Jaden went to Harry's place again the next day. He acted as if nothing happened the day before. Harry decided to give in. BUT, once tasted pleasure is hard to resist. Jaden looked at Harry writing down the answers of a worksheet.

"By the way, Harry," Jaden smiled.
"Yeah?"
"I thought I should try touching myself too,"
Harry looked at him as he coughed and choked on air.

"W—What?"
"Yeah, it's normal for teen boys,"
"It—It is, but why do you want to do it so suddenly?"
"Why? Maybe because you inspired me,"
"...Dang, I feel guilty,"

"But you see, I don't know how to do that since I've never done it,"
"Oh, I can send you a video, don't worry,"
"Or...You can demonstrate it, right now,"
Harry stopped smiling, "Erm, excuse me?"

"I've taught you, right? Now, it's time for my class and you'll be the teacher," Jaden moved towards and Harry moved away. His face turned red, "I—I have watched porn with Brandon but I've never actually...Masturbated in front of him,"
"Well, let's say you and I are much closer," Jaden said.
"I—" He looked deep into Harry's blue eyes, "I don't know?"

Harry dragged his hips on the floor as he pulled back from Jaden, while the latter crawled closer to him, "Jaden, did you snort some flour?"
"No?" Jaden laughed, "Why would I do that?"
"Because you seem high,"
"Does that mean you have a crush on me? Because you seem flustered,"

"N—No,"
"Didn't you have a crush on Jerome? Then, why is another guy making you go like this?"
"Go like what?"
Jaden looked down and Harry covered his crotch, "I'M JUST HEALTHY! IGNORE IT!"
"Sure, if you wanna repeat what happened yesterday."

Harry grinded his teeth,
Jaden moved away from him, "I shouldn't tease you so much. You should relieve"
"Oh my God, thank you! Jaden, you're an angel after all,"
"It's alright," Jaden smiled.

Harry got up but Jaden grabbed his hand, "Where are you going?"
"To the bathroom?"
"Why? Do it here,"
"W—WHAT THE—STOP MESSING AROUND!"

Jaden laughed as he left his hand. Harry ran away.
Jaden was enjoying this way more than he usually did with her ex-girlfriends.
"I might develop something weird towards this," Jaden said to himself.
Might? I guess you mean you have already developed something weird.

He would play around with Harry more often, bring him till the edge and then just let the strings loose to him. Which made him confused and embarrassed and Jaden just enjoyed his reactions. Harry noticed Jaden was still an angel to everyone but him.

"Who is that hot guy that always hangs out with Harry?"
"Harrison always get them bois before us,"
"He is lucky,"
"No, he is a wizard,"

"Kate!" Jaden took a bundle of papers from Kate's hands, "These might be heavy, right?"
"Yeah, thanks for the help, Jaden," Kate and Jaden walked towards the teacher's office. They met Harry come out of the teacher's office with a huge bundle of notebooks. 
"OH GOD, HARRY!" Kate said.
"Oh hi, Kate! Help me, please,"
"Sure—"

"Mr Kate!" Mrs Fig approached him, "You didn't do the fifth question of your second assignment on "The Heart""
"Yeah, my sister ate it," Given that she is a bitch, it doesn't seem impossible to me.
"Come with me!"
"Sorry," Kate went away.

Harry looked at Jaden, "Please help me, these are fucking heavy!"
Jaden crossed his arms, "Beg me more nicely," He smiled.
"...Please?"
"No," 
"FUCK YOU!"

Jaden walked beside him but didn't help him.
"Why are you following me?"

"I'll be there for you when you need me," Jaden smiled.
"Just to watch me suffer?"
"Yeah,"
"Do you like watching me suffer?" Harry asked.

"Hmm, I guess?" 
"FUCK YOU!"

Brandon saw Harry and Jaden walk together in the halls. They seemed awfully close. Brandon wasn't talking a lot to Harry these days, so he decided to plan a bro night on Saturday and invited Harry over. 
"Wanna hang out? This Saturday, just you and me like before," Brandon said as they sat at the terrace.
"You'll invite Kate over again,"
"It's only a bro night!"

"Then, what is Kate,"
"Wifey!"
"Alright alright, I'll be there,"
"My place, seven in the evenin'. I'll be waiting,"

"Sure," Harry looked at the sky, "Brandon,"
"Yeah?"
"Actually, I told you I'm gay, right?"
"Yeah,"
"Actually, Brandon I...Like Jaden..."

Brandon looked at Harry and Harry looked back at him, "And I want to confess to him but I don't want to lose what I have. Our relationship is so fragile. We are not even friends, we are just...coincidental acquaintances, which makes my love for him impulsive, I guess? But, I don't care. I just want to scream to the world that I'm in love," Harry laughed, "I wanna shout it out,"
Brandon smiled, "Go for it!"
"Thanks!"
"But hey, no compensations to our bro night,"
"Of course,"

Harry tried to confess but he couldn't find the right moment. Finally, it was Saturday. The entire week had passed and he couldn't do shit! That day, it rained. Harry had come to the school to help his brother with his club work. By the time he left, it was six in the evening already. It started raining. Harry stood at the bus stand since his brother had left early and he didn't have a car. Jaden walked towards him with an umbrella in his hand.

"Oh, Harry,"
Harry blushed, "Hi Jaden,"
"What are you doing here?" He stood beside him.
"Just waiting for the rain to stop. You?"
"I am returning from my practice. The matches are coming up soon. Summer is returning afterall,"

"Oh yeah,"
"I can drop you home,"
"Nah, that would just make both of us wet. It's okay, I'll wait,"
"Alright then," Jaden closed his umbrella and stood beside Harry, "Let's wait together,"

Harry smiled and looked ahead. He knew that this was his chance. His hands were shivering and his heart was beating like  a mini drum. The rain was loud, too loud. Like he couldn't hear anything except water. He clenched his fist just so that his fingers stopped shivering so much. He took a deep breath, "Jaden,"
"Yeah?"

His voice.
Jaden turned and looked at Harry.
His eyes.
He smiled, "What is it, Harrry?"
His lips.
"I—"
His heart.
'I want his heart.'

"I love you, Jaden," Harry looked into his eyes, "What about you?"
He was confident Jaden liked him too.
I mean, why else would he flirt only with him? Jaden's smile faded away.
He looked distressed. Harry's confidence wavered.
"Thank you, Harry,"
Oh no.
"I'm sorry, but I,"
Please don't say it.

"Only like you as a friend..."
Why Jaden?
Then why did you give signals of interest when you weren't interested?
Why be so cruel?

"Ah, it's okay," Harry laughed, "I never expected you to love me, I didn't see any reason you should."

"Harry..."
"I never thought myself very lovable, I am more the "second lead in manga" type of person. I mean, I can love anyone but the problem is, I am the second lead which means my love will never come back to me. It doesn't matter how deeply I love the main character. But I was thankful, very thankful to be allowed to love you and I was enraptured when every now and then I felt like I had pleased you or maybe we could be more than friends. I tried not to bore you with my love."
"Harry...Don't say that..." Jaden said.

Harry shook his head.
"We at it again, bois. Guess I'm "just a friend" again. It's funny how I have lost the count now. No, it isn't funny, it's actually pathetic,"

Jaden didn't know what to say. Harry smiled as he looked ahead. "It's awkward now so, erm, bye!" Harry ran away in the rain and Jaden didn't stop him. Harry texted Brandon, "I'm sorry but I won't be able to make it,"

"But why?"
"I'm not feeling well,"
Brandon called and Harry picked up.
"What happened? Are you sick?"
"I'm rejected again."
Brandon didn't say anything. But inside he be like, 'Where's my chainsaw? It needs some Jaden meat,'

Harry wiped his tears,
"You know the worst feeling about all this is knowing from the start that it's never gonna happen. That you're not good enough, knowing that he's way out of your league. Feeling so conscious about your appearance, the way you look, what you do and yet you try anyway. You don't give up and maybe you just talk to him as friends. You start having dreams and imaginations of him liking you back even when you know he will never. But the absolute WORSE...Is when they tell you that they like you only as a friend. And your heart somehow isn't ready to listen."

"Harrison..."
"It's not suppose hurt so much, is it? Why does it feels like I'm chocking as I breathe, Brandon? I didn't wanted it to go this way," Harry cried loudly.
"Where are you right now?"
"Near the park,"
"Alright," Brandon wore his sweater and took an umbrella, "I'll be right there—"

"No, don't come."
"But why?"
"Please, leave me alone for a while. Just an hour, please?"
"...Okay."
Harry snorted.

"Harrison,"
"Yeah?"
"I love you, bro... No homo."
Harry laughed, "I love you too, Brandon. No homo,"

Harry hung up and decided to sit in the park alone at night, under the rain, beneath the fogged up streetlight.

"Do you like watching me suffer?"
"Hmm, I guess?" 

"You didn't lie..."

"I'll be there for you when you need me,"

"Nevermind, I guess you did. Cuz I need you right now...
And you aren't here, Jaden,"

Harry felt an umbrella over his head as he sat on the bench in the park. He gasped, "Jaden—"
"Oh!" It was a brunette girl. Harry felt like he had seen her before,
"You are that boy from the beach!" She said.
"What?"

Jaden went back home and took a bath. He sat before his drum set and began playing,
"I love you, Jaden,"
"I guess, we can't go back to what we were now, can we?" He was playing the drums, sweat dripping from his long, red hair and his hazel eyes focused on the floor. Finally, he threw the drumsticks away in anguish.

"Done?"
He looked up.
MJ sat at the balcony. He wore his parkour shoes and loose jeans.
"What are you doing here?" He asked.

"Just vibin'" MJ said.
"What?"
"I'll be gone to England for further studies this June. So, maybe these are the last few months we have together. I thought we could all just vibe together,"
"Why are you so bothered?"
"I am only happy when people around me are happy," MJ smiled.

"Such kind of people are usually left alone and sad,"
"But I'm nOt lIkE oTheR giRlS" MJ said.
"...Cause you are a boy?"
Jaden HATED British accent ever since he met Ralf.

"What have you thought about Harry?" MJ asked.
"What about him?"
"He likes you,"
"Yeah, I know,"
"Then, what's the problem? Harry is a good person. You seemed to like him,"

"I do...But not the way he likes me,"
"You sure you won't be regretting this?"
Jaden didn't say anything.

"Falling asleep heartbroken or hurt is easily one of the most sad things. You're sitting in your bed alone. Thinking everything you could have done, but you didn't and you can't do anything about it but cry. Then, you're just sitting there in your bed without anyone to talk to, thinking all these terrible thoughts, wanting that one person to cheer you up, not there. I'm not talk physically there but emotionally, not there with you to help you get rid of this feeling you have in your stomach like they usually do because they are the reason why it's there time,"

"MJ..."

"Do you ever get this feeling when you're sitting in your room alone...
Your thoughts wander; you're not crying
But you're sad and empty as you replay all the moments of your life and think...
Where did it go wrong?"

"...Not really,"
"And I hope you keep it that way," MJ walked towards the balcony, "So Joe, make sure to be a happy Joe, not a sad MJ, okay? If you succeed, I'll gift you the best gift of your life."
"...It's—It's Jaden,"

Bruh, that's not the point.
Focus on the emotions!

-To be continued 

Harrison Louverne
All I Want is you baby