Chapter 4 All of the Stars
It's just another night and I'm staring at the moon
I saw a shooting star and thought of you
I sang a lullaby by the waterside and knew
If you were here, I'd sing to you
[I heard your voice for the first time that night...]
Wednesday
My gaze shifted from Eren to Mikasa then from Mikasa to Eren.
"W-what?" I breathed out.
"We are counting on you, Lucy." Eren said smiling stiffly knowing that I did not like what I just heard.
"There should be no problem Lucy, you'll just do it for that night." Mikasa said with a straight face.
"NO. I REJECT THAT RIDICULOUS IDEA OF YOURS. I WILL NOT FUCKING SING FOR THE WHOLE OF THE SPECIAL OPS." I growled at both of them and started for the door.
"Lucy, this is an order. From Commander Erwin." Mikasa grabbed my hand, stopping me from walking away. "I really am sorry for letting the fact that you can sing, slip from my mouth. But, I can't do anything about it anymore. They are already insisting to make you sing for the Ops' celebration this saturday." Mikasa looked at me pleadingly.
The fucking Mikasa Ackerman pleaded. OH MY FREAKS.
"Mi-Mikasa. Y-you, I-I, y-you, ugh fine!" I am so going to regret this later.
"Really? That's great Lucy!" Eren hugged me tightly and
I.CAN'T.BREATHE.
"E-er-"
"Jaeger." Eren and I both froze knowing who that voice belong to. Eren pushed me slightly away from him.
We both saluted and gulped at the same time.
"Corporal." Me and Eren said in unison while Mikasa just saluted.
"What were you brats doing? Didn't I gave you chores to do?" He said sternly glaring at me and Eren, but mostly Eren.
Yep, I definitely saw that glare only for Eren.
"If you understand what the hell are you still doing here doing nothing!" Eren and Mikasa scampered off and I remained, after all my chore is cleaning the kitchen. Where we currently are.
"Uh, well then Corporal, I'll be-"
"I told you to call me Levi." Stop cutting me off, damn it. He turned his back to me. "And I look forward to saturday." With that he left me with a bewildered expression.
Saturday?
What's on saturday?
I gasped. "Saturday?! He-he looks forward to it?! Why?!!!!"
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Thursday
You're on the other side
As the skyline splits in two
Miles away from seeing you
But I can see the stars from America
I wonder, do you see them too?
I gripped my red locks and hit my head against the wall. I can't do it after all.
I don't care if Commander Erwin give me sanction for not performing! I will not do it! I will not do it!
It'll be alright they say. I'll just have to perform and sing my heart out they say. To all the people of the Military Brigade!
Like I can do that! I thought it'll just be the Survey Corps! Not everyone who belongs to the Military!
Ugh! I knew it! I should have never agreed to it in the first place! Now I'm regretting everything!
I walked briskly down the hallway not minding my surroundings. I don't even care anymore if I bump-
"Oof!" I landed on my butt and it stings!!!
It hurts!!!
"Brat look where you're going." I looked up only to see Levi there extending his hand to me.
"L-levi." I took it hesitantly and he pulled me. "Sorry, I wasn't paying attention."
"You never really pay attention." I looked at him and frowned. What does he mean? I do pay attention!
"Anyway, I looked forward to Saturday." He smiled then walked away after that.
I don't know why, but I think my face is heating up.
After all the Corporal smiled at me.
Though I think that could also pass up as a smirk?
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So open your eyes and see
The way our horizons meet
And all of the lights will lead
Into the night with me
And I know these scars will bleed
But both of our hearts believe
All of these stars will guide us through.
[I hope you can hear it, my voice that is trying to reach out to you.]
"Its beautiful." I turned to see Commander Erwin standing at the doorway with a smile on his face. "I'm glad you agreed to this."
"I don't really have a choice." Cause the Corporal seem to really look forward to it. That somehow inspires me to-
What. Am. I. Thinking?!
"Really?" I looked at the Commander and frowned. He looks amused about something.
"Uh, yes?" I said. "Sir." And quickly added that. He is the Commander, Lucy, at least be respectful.
"Alright. Well, then I look forward to it. And I think I also know someone else who is the same as me." He smiled and left me utterly confused.
Someone else?
[I hope I can hear more of your voice, your voice that brings peace in my mind.]
Friday
"Lucy! How's your day?" Hanji asked me as she she jogged to my side. I'm currently trying to get to the Mess hall, without collapsing.
Today I managed to piss off Levi again. And he made me run 40 laps around the whole base. I actually thought I will loose it at my 25th lap.
"Just. great." I breathed out. Flinching at every step I'm taking.
And here I thought Levi and I are in a good terms already. And just when I realize my little crush on shorty, he just have to make me do that.
Not that I didn't deserve it somehow. After all, because of my clumsiness and idiocy I managed to make the whole kitchen area be powdered with flour and sugar.
I would have been happy if he just make me clean it instead of making me run.
"Let me guess. Shorty?" Hanji put her arms around my shoulder and asked.
I grunt in response. We arrived at the mess hall and immediately fall in line. How long is this line? I am so hungry.
"Lucyyyyyy!" I looked around finding the source of the annoying voice calling my name.
"Over here, Lucyyyyy!" Its Sasha, I squinted my eyes and glared at her to tell her I'm not in the mood, and she immediately shut up.
I made my way over the table where she is and sat down.
"How's practice?! Heard you have a beautiful voice Lucy! Whew, I didn't have any idea!" Sasha won't stop talking and its irritating me.
So I did what I think will let me have my peace while eating. I gave her my bread, and she immediately shut up.
The door suddenly opens revealing Corporal Levi in his signature frown. Everyone quiet down and looked at him.
He scanned the mess hall and everyone gulped afraid that he might see something wrong with how they are eating.
Then his gaze fell on me. My eyes widen at the thought that I did something wrong again.
What is it this time?!
I mentally pray to anyone that I did not do anything wrong.
Then my breathing stopped.
Levi just smirked at me after all.
I can hear your heart on the radio beat
They're playing "Chasing Cars" and I thought of us
Back to the time you were lying next to me
I looked across and fell in love
Looking out at the night sky, I realised that singing in front of everyone might not be so bad.
I just hope that I do not mess up tomorrow. Or I will never be able to live through the fact that I did something so embarrassing in my life.
"Brat, what are you still doing out here?" Holy shit.
"Corp- I mean Levi! I-I was just practising." I did not bother to look at him, too scared that my face is probably too flushed.
"Tch, hurry up and get to sleep." I heard footsteps away from me and I turned around.
His retreating form makes me smile. Why is that?
And I can just imagine him saying: " I look forward to tomorrow," again.
I did not get to sleep because of that.
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I can't do it after all.
"Lucy, where are you going? You're next."
"I can't do it Armin!" I said frantically, gripping my hair in frustration.
"You have to do it!" Beside Armin, Krista shouted gently. She's too cute to shout like Eren or Jean after all.
"B-but, did you see it?! T-too many people. Of them, there, waiting." I do not even know what I'm trying to say as well.
"Lucyyyy! Its your turn!" Hanji exclaimed making me froze.
No! I can't!
Noticing that I am not making a move, Armin, Krista and Hanji all pushed me to the stage.
I gasped. I probably looked so awkward right now.
I looked back at the three people who pushed me and glared at them. They all just mouthed "You'll do great!" then made a thumbs up.
Okay, Lucy its now or never. I breathe in deeply and closed my eyes.
When I opened it I found Levi staring at me with a warm smile. My breath hitched, his grey eyes are staring at my green ones with too much emotions.
[I hope with my song, the feelings that are blooming in my heart will be told. ]
I looked back to the days wherein I was just a kid. A kid that do not know anything but dream and smile.
I looked back to the day when everything I cherish, was taken away from me, I was still a kid, not aware of anything and yet I mourned.
I looked back to the day I decided to join the military, and met all of my friends. They too, lost someone, they too, are away from those who they love. We all are sacrificing our lives to protect those we want to stay.
I looked back to the time where we first experienced fighting the Titans. I trembled with my friends and shouted with them to have the courage to fight on.
I remembered looking at my friends corpses. Back then, I mourned again.
This song is for those we lost, fir those we protect, for those we wish to see again, for those we wish to be with again.
This will be our song for them, a song that will tell them that no matter where we are, where they are, we are with them.
And we love them. And we hope that one day, we will all be together again, in a world where those we fear the most will be forgotten.
So I took your hand
Back through lamp-lit streets and knew
Everything led back to you
So can you see the stars over Amsterdam?
Hear the song my heart is beating to
So open your eyes and see
The way our horizons meet
And all of the lights will lead
Into the night with me
And I know these scars will bleed
But both of our hearts believe
All of these stars will guide us home
And oh
And oh
And oh whoa
I can see the stars from America
[I can hear you. So please, sing more of your love to me.]
I looked at all the people there. Some are crying, some are smiling and some are just staring at me.
Like they see their selves in me.
I felt water dripping down my face. So I wiped it out. And smiled brightly at everyone.
"Thank you." I whispered to them, and left without looking at him.
[You do not have to sing back to me, the look in your eyes are enough to tell me, that I've finally reached you. My heart finally reach you.]
"Hey."
I looked up to see Levi standing behind me. He was wearing a frown as always.
"Hey." I nod at him then smiled. "Did I, wa- ugh, how did I do?" I asked.
He just looked back at me then smiled, the small frown leaving his face. "You did great."
He took a step towards me and stopped when he is two or three feet away. He reached out to my face an caressed it lighltly. " It reached me."
I blushed at his words. My heart beats too fast, and I swore I would die just by looking at him.
"I look forward to it." He put his hand down then took a step back to walk around me. "To your singing every night. But it should only be me, who will hear it."
Then he left me. He, freaking left me!
But it should only be me, who will hear it.
I gasped. I gripped my chest, I think my heart wants to jump out of it.
"I look forward to that too." I whispered. Then smiled like an idiot.
It might not be so bad, to sing only for Levi. Right?
And I know these scars will bleed
But both of our hearts believe
All of these stars will guide us home
-The End-
Holy!!! I finally finished this! I suffered from multiple attacks of WRITER'S BLOCK ON THIS ONE, so I really am happy that I finished it.
Hahaha, though its kind of an open ending, I hope it will satisfy you.
Anyway, comments?! I would love to hear some, it might help me improve!
Thanks!~
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