Chan POV

I wake up from my wonderful sleep and I go to the bathroom to take a shower and brush my teeth.

I head to the closet and I grab a shirt and throw it on. I go to the dresser and throw on a pair of sweatpants not even caring about underwear and I look over at the bed to see felix curled up in a ball with the fluffy blanket covering him.

I sneak back into bed and he automatically huddles closer to me for more warmth.

"Daddy...cuddle..." Felix mumbled and I pull felix into my lap and hug him.

Felix wraps himself around me and I kiss his cheek before leaning against the headboard. I grab my phone to see the time and it was a little past 6am.

"Daddy..."

"Yes baby?"

"I love you..."

"I love you more." Felix smiled and I kissed his forehead.

"Can I wear my new clothes daddy?" I wanna say no because that's only for me to see but as long as he doesn't wear anything too sexy then I guess.

"Only if you let me pick out the outfit." He nodded smiling brightly and I stood up from the bed still holding on to him.

I get to the box of various clothes and I sit in the floor with Felix in my lap.

I open the box to see all the clothes he didn't show me yet and I grabbed a blue sweater and a blue skirt. I was debating whether I should get panties or not but just just decide to because no one else could see them... hopefully.

"Here you go baby." I hand him the outfit and he giggles putting the sweater on first.

He put on the panties and then the skirt. I could still see his thighs which I wouldn't mind if it was just us but there are a bunch of other guys here and I don't want them drooling over my boyfriend. Yes I know they already have lovers but they could still go after my baby,

"You look so cute baby!" I compliment him and he blushes.

Felix crawls into my lap and kisses me while playing with my hair.

"Your hair dries fast. It's so fluffy!" I chuckle because of how adorable he is and I run my hand over his thigh.

"Thank you baby. Now, let's go get some food and you need to take your medicine." I boop his nose and I stand up still with him in my arms.

I walk in the kitchen and I place felix on the counter. He swings his legs back and forth waiting for me to finish but every time he did the skirt would go up a little more so I placed my hands on his thighs once again and pulled his skirt down a little so nothing shows.

"Baby if you keep doing that then we'll have to put on something else because I don't want anyone seeing what's mine." I let out a noise close to a growl and Felix's breath hitches.

"You're hot as fuck." Felix scans my face and reaches his hand underneath my shirt to play with his abs.

"You're sexy so we're even." I say in a low tone and he shivers while biting his lip.

Felix gets off the counter and I wrap my arm around his waist. He wraps his arms around my neck, he runs his fingers through my hair and kisses my collar bone.

"Channie, the foods about to burn babe." I turn my head to see the food was about to over cook so I rush to the food and put some of it on a plate then hand it to felix, I do the same for myself and we go to the table and sit down.

"Damn felix, you look good with your new clothes!" Jisung said and I sigh knowing everyone was gonna try and hog my boyfriend.

"Thanks ji! Channie let me buy them at the hospital." Felix blushed lightly and I wrap my arm over his shoulder.

"I like the look lix. You look cute." Changbin said and felix thanked him.

Eventually everyone had complimented him and his outfit and me and felix had finished our food while the others were still eating.

"What time is it?" Jeongin asked and I looked at my phone.

"8:05. Why?" Before he could answer me, jeongin ran to his room.

"What was that about?" Felix asked and everyone else shrugged just as confused.

"Baby, lets go back to our room. I want to show you something." Felix nodded excitedly and we both stood up to leave.

We get to our room and I placed felix over my shoulder making him gasp and then hit my back.

"Let me down chan! You can't just do that!" Felix said loudly but I didn't listen and I just kept walking to the bathroom with a whining felix on my shoulder.

Once I got to the bathroom, I locked the door and put felix back on his feet.

"Stop whining. We're taking a shower because I want to talk to you about something and I want you to be relaxed. Is that alright with you?" I say seriously and he hesitantly nods.

We get undressed and get in the shower. I run my hand over his back and I reach below his ass to his thigh.

His breath hitches when I touch a certain point on his thigh and he tried to squirm away. It was in a place where no one could see it unless you really looked because they were small but very deep.

"I noticed it the first time we had sex but I didn't say anything because I figured it was older. Last night I saw it again but it was new." He started crying and his salty tears blended in with the water coming from the shower.

"Why are you cutting yourself felix?" I start crying with him and I pulled him closer to me.

"I'm so sorry! I can't help it! I tried to stop but every time I'm not with you I get anxious and I can't handle it." He sobbed with his face buried in my chest and I hold his body closer to me.

"I'm always around you though. When do you have time to do this and what do you use? I didn't think I could imagine you cutting yourself but here I am doing just that." He let out a choked sob and he kissed me.

"I do it when you go to sleep... I wake up in the middle of the night to go in the bathroom to cut with a small razor I found." He looks away from me but I put my hand on his face and gently force him to look at me.

"Felix...if I find out you're doing this behind my back again...I will punish you. It won't be in anyway sexual but I don't want to hurt you more so it'll probably just make you sad." I say thinking of a punishment and one come into my head.

"What's the punishment...?" Felix looked at me with such big, sad eyes.

"I won't sleep in the same room as you for a week. I'll have one of the others to sleep beside you until you learn not to hurt yourself. I know it could be an addiction but it's gonna stop now. I won't stand around and let you get away with harming yourself. I love you too much for that." He starts crying more and he hugged me so tight that I could hardly breath.

"No please! I can't sleep without you daddy! I won't hurt myself anymore I promise." Felix was shaking in my arms and I kiss his shoulder.

"I'll be checking your body everyday to make sure you aren't hurting yourself. If you have a problem then talk about it with me, don't cut. If you're sad then tell me. If you're upset and you want to be left alone then tell me. Tell me everything and I'll do the same. I don't want you to be in pain while I'm living my best life." I gently grab his hair and lift his head so I can kiss him.

I rub his sides and he runs his hands through my hair and on my abs.

"Let's get cleaned up"