Naya's P.O.V. 

Red Mount 1990.

"You know Ocean's been looking for you like a headless chicken." Jace chuckled making me nearly choke on air.

"Yeah he caught me alright..." I rolled my eyes while we walked out of the class.

"Why have you been avoiding him lately?" His question startled me for a second.

"I wasn't... just been busy." I lied. "Plus, he's annoying and I don't like him." I quickly added making him smile. To my relief he didn't interrogate any further until we reached the cafeteria for lunch when Jace stopped in his tracks, blocking me.

"Just hear him out okay?" He threw a statement towards me before picking up the pace to join the others'. I made my way to greet everyone before I took my place opposite Lea, before digging into my homemade pasta.

"I wish I'm his mate." A familiar annoying voice reached my ears and it made me want to rip her throat out due the fact I knew exactly who she was talking about.

"Talking about red butt baboons, where is the future alpha?" I questioned with an amused voice. "That ape never misses his lunch..."

"I actually don't know, he wasn't there for last period." Isaiah, the pack doctors' son informed making my heart stop for a second. Just as I was about to take get up to go look for him, the cafeteria doors opened sending a very familiar musky sent around the room.

"Speak of the devil and he shall appear." I mumbled under my breath and everyone chuckled knowing our mutual hatred.

His eyes still haunted me from the last time we made love, he made me feel like each time was my first time. Sometimes, he stared at me with so much intensity that I could physically feel his emotions. Which, I definitely wasn't supposed to because only mates were capable of doing that. However, those weren't the only times I felt his emotion or he felt mine.

"What if Naya was your mate?"

"WHAT?" I shrieked out in confusion, before processing exactly what Isaiah said.

"Chill, I said what IF?" He put his hand up in surrender position before I ripped his head off.

"Why, is it that bad to be my mate?" Ocean's voice reached my ears. Slowly turning my head to meet his amused and somewhat saddened eyes, I answered with a smirk.

"Mates are for wolves not baboons."

"Oh please, I feel sorry for anyone who'd be your mate." He tilted his head slightly taking a large bite from his hamburger, keeping his gaze locked with mine. How can someone eating turn you on?!

"Really? And why is that?" I challenged him putting a hand my hip nearly elbowing Ethen during the process, who was sitting next to me.

"Because you're restless and you never listen, you're mouthy and the list goes on." He smirked wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.

Before I could retaliate, the annoying minion spoke up "I'm totally not like that..."

"Err... No thanks." He disgustedly dismissed her before turning towards me again. One thing I always respected about him is that he never humiliated me like that in front of a crowd. Yes, we always had our usual argument and teased the life out of each other but never with any malice. Sometimes our arguments turned into heavy make out sessions later on.

"So what are you doing for your birthday?" Lea asked.

"Nothing." He answered looking down at his empty tray.

"WHAT?" and "WHY?" were the only two words that were being thrown towards him.

"Because I don't want to." He picked up his tray and made his way out of the cafeteria. Murmurs started to arise from the group while all I wanted to do was make an excuse and go check up on him. But I held my own knowing I didn't have to do that anymore because someone else was going to be doing that very soon.

School flew by quickly and soon it was time for all of us to meet at the front parking lot so we all could go home together. Unless we had detention, we all end up getting into different cars to drive to the pack house before heading home seperately.

As I got out of our castled style school, I looked towards my car in line with the others and got my keys out, ready to open the door when I reached it. Taking a quick scan around the parking lot I noticed that only Ocean was missing because his car remained in the same place where he had parked it in the morning.

"Where's Ocean?" Someone asked from the back.

"Who cares" I immediately responded while reversing the car to get out of the parking zone.

"Why do you hate him so much?" Leo, Lea's twin asked from behind me.

"How can you not? He's so annoying... and his head is so far up his -"

"Okay..." He stretched out the end of the word, letting me know I was getting too carried away.

"Nah, for real though, why?" He asked again.

"I don't know, I've grown up knowing I disliked him, I don't remember exactly why I dislike him." I looked in the rare view mirror to take a peek at Leo shaking his head at me.

"So you hate him, 'cause you just do." He asked again after sobering up.

"Yeah, I mean... I don't know, ask mine or his parents." I suggested wishing they'd know why we dislike each other so much.

"I don't understand why are you so close with the Alphas and Betas I mean... what is it that you parents' do again?" Blondie asked when I shifted gear turning the corner and headed down the road towards home.

"First of all, why are you in MY car? And second of all, they deal with the human businesses, like the estate agency we have, is owned by my parents, Alpha Philip and Beta Ezekiel, where most of the werewolves work. And that's where you get the money from to buy all that make up to keep your ugly face presentable to the world." I replied with sarcasm dripping from voice.

"Cindy, didn't you try to have sex with Dylan and he turned you down." Leo questioned her making us all gasp in shock. I tried to keep my eyes on the road while Lea, who was sat next to me in the passenger seat, turned around to face her brother who was snickered under his breath.

I decided to zone out their conversation because honestly it didn't concern me and I knew she also hit on Ocean but he turned her down. He made a little remark about how he couldn't imagine himself with anyone but me. Little memories like that never fail to bring a smile to my face but soon I'd be losing him. I'd also be losing my first love.

After dropping everyone at the pack house I headed towards my oversized empty house. My parents were always away for business allowing me and Ocean to spend a lot of time alone together. I was surprised of how my parents never caught his sent in my room, I mean, his sent was everywhere in and it was nearly impossible to get rid of it now.

I left the window open like he asked but honestly I didn't want to talk to him, I just didn't have the energy to fight the feeling I had for him anymore. As his birthday approached, it got just a little bit harder to breathe around him, to look at him and not wish to be with him forever.

After showering and cleaning up I decided to make something myself and Ocean to eat but he was nowhere to be seen when the clock ticked eight. That was his usual time when he jumped through my window nearly every night until the dawn of next day. I honestly didn't know how people hadn't picked up on our secret.

It'd been almost two years. I also don't think it'd be a shining medal to his reputation if people found out he had already been with another she wolf before his mate.

After finishing my food I left the extra on the table just in case he came but when the clock ticked eleven I knew he wasn't going to come. Why would he? After the last time, we were together I told him to get out in the middle of us making out. I couldn't handle his confession, so why would he want to come back here again.

Just when all my hopes were gone and my eyes were getting heavy from tired and hopelessness, my dark framed wooden door burst open. I jerked up straight on my bed with a hand over my petrified heart, that was trying to claw its way out of my chest.

Ocean rested one hand against the door frame while the other was clenched by his sides. His head was facing the ground while his bare chest glistened of sweat, trickling down his tanned skin. His khaki shorts and bare feet covered in mud told me he'd been running wildly through the forest.

He looked intimidating yet somewhat venerable making my anxiety reach its maximum level. Slowly, he closed the door behind him, still keeping his gaze fixated towards the ground before looking up with murderous eyes and said.

"We need to talk."

My back was against the burgundy wall with metallic silver filigree. Ocean's warm body was hunched forward and his murderous face was the same level as mine. His eyes were fixated on my lips, palms resting on the wall behind me, caging me in between his fore arms.

To say that I was scared would have been an understatement. I was mortified. I've known him since I was born and I knew him better than anyone else in the world. I had seen all different sides of his bipolar personality and he even cried on my shoulder when his brother was killed by hunters.

I'd memorised the different contours of his face when we were wrapped around one another, our limbs tangled together under the sheets. I'd seen the different hues of his eyes that he didn't even know existed. But this side was new to me and I didn't know how to handle it.

His ragged warm breath fanned over my face. I slowly tilted my head back to let it rest against the cool wall. I unconsciously inhaled his natural sent that was mixed with the raw muddy soil he picked up during run. 

When I was about to open my eyes, his lips connected with my right cheek and lingered there for a while before grazing his lips across my face towards my left cheek.

"Are you scared of me Naya?" He asked, trying to restrain his hoarse voice. Before I could realise what I was doing, I shook my head side to side letting him know that I wasn't.

"Then why are you crying? You shouldn't cry... I don't like to see you cry." He spoke again grazing his lips across every inch of my face. I didn't even know that I was crying but all I could feel was my heart attacking my chest trying to break out of its rib cage.

However, scared and confused weren't the only feelings I felt at that moment, there was a light sheen of guilt and pain laced across the surface of my heart. When I realised it wasn't mine, my eyes shot open in realisation that they weren't my feelings.

They were his emotions, reflecting through me. 

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This chapter is unedited.