12.17 am

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Astrid, please pick up the call
I need to talk to you,
please, please just let me-

[ car honk in the background;
groaning from beside ]

I'll be right with you
trying to get Eliza back home.
I'll be right with you.

I'm sorry, mi amor.

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12.40 am

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Astrid, I'm so so
sorry princess, just pick up the call.
I just got home and you're
not here.
Where are you, my love?

Please, just pick up the call.

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12. 53 am

Astrid, please.
Where are you, honey?

I've been driving around aimlessly for
a while and I'm so worried
about you.

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you love.

Just please, don't do this to me.
You know I didn't mean anything,
the only reason I did not go after you
was because she was absolutely wasted
and there were a lot of people eyeing her top to down.

I could not leave her like that, darling.
You know that.

I'm pulling over to your house at the moment.
Please be here.

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01.16 am

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So, you're mad at me.

Claudia has chased me off,
saying that you came home crying all the way
because I had cheated on you.

I'm sorry, my love,
I never meant for that to happen.

And believe me my darling, all the while
I had wanted to get away from her and stop
it from happening.

Astrid, please.
I'm sorry.
I'm so fucking sorry.

She kissed me and forced her tongue down my
throat, I wanted her to stop.

I gently pushed her away,
she wouldn't budge.

And I know you're wondering why I wouldn't
come after you.

Astrid, please please please
Believe me when I say that I wanted
to come right after you darling,
I wanted to dump Eliza on someone
else, anyone else but I knew
that she would not be safe enough.

Baby, I love you.

[ strained sob ]

I really really love you, Astrid.

And I know that what I did
could not have been justified.
Should not have an explanation,
but baby, it's you I love.

I know that you're disappointed in me,
wondering why I hadn't come right after you.

Darling, please just open up the door.

I'm sitting against your slammed bedroom
door, your abuela let me climb
in from the window because
she felt sorry for me, sitting on the grass
lawn in front of your house.

Please baby,
let me fix my mess, I promise
this is the last time I'll ever do this to you.

Let me make this right, love.

I'm sorry.

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03.45 am

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I love you, Astrid.

[ sob ]

I love you.
I love you.
I love you.

Please believe me when I say this.

[ severe blowing of nose ]

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04.58 am

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I'm sorry I left your house
but I had to go.

Trevor called me up,
half drunk but sobering up.

He had heard about what had happened,
I went over because he threatened
to set our house on fire,
He was livid.

I didn't blame him.

I slid a note into your room
Through the small crevice in the doorway.

I don't know if you've noticed that yet.

I don't know if you're alright,
or crying on the bathroom floor, wondering
what you ever did wrong.

And if it is as I think it,
baby, I wanted you to know that this isn't
your fault at all.

It's mine.

Trevor had made me realise
that now.
We had a fight in front of our place.

He said that everyone knew that
Eliza had always been in love with me.

I had never communicated it
clearly enough to her,
that I did not like her that way.

And even if I had, I did not
avert her advances on me.

I said I did.

He said it was not enough.

Trevor had liked Eliza,
he always did.
She had always had eyes for me.

At times like this,
I deeply wonder why you chose me.

Why any of you girls chose me.

I was a nobody and you girls
deserved goddamn princes,
and all I can give is nothing but myself
and yet, you fight and try your best
to have me.

To have me.

To have me.

I'm sorry my love,
I shouldn't have done, what I had.

I should have averted her more openly.

Told her that I loved you,
and not her, probably never her.

But I didn't.

At least not in time enough.

And now, I've lost two friends in one night,
please don't make this the night I lose the
love of my life too?

I'm sorry, and I'd beg
you on my knees to stay,
But it wouldn't change a goddamn thing now.

I just wanted to let you know that
I love you, Astrid,
Now and always.

I'm sorry.

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