Chapter 31

Alorah Reagen

I feel like throwing up right now.

The awkward silence during our phone call after I spoke my mind and heart out this late at night made me want to give in to this urge to suffocate myself with my pillow.

Why? Why are you doing this to yourself, Alorah?

Why him? Out of all the guys, why him?

Ugh! Kill me.

I checked the time to see it was already 3 in the morning. The haunting hour.

Waking up around this time wasn't my favorite thing to do because of all the talk about what happened at this time. Luckily, I was in the middle of the call with Julian, so if there was a sudden knock on my door, I could be slightly at ease having someone with me, even if that person was not talking.

The sound of shuffling made my heart leap out of my mouth, and my eyes began to frantically survey my room for any signs of ghosts or whatnot.

Ok, the chair didn't move. The curtain didn't sway. The closet door didn't make a creaking sound and the underside of my bed...

"You didn't make an assumption."

"Fuck!" I cursed out loud after hearing Julian's voice. I rested my hand over my heart as I stared at my phone beside me.

Even though my heart didn't manage to escape through my mouth, it did hit the wall in my chest and then tumble back to its position in the human body.

"Did you just?"

"Huh? Sorry. You startled me. It came out by accident," I said, squeezing my eyes shut. I never cursed in my entire life, and it had to happen during our talk. Way to go, girl.

"No, it's alright. It's normal to curse. You just surprised me, that's all." I could hear his chuckle at the end, which deepened my embarrassment.

"What did you tell me a while ago? Before... that happened?" I asked, changing the subject.

"Oh, right. Almost forgot. I said that you didn't make an assumption, Alorah. It's not in your head, and you weren't full of yourself," I smiled at his words. He makes me feel good about myself. "Everything is true; I like you, and every time we opened up to one another, never once did I lie to you."

The last part made me feel like deja vu. It felt familiar. I think Julian told me that before, but I can't remember when.

"Really?" I still couldn't wrap my mind around the fact that the feeling was mutual.

"Very," he reassured, making my heart warm.

I've never experienced this before. Back then, I would crush on a couple of guys in my class, but the feeling never lasted that long. I guess it was because I felt that perhaps we wouldn't look good together.

You know, some people may be in disbelief after finding out that you and the other person are together, but it wasn't like that to them since, based on appearance...you two wouldn't match and all.

That was a painful experience one has to go through, hearing that you and your partner aren't fit to be together because you're not prettier or handsome enough to compliment their look.

However, with Julian, I never once worried that would happen. It was because he reassured me, and creepily enough, he knows me.

"You know, this is my first time experiencing this kind of conversation," I confessed, chuckling at this new experience.

"Let me add that to all the other first times we had together," His voice deepened.

"Oh?" I said, intrigued by his words. Other first time, he says?

"You cursed a while ago. When you appeared out of nowhere, pulling me into an empty classroom and cornering me against the wall. The conversation we're having now, your sudden personality shift, and what else?"

"How are you so sure that it was my first time cursing? For all you know, I might have done that before I met you," I said.

"Yeah, right. You want me to call Layla and Amelia to back me up here?" He said, challenging me.

"Ok, let's agree to disagree that it was my first time cursing."

"So it is your first?"

"You're smirking at the other side of the call, aren't you?" I questioned.

"Let's say I am."

"You are making me regret confessing to you, you know?"

"No takebacks, little one."

I let out a frustrated sigh, and I heard him laughing through my phone. He was definitely enjoying it.

I turned to lie on my side, my hands resting near my face as I stared at my phone. We've been on the phone for two hours, and even though I should be sleeping, I can't stop talking to him.

"Julian?" I called, wanting to make sure that this was all real.

"Hmm?"

"Does this mean that we're..." I trailed, finding it hard to believe the possibility was... possible.

"Do you want it to be?" he asked. I felt hesitant, but another part of me wanted it to happen.

"Do you want it to be?" I returned his question.

"Without a doubt."

"I also feel the same way," I smiled as I stared at my phone, picturing his face. I want to see him.

"Then I guess we're officially together, little one," My smile widened. No more confusion, just clarity.

I don't regret that this call happened. Surprisingly, I felt at ease and decided now was the right time to end the call.

"Julian?" I called out his name again, liking how it sounded.

"Yes, little one?"

"Goodnight."

...

"Sweet dreams."

Author note: AHHHHHHHH! I KNOW THE CHAPTER IS LONG AND THAT SOME OF THE PARTS ARE UNNECESSARY, BUT I FELT LIKE IF I DIDN'T EXTEND IT, THEN I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE THE PROGRESS MORE NATURAL.

Not all confession phone calls are dreamy, so I tried to imagine what it would be like if I were in their position, and the only thing that came to mind was the awkwardness and the urge in wanting to clear the confusion through confirmation.

Nevertheless, I hope you enjoyed this chapter. ❤️

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