I just felt like crying so 🫶

Warnings:

Child death (?)

Mother losing her child 

Mother blaming herself

Mention of a cruel death 

Mention of child murder

Please leave if that's to much 🙏

A mother/father/parent losing their child is one of the worst experiences you could ever have.

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My little starlight.

You were supposed to walk on earth longer than me but now I am standing here alone.

I would've never thought this would happen.

My little child..

How could someone be so cruel.

I was expecting at least 12 more years with you before you would leave but now...

I am standing at your grave, crying.

You were only 6.

Why should you already face the consequences of our world.

No child deserves that.

I always felt bad for people that lost their child but now, it feels like a whole roller coaster of emotions.

But it are completely different ones then when I found out I was pregnant.

I used to be happy until 23 hours and 29 minutes ago.

I stood in front of the emergency room when your heart stopped beating.

You were just a kid when some stranger decided he wanted to kill someone...

Why, why couldn't I protect you?

You brought light back into my world and now everything is dark again.

I feel like the moon who only reflects the light she/he(idk in some cultures the moon is female in others male) gets from the sun.

When the sun stops shining the moon does as well.

Remember the times we danced together to music in the kitchen?

Or every other moment we spend together?

These 6 years were the happiest ones in my life even though I now need to say goodbye to you my dear...

(I've build two graves for us my dear!!! It's been playing in my mind since the start)

*name* my dear I wished you'd never disappear.

But now I am here all on my own again.

My little starlight stopped shining like it used to.

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Ps FairyYuunemi ✨🫧

(I just felt sad, again)