"Lets eat chicken!" Jungkook calls out cutely.

"But I want pizza." I say in the back of the seat.

"Let's go bowling and eat there." Namjoon say and me and Jungkook sarcastic groans together. "I'm driving, so I get to pick."

We end up going to the bowling alley down the road from school. Namjoon pays for all of us for a couple rounds of the game and we go to chose the size and weight of our bolwing ball. Jungkook picks a red one will I grab a light weight purple ball that is recommend for kids. Namjoon teases me and reaches across to grab a blue ball.

We pick a area to play and set up teams, me and Namjoon. Then Jungkook insisted to be alone.

I feel someone watching me, and look over to see Jin coming to approach with some friends. I react and grab Namjoon by the arm.

"Incoming." I whisper and Namjoon looks just to see Jin with two friends behind him.

"Hey Namjoon, Sungmin, and little kid." Jin says. He's gotton more handsome and older, but his cocky appearance still remains.

"I'm not a kid." Jungkook grits his teeth and stands behind Namjoon.

"Hey Jin, what are you doing here." Namjoon says and takes a hold of me with his arm

"We should bowl together, you have an odd number anyways." Namjoon looks at me and I look back at Jungkook who cowards behind Namjoon.

"Sure." I say and I feel Jungkook nudge me in the stomach. "Your friends against us."

Jins smirk forms into a long smile across his face. He crosses his arms and snaps back to his two friends to get the bowling balls.

"Are you sure you want to do this..." Namjoon whispers in my ear. I nod my head.

"This should be fun." I say. My attention moves to Jessica who is walking over to Jin with drinks in her hands. Jin grabs the drinks and places a long kiss on her. I roll my eyes and look away.

"Let's beat these jerks." I feel ticked now and would love to wipe the smirk that Jin always has on his gorgeous face.

Namjoon goes first, while Jungkook runs off to bring back some hot wings and drinks.

Namjoon squares up and runs, the ball detracting from his hand and rolling off smoothly to the floor.

Five pins knocked down and Namjoon jumps back in happiness and I run to hug him. Jin coughs while we are celebrating and we move for him to roll.

Jin flips his hair out from his eyes and rolls the ball effortlessly, getting a strike. He walks back confidently and high fives his team. 

"He's good." I shoot a glare at Jungkook who has hot wing sauce all over his face.

"We have to beat them, Namjoon." I grab his arm. Namjoon nods and motions Jungkook to come up and roll.

Jungkook looks up wide eye before finishing his wings. He grabs a napkin and wiping his mouth before grabbing a balling ball. He walks past me and I give him a pat and tell him good luck. Jungkook looks back and smiles wide before going and rolling the ball.

Jungkook makes a strike and Namjoon and I cheer together in an hug. We make Jungkook join in as we celebrate.

"I didn't know you were good at bowling?" I ask. Jungkook giggles and holds me by my waist.

"What do you think I did during my days in the orphanage?" "Bowl." I answer. Jungkook laughs and nods his head.

"Let's beat Jin." and we all place our hands in the middle, then raising them up in the air in team spirt.

For the next hour, Jin scores more strikes along with Jungkook. Namjoon, once or twice, hit the gutter, while I was only knocking down half of the pins. Jin's friends were also about the level as me and Namjoon were at.

It was coming down to the end of the game. My team was only a couple points behind Jin's team. We need to two strives to beat them.

It my turn and I grab the ball. I pass Jin who grabs me by my lower waist and stops.

"Good luck baby." Jin whispers and I hit him in the stomach with my bowling ball. Jin groans and goes to sit down, and Jessica, unaware, takes a seat on his lap.

I roll my eyes and roll the ball earning my first strike. I scream in happiness .

"Did you see that!" I say to Namjoon and point to the pins that lay. Namjoon nods. He runs over, picking me up and spinning me around. We both laugh uncontrollably and he puts me down.

I look into his eyes for a moment. He reaches his hand up and pushes a misplaced hair from my face. I blush and hide my face.

Jungkook goes next, pushing passed us and gets ready. Me and Namjoon take a seat together and watch.

I hear a familiar voice call out to Namjoon that makes me internally want to die.

"Namjoon!" Rachel calls out and I groan.

"Be nice." Namjoon elbows me and goes to Rachel. It's not the fact that I hate Rachel. Yes she's dating my best friend and crush, she's extremely beautiful and her life is perfect.. But it's the fact Namjoon loves her and not me.

Namjoon kisses Rachel innocently and I sigh. That should be me. I should be kissing Namjoon, not her. I should be the one to have late night cuddling, awkward hand holding, and cheesy movie dates. But I'm not, Rachel is.

Namjoon sits away from me and Rachel, in her cute floral dress that pools around her teasing thighs, walks to sit closely to Namjoon. Namjoon immediately laces his fingers with hers. The both giggle at each other and whisper while I sit there awkwardly like a third wheel watching Jungkook fuss over Jin calling him a kid.

I smile a little. Jungkook is really sweet and innocent kid. His smile is the special feature he has about him, besides his abstract personality. If only Jungkook was older... But the world is depressing sometimes. People that you love, is impossible to love.

Jungkook stomps and rolls the ball. Strike. We won.

Jin and his friend shake it off to keep their 'I could care less' looks even though I know inside, Jin's ego of himself is slowly degrading.

Jin takes his girlfriends hand and walks off with his dogs following after him. I jump up and about to celebrate with Namjoon, but look over to see him making out with Rachel. My heart begins to create a painful breaking of shattering glass.

Jungkook leaps onto me in excitement, catching me off-guard.

"We won!" he cheers and I hug him back. I hug on like my life depended on it, tears developing in my eyes. It hurts so much.

"Noona, are you okay?" I nod my head and shake off my emotions for the sake that Namjoon is next to us and we are in public.

"Yeah, I'm happy we won." I force a smile and let Jungkook go. "I'm happy." I lied.

Jungkook smiled back to me. He brought it. I laugh and excuse myself to the restroom.

I fast walk to the bathroom and slam myself into a stall before tears begin to fall.

Why does love hurt so much?

Why does loving Namjoon hurt so much?

I silently sob, sitting on the toilet. I bit my hand to muffle the sounds and cry, hoping the pain in my heart will soon dissolve.

I can't love Namjoon. Loving him is impossible. He isn't meant for me, he's better than even being my friend.

I let my tears dry and clean my face in the sink. I walk out and only see Rachel and Namjoon remaining, sitting together, having a good time.

He has no idea, no idea that I am in so much pain for him. I want to leave, I want to disappear and become blended in the wallpaper.

Namjoon eyes me and I start to walk towards them, taking a seat across from them. I look around and look for Jungkook to come save me.

"Jungkook had to leave. His parents came to pick him up." Namjoon says. Great, that makes me feel like I want to die in a hole even more.

"Oh." I sigh. "It's getting late, I might go home then." I stand up and grab my stuff.

"Sungmin wait." Namjoon says and I turn around, anticipating Namjoon to tell me something promising.

"Were going to the movies, want to come?" my smile drops and so does my hope I shake my head.

"I can't, I just remember I have this huge test to study for." I walk away without saying goodbye.