1-1-19
Flashlight vision,
Beam me up,
I think I'm made of
Wine
And all things
Right
And I think you
Don't mind, 
And you'll go home
And smell like a good time
And I'll go home
And find the time
To stop thinking
Of
All things fine
And
Walk The Line
And I submerge myself
In stainless steel
And sips of bleach,
I submerge myself
In the blurred reflection
Like the pools. 
And there is no going back
Mentally,
Physically,
I've crossed universes
To understand the
Importance
Of experience.

Chemical trails,
Traces of fingerprints
You can leave your imprints
In my skull,
You can leave your shoes
At the door
And come stay in my basement,
Of a headspace.
I've graffitied over a couple
Of the windows,
Now leaving me unable
To recognize all the light
That might've been possible.
And I find it factual
But with good reason,
And to carry regret over it
Would be treason,
To a version of myself
I once considered the realest.
These sheets change color
So do the walls,
I grow plants here,
And wait for leaves to fall
And find their way upstairs.
Sit on the floor,
And spin a record,
I've kept a cool collection
In terms of my memory,
A hard drive,
Eternal space,
And I believe in it,
It's the reason I'm too spacious 
To ever truly die.
There are reasons
I see lows and I see highs,
And there are reasons
You're swimming in the sinks
That never stop running,
In my mind.
And from the bathroom acoustics,
I hear it and you say it
Like everybody knew it,
I spilled myself over
And understood that a glass
Was only a cage to keep me,
I'm a secret,
But once you get past
The undeniable fact
That I'm a little bit /cryptic/,
You'll see
There was a beginning to
This place,
But there is never an end,
And I keep my words heavy
Like lead,
But you know it's real then
When it's not light like plastic,
When it's not shallow waters,
But it's bluntly stated hazards.

The red light,
I watch you watch the red light.
And you said you'd go
And I said fine,
Alarms in the distance,
Trust your instincts
But trust my intellect
I've seen singed fingertips
At my fault,
And I see it equally,
But not everyone
Has vision so clearly.
And I don't blame myself
For your acceleration,
When you know the ties
You're making,
Watch my lines,
When they go on forever,
And I promise
Most love is a risk
Worth taking,
Because the best of things
Don't wait for you
To sort out the mess of things,
The best of things
Will scare you,
So much, you're creating
Mixed drinks of
Anxiety and obsession,
And you love every second
Of the magic, as you tell it,
And I promise you
I promise you
That the lack of fear
Is the lack of belief.
And all love takes belief,
For if there is no fear
There is no love.

You're a terrible liar,
The mirror catches you
In fluorescent
Confrontations,
I understand that bit.
Who'd you talk to
In the sky last night?
I swear he slipped me
A million different signs,
About the conversation he had
That rhymed,
And I watch the clouds
Over the moon,
And I think it must've been you
Who draped the world
In shades of blue,
I think it must've been you.

Brews dark
I bruise dark,
And I depart
From those summer days
Of tests
That determined
To myself
What I could take,
Until death and I laid
Until dawn
And I asked god
With a 5am song,
What the fuck I did so wrong
To deserve this.
I turned back,
And I outgrew this.

Come out of the cold
And sleep on the carpet
And the stairs remind me
Of something old and familiar,
Make it new,
With the prints of your shoes,
And I'd let you dirty up
The organization
That I've kept, in overuse.
There are highlighters
In my eyes,
I'm looking everywhere
For words to make
Note of,
Words to create
Marginalized
Notes of.
I laugh to myself
And let it fill the room.
You knew it and I know,
It's all yellow.
⁃ (m.m)