I sit by the kitchen with my shining friend beside me. Across us is Jungkook, looking uninterested.

"Jungkook-ah, I brought a friend. She said she wants to meet you." I told him, with a little sarcasm on my face. It's the first time I called him that too.

"Ah, anyounghaseyo, Jungkook-ssi." my friend greeted him, her face with a small blush.

She looks so adorable and pretty. I'm sure he won't resist a charming girl like her.

"Anyoung," he simply replied. "I think I have something to do upstairs. Make yourselves comfortable."

I know he wants to avoid her, but I'm not gonna let that happen. As he passes me by, I grab his arm and tell him, "Ah, Jungkook-ah, I think my stomach hurts. Can you keep (F/N) company for a bit?"

His eyebrows furrow at me but I have him beat. I walk upstairs ahead of him and lock the door. I bear a satisfied smirk on my face behind the door. At last I can get back at him.

I can hear (F/N) luring him into a chat. Like talking about the weather and stuff. I can hear him responding short words like yeah, I know, etc. Then she suddenly talks about us being cousins.

I don't hear him respond. I wait for a while but there's no response. I can't even hear (F/N)'s voice anymore. What's going on?

A few minutes pass but there's only silence so I decide to walk out of the room to check on them. But when I open the door, there's Jungkook standing before me. Staring down on me like he wants to eat me.

"I thought you'd never go out." He said stepping inside, making me step back. There he goes with his dominance again and here I am getting intimidated again.

"Where's (F/N)? You left her alone!" I told him.

"I told her to go home."

"What? I was the one who brought her here."

"I told her to go and she willingly agreed. Cuz I told her we're gonna have some heart to heart talk as husband and wife."

"You told her?!"

He only smirks.

"Why do you keep on telling people about us? You can't just always do what you want!"

"It's the truth so why hide it?"

I look up to him and he bears this very serious face.

"Are you seriously valuing this marriage? There's a lot of other girls out there who can be a perfect match for you. Do you seriously think I can bear being with you for the rest of my life? You're so arrogant and selfish! It's not fair. If you're mad at me cuz our parents put us into this pit, then tell me so! Life would be so much easier for both of us that way! I want you to choose who you like! You can divorce me and I won't mind at all! You deserve to be with someone you really love. And I think I do too."

I finally spat it all in his face. I really have to let it seep through him.

I almost cry my heart out, but he just looks at me lovingly and delicately like that night he told me he misses me. His eyes show nothing but sorrow.

"Did you think I just married you for no reason? Did you think I will waste my time with you just because I have fun doing it?" He hissed.

I stare at him but his expression never changes.

"I'm not an obedient child so I surely didn't do it to obey my parents. I'm a choosy person so I surely don't want to spend a lot of time with a person I hate." He uttered.

He's confusing me again. I feel my breath shortening.

"Can't you even think about it yourself for a moment? Why can't you remember?"

"What the hell are you talking about? You keep saying that. But I don't even know what you really mean!"

I start crying and he becomes frustrated as he pushes back his hair.

Then he screams at me, "I love you! I love since five years ago! Why can't you remember?!"

"What?" I stare at him blankly, for this new revelation.

He comes over me and hugs me as tight as he can.

"Please, remember. Please come back to me. Ugly! Don't let your mind stop you!"

I can feel my heart palpitating again like the last time. And in an instant, everything goes black.

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I can hear him calling me.

"(Y/N)-ah!"

I turn around and see a slightly younger Jungkook running to me. He looks cute with his bunny teeth showing.

"Ugly!" he said as he stands infront of me.

"Ugly!!" he said again and laughs at the same time.

"Jungkook?" I asked him.

"I'll wait for you later okay? Don't hide your face so I won't call you ugly anymore."

"Okay..."

I open my eyes and find myself in our room. Good thing it's not the hospital. I don't really like that place.

I look around but I can't find Jungkook.

"Kookie-ah..." I just uttered.

It feels like I should call him this. Little by little, this pet name comes to my mind everytime I want to call him.

I sit on the bed, still feeling weak. Then I see him entering the room with a glass of water and some medicine.

He hurries to my side when he sees me awake, "(Y/N)-ah."

He sits beside me and caresses my back gently, all worried.

"Are you feeling alright now?" he asked.

"Yeah, I'm okay."

He looks really guilty. Maybe about saying confusing things again.

"It's okay." I told him and put my hand on his, "I think there's something I really have to remember. Just give me more time."

He only looks at me with tender eyes and gives me a peck on the lips.

"Just stop doing unnecessary things. Please."

I look down and just nod at him. Maybe I really overdid things.

"Come on, take a rest." He told me and I lay on the bed to sleep.

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I don't wanna ask him. I don't want everything coming from him cuz it might sound bias and I might just brush him away again. So I wander on my own around town, trying to find pieces of my shattered memories.

When I first came to this town, which was three months ago, my parents said we moved in cuz of their work. I just got out of the hospital then and I thought it was just normal.

The place is new. I don't know anybody. But I felt okay. I barely have memories of the past few years, but since I'm a loner, I thought maybe I don't really have anything to recall.

Even the accident, all I know is that I met a car crash on the way to school. My head hurt like hell everytime I tried to remember what actually happened so my parents and doctors told me to stop thinking about it.

Not thinking about it relieved me of the pain so it became a habit of just forgetting about it. Until today, I don't even think about it.

I stopped having seizures until Jungkook appeared. And gave me the most unbelievable shock of my life, to marry him. Or was it really something that should've shocked me?

He seems like he knew about it from the start. And the way he always holds me, it feels like he's done it before. He kept sprouting unnecessary things like come back to him and he misses me. And just last night, he told me he loves me.

Is it real? Have I really forgotten him? Have I really spent a part of my life with him?

I want to know. I wish I'd know.

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To be continued...

- nantokanarusa 03.09.18