked myself up, mein aise haar nahi maan sakta... Tum Riddhama meri sab kuch hoo... Mera pyaar, meri zindagi, meri khwaish, meri pehli aur akhri mohabbat, meri manzil, meri zidd aur mera junoon. Mein tumhe vapas paa ke rahunga chahe kuch bhi ho jaye.. Tumhe mujhse koi bhi dur nahi karsakta, tum sirf meri thi, meri ho, aur hamesha meri hi rahogi... Mein deewangi ki saari hadde par kar jaunga tumhare liye. Abhi tum gussa ho na isiliye aisa bol rahi ho. Mein tumhe kuch sirf dino ke liye akela chod raha hu taki tumhara gussa shant ho jaye..

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