Al opens the journal "this journal is the one thing that makes me feel like my dad is still here, I've been reading it since I was 15, and I'm still not done cause it holds 24 years and 1 month of memories".

He opens the book carefully to the 1st page he aims his wand at it and you can here Harry's voice...everyone looks shocked Hermione says "what's happening".

"It's reading itself dad put a spell on it so that if we want we can hear his voice" al said.

"Oh" Ginny says.

The first page says:

To Toby Cedric, Chloe Meredith, James Sirius, Albus Severus, Lily Luna, and Jacklin Rosemarie; my wonderful children I love each and every one of you so much and if your reading this I'm probably dead... Please don't dwell on my death, I love y'all.

September 31st 1996,

So uhh.... I'm pregnant... okkk...
Hermione told me I should write down how I feel the next 6 months; for a reason she refused to tell me...rude.

Anyways I guess I'll give it a try... How I feel...ok...

I don't like saying how I feel, but I guess this thing is better than actually expressing my feelings to another person...

Ok one; how the hell am I pregnant
Two; I'm a boy
And three; Someone should have told me.

I guess I'll start from the beginning, I know some people are probably thinking that what happened between me and Cedric is inappropriate, messed up, gross, pedophile etc. It is not like that at all, you see I realized I was bisexual when I was 13 playing quidditch, where I had a crush on Cho Chang but at the same time I had a crush on Cedric when he was 16. We became friends. At the yule ball it sucked both my crushes were dating each other but on April 11th me and Cedric started dating he and Cho broke up but remained friends, during those two months I felt free and relaxed but before the third task I felt like something bad will happen, and well me and Cedric we had...well you know I am pregnant so i don't want to explain that part... But he may be 18 and I was 14 at the time it really isn't that bad honestly madam pomfrey is acting like Cedric raped me which is not true. This pregnancy is both our fault.

Also if another person tells me to calm down and stop freaking out I will not be scared to explode at them.

Albus stopped it harry looked a little sad... Sirius says "what else".

Al flips a few pages "most of the beginning stuff is about how morning sickness sucks and should be all day sickness. Aha this should shock y'all".

October 25th 1995

Dear baby,

"Wait did he say dear baby" Remus said smiling some.

"Oh yeah, dad started saying that with everything he writes and it's either addressed to one or all of us".

I had a ultrasound today I can't believe there is actually a human life in me, it scares me.

Voldemort is at large, he wants to kill Everyone I care for I can't loose you too. Will I be a horrible father if I put you in adoption care. It's not that I don't want you my little alien it's just I'm 15, still in school, and so much more like Voldemort, I don't want you to be affected by me, I never had a father figure growing up.

I finally told Sirius and Remus about you, they took it well (if you take out Sirius screaming like a little girl saying he'll kill the boy who knocked me up) they said they are with me all the way to the end, and I feel so much better.

Today I felt you move it was kinda like a butterfly is in my stomach it tickled so bad that i laughed out in class scaring Ron who was right next to me. Damn Ginny saw me right that now she knows I'm super ticklish, remind me to run from her when I see her from now on.

Anyways this is weird, Severus Snape was being nice to me...who is he. I mean seriously why...

Oh yeah umbridge gave me another detention so I have to go.

I love you already, love dad!

"Aww" the women said.

Al smiles some "ok here's another one and so you know umbridge is a bad person, the minister hired her cause she believes in what he says. Dad told umbridge that he wasn't lying they got into a lot of fights cause dad's mood swings were bad, well she was almost the cause of a miscarriage cause she got fed up with dad".

"Why" Sirius said.

End of chapter