Dear Ivan,
I hope you are fine and happy. Hope the weather is a bit better. It's better here in London. I am so sorry. Ivan. I couldn't write a letter for the new year.
I know Sam wrote to you about my illness.  Ivan, I wanted to tell you about it myself.  I don't know why she did it. I asked her not to do it. I don't blame her for anything.  I know she just wanted to do what was right.
I have something to tell you. Ivan, I am going back to my homeland back to Germany. Do you remember asking me about my accent?
I met with Mr. Patrick last yesterday. He told me that my family had been finding me since they lost me here in London. They had been searching for me ever since that day. I was three years old then. My mother died two years after that incident. My father died last year and so my grandmother is all who is left of my family. She is the head of the Strauffer family as well as the Strauffer enterprises as there is no one else there to take over.
I have to return back to her as she is sick and needs me there. Mr. Patrick told me that he found me a year ago but they didn't inform me. They have been following me for quite a long time.
I am leaving for Germany in a month. I don't have a reason to stay here anymore.  Ivan, I am leaving London and this house forever. I am leaving you. You cannot imagine my pain right now. I have to leave you,  this house,  this family and all the people. Its what I had all these years. I had this beautiful family. Even though none of us is related to anyone but still we are a family. We have always been together.
I owe a lot to this family. My happiness and smiles, all these years. Everyone has been so nice to me. Everyone considered me as their little sibling. I do not want to be a burden on anyone. Not even your heart and soul.
Please forgive me for running your life. Leaving anyone whom you love with all your heart is extremely difficult. If you love me, believe me, Sam will be the perfect match for you.  You know I don't have much longer to live. But I want you to marry Sam before I die. I am serious about this. This pain will be temporary. I know it is going to hurt you a lot. It will break your heart. But you will have a loving wife and a nice family.
I want you to come to London even for a couple of days as soon as possible.  Forgive me for ruining our love. Take care.
Waiting to meet you.
                                                                                                                       Yours
                                                                                                                       Alex