29 ; convincing

5th June, 8.56pm

Damnit, Tsubaki. In my last letter I wrote to you, I said that I wanted to forget you. That was a lie. I've been lying so much, Tsubaki. No matter how much I try to convince myself, I really don't want to forget you, and I really don't want to let go of you. 

I can't make up my goddamn mind. Not just about you, though. Ever since you left, it seems like I can't decide on anything. I feel like no matter what I decide, I'll end up losing something precious... again.

Just give my goddamn closure, Tsubaki. Kiss me one last time, please... 

Mao sighed and put her head into her hands, a crystalline tear dripping of her chin and into her lap. Mao really couldn't decide on anything. Everything she did seemed like a bad decision- and she definitely knew not being on the rooftop was possible the worst choice she had ever made. 

"Damnit."