Four-Lettered "L" Word

•Anxiety's POV•

"He's a butcher with a smile, cut me farther, than I've ever been."

As the last words of the song came out I could feel my head spinning. Some how I fought through my anxiety and bitterness to get up there and sing directly to Prince. Logic walks up to me nervously.

"Wow, um great job Anxiety, that was- wow." He was blown away. Everyone was blown away. Prince stared back at me with his eyes wide open with shock. I smiled to myself as I left the room to go to my own. I closed my door and was faced with the darkness surrounding me.

"I... am a loser," I say to myself. "A worthless, helpless loser who can't even do his own job. All I have to do is whisper counterintuitive thoughts in the back of Thomas' mind, and I can't even just do that. No, I had to go and fall in-"

I cut myself off. I couldn't bring myself to say a word that I didn't know if I felt or not. Did I feel it? I didn't want to think about it now.

"No wonder none of them like me, I'm not good for anything. They all hate me. Prince probably hates me the most. I always disagree with him and insult him, that's not even apart of my job. God, I hate myself."

My own laughter fills the room. The best was to make mistakes better is with laughter. I was laughing at myself; I was laughing at a mistake.

I flop down on my bed. I just wanted to sleep forever and never wake up. Maybe if I just closed my eyes I would never wake up...

Slowly, I drifted off into a deep sleep. By the time I woke up, it was 3:24 and I was feeling hungry. Trying to not wake the others, I made my way to the kitchen for a snack.

"Hm, maybe this apple is poisoned and I'll die, that would be fun," I whisper to myself. I take a bite of the apple, it was fine.

"Poisoned apples are only for Snow White."

The Disney reference could only be one person. I turn around to see Prince standing behind me, messy hair and all. Shirtless, as well.

"What are you even doing up this late, Princey?"

"I, uh, couldn't sleep..." he looked down at his feet. "What about you?"

"I did sleep, but I unfortunately woke up. Plus, I was hungry."

"Unfortunately? What's so unfortunate about-"

"I don't want to exist anymore, that's why. Now, no more questions."

Silence crept over us. I was making him uncomfortable by talking about my inner demons. I couldn't help that I got this way, especially since it was partially because of him.

"Look, Anxiety, I know you don't like me and all, but I am still going to be here for you. Like if you need to talk or something... I don't know. I doubt you would since you hate me..."

"Who ever said I hate you?"

"From what you told Morality about me it seems like you do."

"Morality? He told you that stuff? I didn't really mean it," my cheeks started to heat up. "I mean, I was kinda over exaggerating."

Prince looked back up at me. It looked as if he was tearing up. It may have just been the bad lighting, though. "Oh... well I'm sorry for what I said about you too, then."

"What did you say about me?"

"N-nothing! I mean, it wasn't that bad, I guess."

"Well, just know I don't hate you. I mean, I may not like you all the time, but I don't hate you. I could never hate you, I l-"

I bite my tongue. I almost said that word again. Me and Prince just stared at each other. I didn't know what else to say, what else could I say? I almost told Prince my feelings for him to his face.

"I'm going to go back to my bedroom," Prince started to walk off. "And if you are ever having another bad night, maybe a bad dream or something, just don't be afraid to stop by."

I took the last bite of my apple and watched him walk off. I felt a smirk grow on my face. The boy has a nice butt, I'll give him that.

(A.N: If you have any critiques leave them in comments, I still want to improve! Thanks for all the support!!)

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