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As Mark entered the apartment he was concerned to see Donghyuck's shoes in the hallway, but all the lights off. Donghyuck always had one of the lights on when he was in the apartment alone.

As Mark ventured further into the apartment, he called out Donghyuck's name, "DOnghyuck? I'm home, love!"

Where is Donghyuck?

Mark turned towards their shared bedroom only to find the door locked. "Donghyuck? Haechan-ie? Why is the door locked? Can you let me in?"

Hearing no answer, Mark began to get worried, "Love, please, if you don't let me in I'm going to let myself in."

Soon enough Donghyuck heard the jingling of keys and the soft creak of the door as Mark let himself in. He knew Mark couldn't see him, but he knew that Mark knew something was up.

"Donghyuck?"

Mark gently lifted the blanket off Donghyuck's face and frowned when he saw how red and puffy his face was. That meant he had been crying. Mark hated it when Donghyuck cried.

"Oh, love, what happened?"

Donghyuck just shook his head and buried his face in the pillow again.

Mark didn't hesitate to sit up against the headboard and move Donghyuck so that he was sitting between Mark's legs, his head lying on Mark's chest.

"Donghyuckie, baby, what happened?"

"It's stupid..."

"It's obviously not stupid if it made you so upset. Love, please, you can always talk to me, I will, never, ever think anything that made you this upset is stupid. Just let me help you."

"It's stupid, Mark, please..."

"I already told you, Donghyuck. It. Is. Not. Stupid. Got it? Please, Haechan, let hyung help you."

Mark rarely pulled the hyung card unless Donghyuck needed to be reassured that he was safe and loved by him. Now was just one of those unfortunate times.

"I-It's just that...I feel like I'm not good enough, y'know? Nothing that I'm feeling makes sense. It's all contradicting each other. I feel numb but I can feel sadness and anger perfectly clearly. They keep bouncing around in my head. It's too much I just want it to stop hyung, please."

As soon as Donghyuck had sobbed out a broken, "Hyung, please" Mark's heart broke more than it already had. He knew that Donghyuck never calls him hyung unless he was desperate or in pain, and now he knew it was getting to be way way way too much for Donghyuck.

The dam broke all at once. Donghyuck was sobbing and close to screaming into Mark's chest as he pleaded for him to just make it all stop. "Hyung, make it stop, make it stop. I badly want to just give up and leave everything behind but at the same time I don't and I'm terrified to. It's the same with asking for help. I shouldn't even be freaking out like this anyway, I'm an adult for fuck's sake. I'm poison, and I always fuck things up and hurt the people I care about. I don't know what to do or what to feel, and I can't handle it."..."

"Shh, baby, Hyung is here, Hyung is here for you, baby, Hyung is right here for you..."

Mark cradled Donghyuck's head against his chest and rubbed his back with the other hand, whispering comforts that only Donghyuck could hear. He kissed the top of Donghyuck's head countless times and after each, he whispered, "Hyung is here", or "Hyung loves you".

Donghyuck could no longer speak through his sobs and just lay in Mark's arms sobbing into his chest. Mark was completely heartbroken. He absolutely hated it when Donghyuck cried, no matter the reason, and now all that Donghyuck could do was cry, and every sob killed Mark a little more on the inside.

"Donghyuck, love, baby, hey. Shh. It's okay, Haechan. You're only human, you can't do everything, and we will never blame you for that. Even though I don't know why exactly you're crying, but know that I love you for your faults and I would never ask perfection of you. Please don't blame yourself for things you have no control over. Okay? Donghyuck, Hyung loves you so, so, so, so much you have no idea. You are not, and never will be worthless."

Eventually, Donghyuck's sobbing died down to soft whimpering and sniffles. Mark was running his hand through Donghyuck's soft locks and rubbing his back slowly with the other.

"Donghyuck, I think it's time for us to go to bed, yeah?"

Donghyuck whispered an, "Okay, Hyung" at that.

Mark helped Donghyuck lay down on his bed with him, and reached to pull the covers over both of them. He wrapped Donghyuck in his arms and Donghyuck put his head in the crook of Mark's neck while whimpering softly as a couple of tears slid down his face.

Mark gently wiped them away with his thumbs and whispered, "Shh, Hyung's got you, it's gonna be okay", and a light kiss to Donghyuck's forehead.

"Hyung?"

"Yes, sweetheart?"

"I'm sorry for this. I really didn't mean to be such a burden on you."

"Oh sweetheart, you are never a burden to me."

"But, Hyung-"

"But Hyung nothing. You are not a burden to me. Now let's go to sleep, yeah?"

"Okay, Hyung. I love you."

The last thing Donghyuck felt was a featherlight kiss on his head, and a soft "I love you, too.", before he fell into the abyss of sleep.

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Wednesday, January 22, 2020

Okay sooo, I've been tagged...by @friesare_better34

And I'm going to do it, kinda

Basically I'm gonna skip some of the steps like nominating 23 people and writing down the rules cause I'm lazy.

Tell us 10 things about yourself:

1. I'm the 3rd child out of 4 and am going to be the youngest to graduate out of my siblings

2. I played the piano for 8 years, but recently stopped as school got more time consuming

3. My High School is putting on the Little Mermaid Jr. Musical this year and I'm playing Ursula

4. I'm going to study Computer Engineering in college

5. I can speak four languages: Spanish, English, Latvian, and Estonian

6. I've been to Australia, so after seeing the country and hearing about the fires it hits a little different

7. I've been listening to the same piece of Classical Choir music for 3 hours nowbecuaseI have to know it by tomorrow morning (Rytmus by Ivan Hrusovsky)

8. I'm obsessed with these two youtube channels: TwoSetViolin and CreamHeroes

9. I have never lived in the States although I visit every summer. I currently live in Spain

10. I honestly prefer 1950's and 1960's music over today's modern music

Make a Title:

"Once Upon a Time" (very unoriginal)

Tell a Joke:

What is the least spoken language in the work?

Heh, sign language *finger guns*

Spoiler One of Your Books:

I might make another DoJae book, but they're married this time...

Song Recommendation:

"Strangers" by Kate Stewart