I'm dedicating this chapter to my mother and all other mothers that passed away
May Jannatul Firdaus be their final abode
And the ones that their mothers are still alive May Allah also grant them jannah
Ameen💚😭     

     -When this journey exhausts me,it's your remembrance that bring live back in my heart
     
             -my mother taught me everything except how to live without her.

One week later
Thursday

I woke up thinking it's Fajr but turns out it is past three
It's already Thursday making it one week since Ammamih was discharged from the hospital,
One week since my hurt got broken
But I am glad Ammamih is showing quick recovery even though she seems pale at times
Aah takes good care of her
Jamal and Kamal went back to school on Monday
Leaving only me and Salim
Salim refused to go,disobeying Ammamih for the first time

I carried the Quran and recited three to four pages behind laying on my bed

"Followers everyday"i said after I switched on my data and went on Instagram

Out of all the request one caught my attention

"Your_well_wisher "was the username,I viewed the profile and only motivational quotes were on the person's account

I didn't even know whether it's a lady or a guy

I followed back and I saw a message on my dm

Your_well_wisher:As salam alaikum,I know you.i saw you crying at the hospital last week
Are you Okay?😳

My brows furrowed in confusion but then I decided to reply

Me:why?why are you even awake at this time?😡

Your_well_wisher:the same reason you are awake😩

And i laughed softly

Me:do you stalk people so accurately or is just me?🤔

I teased with a smile

Your_well_wisher:is just you,you are different😉

And that made up,my mood but decided to ask a question

Me:so are you a doctor or a patient or a nurse or a security guard?🤔

Your_well_wisher:🙊I wouldn't say it yet but i wouldn't hurt you,Wallahi(By Allah)
I just want you to see me as a well wisher
I am always here when you need me❤

I felt the sense to trust the person suddenly
Besides it seems like the person don't know me so i got my human dairy

Me:I hate him😡

Your_well_wisher:who?😳😲🤤

Me:the person that broke my heart💔

Your_well_wisher:you can't just hate people you used to love and Maybe he had his reasons🤔

Me:yeah,he did.i am a small child
He is just in his twenties for Allah's sake and he is acting like all those people in fifties
Girls younger than me have boyfriends😩😢

I tried to reason with the person

I didn't know the time I slept off,and I woke up few minutes after fajr

I quickly prayed then took my bath and got dressed then went to check on Ammamih

She was sleeping and her face was glowing and she had a smile on her lips that made me smile

I got downstairs to help Salim in the kitchen

"Ammamih is getting better,I feel so happy"i said smiling
I went towards the fridge 

"Even with the broken heart?"he asked and my hand held the handle tight
I just realised I am fasting

"Excuse me!are you my stalker on Instagram?"i asked annoyed
He could be the well wisher

"No but you don't talk about Doctor Abba again so i thought he broke your heart"Salim reasoned and I left the fridge handle

I rolled my eyes washing the plates

After breakfast,we set the table

Few seconds later Aah and Ammamih walked in gently

"I am actually fasting so i will wait for the bus outside,see you later Ammamih"i said carrying my bag

Then she got up pulling me into a hug,a hug that seems to be speaking unrecognised words but i hugged her back smiling
Then pull out of the embrace

"I love you,never forget that"she assured placing her palm that seem cold on my cheeks smiling

"How can i when you will live long to remind me every day?"i asked hopefully then she went and sat on her chair

I reached the door and my mind said i should turn and the moment i turned Ammamih was looking at me with a smile
I smiled back walking away

I could hear Aah scolding Ammamih for not eating

"Mr Tyler!"i exclaimed happily then glared at the boy that tried to put leg for me
Stupid junior secondary boy

"You look happy today,Your mother must be doing good"he spoke and I looked at him smiling

"Yes"i responded

I smiled sitting next to Halima

"How are you?"she asked

"I'm good Alhamdulilah"i replied softly

"You?"i asked and she smiled

"Same"she replied

We kept quiet thinking about another thing we have in common,broken hearts

***

"You don't look so good is it the fasting?"Firdaus asked
Making Halima and Amira to look at me

"I guess so"i replied the moment i spotted the bus
I stood up

"See you tomorrow"Amira said

"Bye"i said to the girls

"Nailah,I'm going somewhere in our house car so.see you tomorrow"Halima informed

"Okay"i said

I entered the bus feeling unease but i shrugged it off

After I dropped at home,I saw Faisal's car

I groaned walking in then I saw Faisal,Mansur,Salim
Jamal,kamal?when did they come back

I was feeling too weak to even speak so i greeted Ammanih's friend,our neighbours  and Aah
Are we having a celebration here?

I went straight to my room to change so i can meet Ammamih in her room

"Ammamih..."i called loudly

I kept shut seeing My brothers in her room as if they were waiting for me

"Where is Ammamih?is she in the bathroom?"i asked and they all looked at me with straight face

Jamal and Kamal made me sit in their middle while Salim squat infront on me

"You know this life is about
Live and death,from the moment you are born
Our date of death is also written
Nailah....."Jamal began

"Ammamih is no more"Kamal concluded
He sounded extremely broken 

"She died around nine am"Salim added with cracking voice

And it rang through my brain and I couldn't believe my ears

"No!!!!!!!!!"I cried trying to push them away but Jamal took me into his arms

"My Ammamih!"i cried loudly

"Noo.. you are all lying aren't you a shame of yourselves"i said angrily hitting Jamal

"She is no more "Salim said with teary eyes

"Keep repeating inna lilahi wa inna ilaihi rajuun (from Allah we come and to him we shall return )"Kamal said wiping his tears

And i froze thinking all sort of things

I didn't know the time my brothers left and it was the women in my neighbourhood and maman Faisal that walked in

Our estate iman's wife carried hisnul Muslim(fortress of a believer)

And she opened a page making me repeat after her,a prayer

"Innaa lillaahi wa 'innaa 'ilayhi raaji'oon, Allaahumma'-jurni fee museebatee wa 'akhliflee khayran minhaa.

We are from Allah and unto Him we return. O Allah take me out of my plight and bring to me after it something better."

After they left me to pray,I prayed crying  my heart out.

"Allah i had only Ammamih and now she's gone"i cried in sujud
After I did my Salam

I then took my phone and informed Firdaus,Amira and Halima they didn't want to believe so i left their messages on read

Crying myself to sleep

When I woke up I saw Firdaus,Amira and Halima sitting with gloomy faces

They pulled me into hug one by one and I cried my whole pain on their shoulders

No more Ammamih

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