Jimin's POV

Love is crazy, wild, unpredictable, and unexpected. It can sneak up on you all of a sudden. It will come out of nowhere. It will come to you when you least expect it. Well at least for me this was the case. I never knew I would fall for someone so dangerous and criminal. There was something there though that I could not resist. As much as everyone would tell me that he was bad for me I didn't care. I threw all their words, worries, concerns, and advice into the wind and let them drift away elsewhere. I didn't let what they would say reach  my ears.

The thing is you don't choose the person you will love it just happens. Love chooses for you. I didn't choose to love the wrong kind of guy. Love made me love the wrong kind of guy. The one that I would have to fight every step of the way to love. If I had chosen who to love I would've chosen someone who everyone I surround myself with would've approved of. It would have saved me from breaking ties with my family and friends. I never was a rebellious child but where he was concerned I became a very rebellious child. He changed me but I didn't care. Because as long as he loved me back nothing else mattered. For me only he mattered. After a while only he existed in my life. Now as I look back at my life I don't regret anything. I would make the same choices over again if it meant being with him. The only thing I would want to change is the time of our meeting. I would meet him sooner so I could be happy longer and have more time with him.

I only hope my mother can find in her heart the strength to forgive me for everything I did that disappointed her. I hope she can forgive me for all the things I did wrong in my life. I know she wanted better for me. She had her own dreams for me. Love had other plans for me though. Love decided he needed someone to love him and love chose me to love him. I don't mind at all because he made me feel so alive. I felt good when I realized I made him feel alive too. He had felt for such a long time that he no longer deserved to love or be loved.

My only regret is that we won't become parents and we won't grow old together. What consoles me is that at least I get to die with him. We didn't want it to come to this but it did. We're tired of running and we don't want to get caught. Because if we get caught we will he separated and neither of us want that. So here I lie now hand in hand with the one I love with all my heart. Here I lie with him ready to die. I will die with him because I love him and without him life isn't worth living. I don't think I could go through life without seeing him next to me. He has become everything for me. I gave up so much for him. I live for him and without him my life isn't worth living. I wouldn't be able to live without waking up next to him. I would miss his rapping and his swag. I would miss how even though he acts cold and tough he really isn't. At least not with me. 

When he is with me he lets himself loose. He isn't concerned with the fact that I'll judge him. He has seen that none of his shadows from the past have been able to chase me or keep me away from him.  I have stuck by his side since I got close to him. He thought that as soon as I saw the demons from his past I would run away from him without looking back. However, I have never left his side. In fact I would cling to him so he wouldn't be the one to leave me behind. Several times he wanted to leave me because he felt that he was dragging me down with him. He felt that he was depriving me of my ability to find someone better. 

I open my eyes and snap out of my thoughts. I can no longer see my breath. I close my eyes again and I squeeze his hand once more and he squeezes back. We're slowly dying together. My strength is slowly leaving me. I open my eyes for what may be the last time and I take a look at him. He is looking back at me. I don't think I've ever seen anything more beautiful than those crystal blue eyes. And those beautiful eyes look at me now. Those eyes that were once full of pain are now full of love for me. The snow is still falling, covering us, and I realize that I no longer feel anything. The world is slowly starting to fade out.

 I need to tell him one last time before I leave. My voice slowly whispers those words, "I love you until the end of days." Those were the words I struggled to get him to comprehend once upon a time. Those were the words that made me cry of joy when he finally repeated them to me. Even now I hear him faintly whisper it back to me. It still makes me cry of happiness. I feel tears gather in my eyes and one makes its way down. I close my eyes content to leave this world behind and head with him hand in hand to our death. I love him so much it hurts. I never knew I would end here but I regret nothing. If I had my life to live over again I would find him sooner so that we wouldn't end like this. On this night with the full moon I prepare myself to leave this world hand in hand with the love of my life. 

A/N Did I make anybody cry yet? If so I apologize. Also if I confused you guys I'm sorry. If you have questions you can ask and I'll answer. I already have the rest of the ending planned but I don't think I'll reveal it until the very end. If you cried during this the rest of the ending will surely make you cry and if it doesn't you're better at handling your emotions than me. I felt so depressed while writing this. Like literally tears started rolling down my eyes and I started contemplating life. Honestly I don't know where some of these thoughts come from. Like I said most of this I already had written... I just added like 5,000 words more or less.  As you can tell from my writing I am a really troubled child. Well I was because I am about to become an adult. Cue more tears. Growing up is hard... Okay I think I should stop I kind of just started ranting and I think I made my note too long. I give you all virtual hugs from my screen because I'm feeling emotional. Like honestly how do my friends and family deal with me when I get like this? Anyways this is it see you in the next chapter. Love you all my beautiful readers!